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Comrade Thomas, what's going on with the five?

What's going on?

What's up, everyone?

I'm going to talk in a professional way today because I'm a very serious person.

Um.

What's up, everybody?

As you can see, I'm in my John Brown.

What's going on, John Brown?

So, I've a lot, you know, sometimes guys, I'm sitting like this, like, you know, I'm a king.

I sit on my throne, you know.

Anyway, guys, I'm going to talk professional today because I'm serious.

But, um,.

We have a really interesting stream planned for tonight.

If you're missing out on this one, I really feel bad for you.

I know these streams are late.

I have been I don't know if I'm sick.

I don't think I'm sick.

It's just um

Here's a theory I have.

I think yesterday I had a Chipotle.

This fucking microphone is really doing a shitty job at picking up my voice.

I had some Chipotle.

And it got stuck in my sinuses.

And I couldn't get it out.

Black back thing, I couldn't get it out.

And I guess it was just chilling there.

You know, and it had to like decompose into mucus or whatever and it's really disgusting and uncomfortable.

And I guess that my immune system attacked me because of that.

And so that's what I've been dealing with.

Um

It's honestly pretty bad.

It's not fun to experience, to say the least.

But here we are, here we are, my friends.

One second, speak of the devil, because I'm talking for the first time.

Anyway.

Anyway

We have a lot to talk about today, all right.

We I keep getting told that we're about to go to war with Iran or Trump is about to go to war, America is, and he's certainly threatening that much.

But I always I don't know if it's a bluff or I don't know what it is, 'cause I always hear that every fucking day it's the same thing, that it's going to happen imminently and war is coming in hours.

And I'd like to go on a rant for a second, and I know the RTSG guys have already been doing this, but I'd like to second the sentiment.

Ben Ghazi, what's up?

So look, we're a party, we have diverse whatever, you know.

I've never talked to Scott Ritter in my life, and I don't think I will ever, not just because of his scandalous or gross past.

But because he's just the biggest fucking bullshitter on alt media, or whatever you call it.

Scott Ritter and Douglas McGregor are the they are bullshit.

They spew bullshit like a machine gun.

They're always just lying about everything.

They've never actually had a correct prediction ever.

And they're always just making shit up all the time.

And I'm fucking sick of it.

I'm just sick of how much shit they make up and how much fake news we're always getting from them.

And that's just kind of the whole, you know, Bangalore, India, Bitcoin scam, alt media always on X.

Now, look, I'm gonna push back a little on the pessimism.

Against multipolarity, though, because Jackson told me this, and I was like, you know, you're actually so true.

So far, neither China, Iran, or Russia have broken ranks as far as their alliance.

On the contrary,

They are actually getting closer together.

And although you know it seems like is Trump playing them against each other, it kinda seems like they're playing Trump at this point.

Putin and Russia are not going and snaking Iran, Iran is not snaking them, there's nothing going on causing a rift between Russia and China relations so far.

I don't think they're they're begging for America's approval anymore.

I don't think that it's like how it was ten years ago.

Many of us wanted to be pessimistic and cynical, including myself to a certain extent, but it's just doesn't seem like it's panning out to be the case.

Does not at all seem to be the case.

Uh, when it comes to that, guys, I am like, I don't know why I could barely fucking talk 'cause my sinuses are all fucked up.

It's actually so bad.

Uh give me a second.

Give me a damn second, let me let me try to take care of this problem.

Alright, let's have it.

Mm.

Yeah, my bad.

Anyway, yeah.

Also, guys, I have some news.

I am gonna be.

Traveling not abroad domestically, all right?

Chill, party stuff.

Uh, some t I don't know though, I haven't decided, you know, but the confront the chairman space might actually be earlier than our usual Thursday.

We might have it on Wednesday, and I'll let you guys know, but I'm just putting it out there.

We we might have it on Wednesday this week, not Thursday, although the confront the chairman's space is

have been lacking to be generous.

The quality is shit and just no one wants to debate me.

No one wants to fucking debate me.

And I honestly, guys, I'll tell you why they don't want to debate me.

All right.

Uh we know right-wingers don't debate me.

Like wow, right?

It for seemingly different reasons.

But leftists don't want to debate me either because debating me would acknowledge that I.

You know, it would it would be like a akin for them to recognize recognizing that I exist.

These people don't even want to do that, you know?

And you know, their their whole thing from the very jump

Was that I was a clown.

I wasn't worth taking seriously.

I'm just this loud Arab guy.

I have nothing to say.

I'm you know I'm I can't possibly be articulate and have a unique, interesting perspective.

So that was what they tried from the get-go.

And as time moved on, they saw that this movement clearly did become something that they do take seriously.

It does catch their attention because they're always fucking talking about it.

But they still will never go back to the source and admit that they were originally wrong and debate the source, which is me.

They'll never fucking do it.

Because that is akin to admitting that they were originally wrong and arrogant and made a big fucking mistake overlooking me from the get-go, right?

So it's a very sad situation.

Not for me, not for them, but overall, it's a very sad situation because they will never do it.

And is it because they're scared?

I don't mean to be like ridiculous, you know.

I don't know what I would call it.

But in this specific case, I am not being unreasonable when I say that they don't debate me because they are scared.

They are definitely intimidated by me and they don't want to debate me because they are genuinely afraid.

Granted, a lot of them are afraid of any kind of confrontation in general because it gives them anxiety or whatever.

But in this specific case, they absolutely will not debate me because they know I have my shit together.

They know that I know what I'm talking about.

And.

You know, they would prefer to just laugh at me and dismiss me, uh, to cope.

But

That's the front they put on in public.

In in private that's not actually how they feel.

How they feel in private is that they fear me.

You know, i you'd think if they talk about us so much I I've been I've been saying the same I'm I'm getting sick of it, all right?

It's been four years of me saying you'd think that for people who talk about us all the time that they're at least would debate me.

I've been saying it for four years and I always punch myself in the head.

Because I'm like, get it together, man.

It's been four years.

You know, you should know better by now.

You should, and I do.

But then I see when they get one percent, they get one percent of this situation they've tried to put us in, they can never fucking handle it.

They're always complaining about how unfair they're being treated or whatever, this and that, about how and they lose their mind and then I'm like I feel less bad about myself in terms of how I reacted to things over the years because the truth is this shit is just designed to make people go crazy.

And it's not that I'm exceptionally sane, that I was able to resist.

a lot of the things that they are intended to push people towards, which is like schizophrenia or just total insanity.

No, it's because I was crazy to begin with, is the truth, in some kind of way.

And I I'm using crazy in a refined sense.

But, like, they the whole point was to drive you crazy, right?

They couldn't do that to me because from the get-go, I was fucking crazy, right?

And so it just like did not work.

And I just like the bullets bounced off of me, you know, because it's like, what are you doing?

You know, I'm already.

You know, I've I'm already, you know, on the crazy train.

For a long time.

What is what what what is this, you know?

No, the things that really do affect me are very m metaphysical.

They're very transcendent.

It's it's things that don't make sense on a at the level of personal subjectivity or ego.

But it is shit that is like

That that um

I see as cosmological agony that I feel I am very sensitive toward, you know?

And again, this that itself is a crazy thing to say, but whatever, right?

Um and what I mean by that is that

I always think of injustice and unfairness in metaphysical terms.

I'm not talking about this in the pejorative sense that dialectics regards metaphysics as, but I mean it in the sense that I don't consider it at the level of personal subjectivity.

Like, woe unto me, why is it so unfair to me, me?

It's not about me.

This says something about the nature of our existence.

It says something about the nature, the order of the stars, so to speak, that it's this way, right?

And.

Attempting to understand that is agonizing sometimes.

But when you commit yourself to that perspective, you avoid a lot of the pitfalls of the narcissists who really just

That's the default of every single human being is that they're a narcissist under capitalism or whatever, right?

You always think it's about you, it's not true, right?

Oh, one sec.

I wanna poke you at all Nah won't pick it because I like it all I can't wanna see you fall I keep on chasing the highs I know I can never get back so I'm always on low And I got eyes on the back of my head, I got eyes everywhere so I know where you go I can drop ties in this bitch Drop like flies in this bitch I cut ties in this bitch I'll cut ties in your face Yeah, cut you like a lace Nothing I do could be replaced That's why I literally

So, guys, today I'm gonna basically have you be my therapist.

Because I'm just such a lonely person that I need someone to talk to.

Anyway, um

What was I saying?

The way I see it is that, like, pretend I'm sitting on the couch and you guys are like the therapist, right?

I don't want your fucking feedback though, because you're all retarded, right?

But I'll uh.

I'll definitely just put this out there.

So.

I actually very much find it easy to like be at peace with how fucked up it is and how unjust the Empire of Lies is and how fucking dirty they do me and all my friends and comrades, how dirty they do Jackson of just like Hassan fedjacketing him in front of 30,000, all these people fedjacketing him and the double standards and all that twisted sick shit.

But you know what really gets to me is that when I make peace with it and I rationalize it and I'm like, this is just how it is.

It's normal.

It's natural.

I can be calm about it.

Totally impersonal, totally objective, and it's chill, right?

But what really drives me crazy and what really causes anger for me.

Is when I see one percent of that injustice get done to s to our perpetrators, right?

Oftentimes it's our it's the perpetrators.

Whenever I see them react to one percent of what we deal with on a daily basis and how they can't handle it.

Something about

So that triggers something.

I don't know if it's MK Ultra, I don't know what it is.

It triggers something in me that makes me feel like I should be really overreacting to this shit.

Like, I am way too calm.

Why am I putting up with this?

Why should I?

But like th those feelings are exactly what the feds want to be evoked in you.

They want you to crash out.

They want you to do something fucking crazy because you're taking it personally on a subjective level.

And but but it's it's when you're aware of the fact that they're trying really hard to make it so unfair that you can't help but feel like it's actually personal, right?

Like it's how unfair it is that feels like it's personal, right?

But it's really not personal, is the trick.

And that's the really hard thing to understand.

It really isn't personal, right?

But they really try to make you feel that way because of how they rub it in your face how unfair it is.

We can do all this shit to you.

And you're supposed to just take that, but 1% of it happens to them and they fucking lose their mind.

And I'm always seeing them soy out and crash out and just go full psycho and talk about how much they're distressed and it's causing them so much agony and shit.

And I'm like, wow, that's 1% of what you put us through.

1% of it.

1% of your own fucking medicine.

If the injustice that was done against Jackson, 1% of it was done against Hassan, The Guardian run articles about it, the shocking double standards of how the fucking New York Times, all these journalists, there'd be a whole discourse about it.

And like, I get really, really triggered by that.

I get really triggered when the discourse pretends like they have morality.

It really fucking bothers me.

Like, sure, it's a jungle.

Let it be survival of the fittest, whatever.

Let's just, it's war, right?

There's no morals.

There's no nothing.

It's a fucking forest.

It's a wilderness.

I can make peace with that in a dharmic way.

Just like those fucking crazy Buddhists in ancient history that would tell the king, they would say, it's all just win.

Just slaughter everyone.

It doesn't even matter.

Like, I can make peace with it, right?

But

When the discourse starts talking about morality, like oh, it's kind of unfair how we're treating Hassan, Hassan deserves more credit, oh it's more it's kind of unfair how we're treating uh I don't know, this this other internet celebrity, we're moral when they pretend to have morals, it really, really triggers the fuck out of me.

You don't have any fucking morals, you don't have any consistency, you don't have any fucking humanity, you're a literal piece of shit with nothing.

You ha I mean, how does that even fucking work?

How does that hypocrisy even work?

Where th and they don't even see it themselves.

They they pretend to have a semblance of principles and morals, and that is what triggers me, you know?

It's not the fact that they lack those things that triggers me, it's the fact that they pretend to have them really does actually trigger the shit out of me, you know?

I fucking hate hypocrites and they should be whipped in the street, right?

It's disgusting.

Um

The charity with which they treat people within their discourse for crimes that are much worse than the ones they even the worst ones they make up that they accuse of us.

It's meant to feel personal, like it's fucking crazy, you know?

Um no, there's no morality there, there's nothing.

And people call us brutal and they call us toxic and they call us cruel.

All we're doing is holding up a fucking mirror in front of you, you know?

We're w we just are guilty of defending ourselves 'cause most people are just supposed to be uh get trampled over and take it, you know.

They're supposed to get trampled over and not say a fucking thing about it.

And all we're just defending ourselves.

And look how toxic and brutal we are and shit.

Well, it's a reflection of what's being thrown at us.

Okay.

I can't tell you how many people would relentlessly talk shit about us in the most abusive, disturbing, fucked up ways.

Such bad faith, such lack of charity, constantly fucking talking shit about us.

Then the guerrillas mob them and swarm them, and they act like fucking victims.

How are you a fucking victim, you bitch?

We're just giving you what you're, it's a reflection of you, you know, what you're an innocent bystander.

Oh, the gorillas are so toxic.

You guys are not.

You're so charitable.

Every time a person even jokes about joining us, I'm always seeing gorillas be like, No, you should join us.

Like, that's the energy we should have.

You guys are super charitable, you know?

Always.

Every time people just show a hint, a hint of critical thinking and like push back even just a little bit on the stupid attacks on us.

You guys always overlook all of their like.

Sins, and you're willing to like lend out your hand and be like, yo, just join us.

Like, that's how you got to be, right?

I'm proud of that.

That's so true.

People need to understand the people that are at the receiving end of the wrath of this community truly and really do fucking deserve it and we're begging for it.

That's just I like objectively, how can anyone who researches it or or studies

Our interactions with others

Disagree with that.

Every single person that fucks with us

Every single person that receives the wrath of the guerrilla army was begging for it and was given multiple opportunities to fuck off and didn't.

It's just the truth.

Um, it's just the truth, you know?

And uh

No, I mean I I think that uh

It's hard to be like a uh dharmic Buddhist or whatever.

It's really hard to be that.

And you know, can I ins I don't want to insult traditional religions, so I won't.

But I really want to say something about like can I say something about the Tibetan Buddhism?

You know what, I will, 'cause they're not even gonna get offended 'cause they're so out of it, they don't even give a fuck, right?

You know why I don't fuck with like the Buddhism where like they're they they have the robes and they're skinny and they're just sitting on their their legs crossed and shit?

Because as a licentist, I'm like Yo, sleeper with the ten, what's up?

Because as a lysenquist, here's my take.

I'm like.

You know, I'm like, but I straight up don't want to look like that.

Like, that sounds stupid, but it's like.

I don't want to look like that.

I don't want to have the orange robe and be like starving and skinny.

Like, I'm not trying to follow that as a role model.

Like, if I start having those thoughts and see the world that they see it, I will start looking like that shit.

I don't want to look like that.

Like, that's not goals for me, you know what I mean?

So that's my criticism.

Like, I don't, I don't.

I'm not trying to like end up like that, you know?

And they're like, no, this is the way.

I'm like, how is that the way?

How is that the way?

You know, you go in nature, you see a lion.

A lion is healthy, it's active, it's it's hunting and sh I ain't never seen a lion, you know, looking famished and and oh, this is the way.

I mean, ain't that ain't the way.

Sorry, I don't wanna sound ignorant, but it's just

That's just my take.

And I'm not talking about Buddhism as a whole.

I'm talking about.

Something very specific, you know?

I'm talking about that.

Yeah, I guess that's Thai Buddhism or whatever.

Like, I don't know.

There's a lot of things about asceticism I don't like.

Um.

But the problem with Buddhism

This could be very, I don't think this is true, by the way.

The problem with Western Buddhism is to go the safe route, because that's what Shijadek always says: Western Buddhism.

The problem with Western Buddhism.

Is that

Sometimes you do gotta notice shit.

Like, sometimes you do gotta pay some shit mind.

Sometimes you do gotta get angry.

Sometimes you do gotta just, like, huh?

Do do a do a double check, whatever they call it, a double take.

Like, you could just.

Sometimes I'm sitting and I just let shit pass my.

Did you just hear them say that?

I'm like.

Mm.

Don't make a difference.

I wasn't even paying attention, but then it's like

No, you gotta notice that shit, you know?

Um, I always used to be like that on on on Twitch when I was like

Debating, you know.

Sometimes I would be tuned out and I would not be listening to what they're saying and they're being really passive aggressive and like, Oh, I I wasn't even paying attention Like, did you just notice that shit?

And I'm like, Well

It means nothing to me.

Like, we're all just fucking floating in the void or whatever, right?

No, you gotta notice it, you know, because that's.

That's where all the communication is happening.

I felt really good.

You can't, yeah, you can't ignore bullshit all the time, you know?

And I feel like the dharmic religions are saying, ignore the bullshit, just be chill, you know?

I can't do it.

I can't I I try to ignore bullshit.

You can't ignore all of it.

You know, it's a bad idea.

You gotta

Things have to be intelligible, you know.

Can we react to Jack's interviewing Ron Paul?

Uh if I was a good streamer I would say yes.

Like if I was an effective good live streamer.

If I was like Hassan Piker credit where credit's due, he's clearly talented at what he does, if he's retaining all that, whatever.

But

The reason I'm not gonna do that

Is because we're just going to be nodding our head the whole time.

And there's we're not going to make fun of anything.

We're not going to laugh at anything.

We're not I'm not going to get angry at anything.

We're just going to be like, oh, that, you know.

That do be true, you know?

It's like, okay, it's true, like, it's true.

Um

That stuff I think is meant for like like actual people who are on like not necessarily on our plane.

Like those it's like for people that actually they're getting new information from it, which we're probably not for for a Ron Paul interview, right?

And um

So that's the th that's the thing, you know.

Jackson is always surprised that sometimes I just don't see the interviews he does.

I'm like, Yo, did you watch that interview?

And I was like, Bro, I don't even watch my own shit.

I don't watch anything.

I I sh I that's true, by the way.

I don't watch my own shit.

I really don't watch my own shit.

I don't watch anything, man.

I just.

I um

No, I do not watch my own shit.

I don't watch anyone's shit, you know?

Unless it's an extraordinary thing and it's like important information.

But if I want information, I just call up.

I'll call Jackson, I'll call Eddie, I'll call whatever.

I'll be like, Yo, what's good?

And they'll just tell me.

Th the thing is, I um I'm not a good content creator.

Maybe because I'm not I don't enjoy consuming content.

Um on the internet.

Like sometimes I'll put on YouTube on my T V upstairs, my big ass TV, you know, my 85 inch.

I'll put on YouTube and I'll just like

I'll put on like those those um

4k, uh, you know, this island in 4K, uh, stunning quality.

And I just like, I gotta get my money's worth for this fucking TV because I went to Best Buy or whatever, and I was looking at them previews they do on Best Buy.

Whoa!

And I ain't watched a single fucking movie or a TV show or anything that matched the quality that Best Buy sold to me, you know.

So sometimes I go on YouTube and I want to.

I wanna see what I'm paying for, you know.

I wanna remind myself why I fucking spent this money on this fucking T which I bought like three years ago, but none th nevertheless.

You know, I you they make you think that you're gonna be so you go to Best Buy, you look at the T Vs.

They make you think that's what it's gonna be like.

They make it think like, oh, that's what it's going to look like, right?

Hey, nothing in the world looks like that, all right?

Even real life don't look that good, even motherfucking real life don't look as good as those 4K HD tourist best buy videos.

Even even fucking even Jenna don't look that good.

You understand?

Even heaven above don't look that good.

There's nothing in the world that looks as good.

As when they're showing some Italian city in the 4K HD Best Buy TV, there's nothing in existence that looks that good.

I

And it's just an illusion.

It's Satan's tricks.

It's literally Lucifer trying to trick you.

Low-key, hold on.

I don't give a fuck.

You know, if I'm going to hell for that, I deserve it because I've done much worse.

I said much worse.

You know, the way they show the ocean and shit.

I mean, nothing in the world looks that good, okay.

Until it burns in.

I don't know what the hell that even means.

I don't know why I sound retarded tonight.

I sound like Theo Vaughn.

I know about Theovan.

I f I sound like a fucking dumbass like him right now.

Um

I'm gonna try to put it out, get get a little smart here.

Um

Marvin Beak.

Oh man, now I'm a serious person, everyone, please.

Just let me find that song.

Can I find the song?

This is the story of Marvin Big!

This is the story of Marvin Grenade.

Shit goes hard.

And she goes hard.

Not gonna lie.

This is the story of Marvin B.

all right can i just like full dis disclosure something um i have nothing planned for tonight's stream i have nothing planned i straight up was super busy all day i hit the live button thinking i'll come up with some off the top of my head looks like we're gonna have to get a little creative here full disclosure i ain't got nothing planned zapatiz bro can i let me tell you let you guys in on a little secret all right every time I start the stream saying, hey, what's up, guys?

We got a lot of important things to talk about.

That's me improvising because I got nothing to talk about.

I ain't got a fucking thing to talk about.

I'm wishing it into existence.

I'm hyping it up.

I'm casting it out there so that I'm inspired to talk about something important.

But in that moment I don't have anything.

Um and that's the truth, you know?

That's really the truth.

I I wanna talk about what's on my mind.

No, I don't wanna fucking play a video game.

I'm not gonna just shit up the stream with nonsense and fucking trolling.

I wanna talk about some deep thoughts I've been having, which is, um

This is too high level.

I don't know.

I don't know.

This is like if I talk about this, it's gonna really seem like this is a cult and it's not my intention.

Because

It's just like me, you know?

And it's gonna make it seem like I'm like encouraging.

Cult-like things like isolating yourself and shit.

I'm straight up not.

I'm just talking about me.

Like, um.

Which is this whole thing about receptivity, you know, like just how some people are just addicted to receptivity.

Like, if they are starved of social interaction.

It's like a fish out of the water and they need to immediately latch onto something.

And I think about that a lot because I don't have that.

But I did have that at a certain point in my life.

But I don't have that.

And it is natural, it seems, but I also think it's also a source of corruption sometimes because.

It allows people to get pulled in every kind of direction just through social engineering and manipulation.

And it makes people lose their principles just because it's because they're they're getting that fulfillment from re that that that receptivity that they crave and need and it literally like a physical need, they need the receptivity.

like like food, you know?

So like they can be pulled and manipulated in any kind of fucking way just to have that, even if it's coming at the expense of principle and they know what's right.

And I kind of feel like for a long period of my life, I um

always try to sabotage all of the circuits of receptivity that I've ever had, you know, like relationships, friendships, anything really.

I always just want to break it, break out of it, you know?

'Cause I'm the way I see it is like

This is just some

This is this is not where the truth is, you know.

But it's not, I don't recommend that at all.

I'm just saying, like.

Um, and people don't get it.

They think I'm like narcissistic, I'm an asshole, something like that, but it's like.

Um

I I do f I will say this, I think to be a revolutionary

And I hate using that word sometimes because it feels like LARP.

But like to be a revolutionary in some sense

You do have to absolutely, violently abstract yourself from a warm, familial.

And

Um

Uh uh how should I put it?

Like

You need to lose a sense of belonging you have.

You need to like lose a sense of embeddedness and groundedness you have.

And just completely.

Um

Embrace something very alien, alienating, you know.

Um, and that is very hard for people to do, you know, but

Yeah.

The the key is

that I think is the best is like to balance it, where

You know what you're living for, but you don't you also know like the material realities of you know various re different relationships you have and obligations, social obligations you have, whatever.

And as long as you can, in a sense, not confuse the two.

One being like the ultimate

Source of logos for you, right?

This is like the ultimate source of the entire meaningfulness of life.

And what it w like what you live and die by basically, right?

There's that, and then there's

The reality of your social and familial obligations.

And they're not they're related, but they're not the same.

You can't you shouldn't mesh them together.

You shouldn't blend them and you shouldn't you shouldn't sacrifice your principles and allow your principles to be socially engineered.

You shouldn't allow the twists and turns in your friend groups and your your personal life to define your actual honor and your principles, you know?

And one religion that's super big on that is Islam, to be fair.

Super big on that, right?

Islam basically honor.

includes certain levels of obligation to your family, of course, it's it's definitely making sense of the existing systems of kinship and and honor relationships and and codes that existed before and it's making those coherent and giving them an ultimate sense of meaningfulness.

But when all is said and done,

What you ultimately live and die by is this like is by is God, right?

You like like and and God in the form of a community of believers.

And sometimes the community of believers can actually cut through kinship systems.

So they say, for example, in the times of the prophet, you had father and son fighting each other, for example, right?

And um

Obviously there are disturbing variations of that in in in terrorism and shit.

Um although

You know, some people will say like that has nothing to do with Islam.

I agree, it has nothing to do with Islam.

But it's definitely trying to exploit and weaponize aspects of Islam for b for evil ends, of course, but, you know.

That's why they're able to do it, you know?

Um

But uh what was I saying?

Yeah, I don't know.

I dunno.

But um

The circuits of receptivity that you

Are embedded in, or that you're used to in your life.

It's you basically think of it this way: what are circuits of receptivity?

Like, what do I mean by that, right?

I feel like everybody has a definite pattern of social interaction.

Like, for example, you go to work, like your workplace, right?

At your workplace, you may hate someone.

You may, out of principle, say this person's the worst, whatever.

But it's like you are just so used to like talking to them in, you know, I don't know, in the break room, and that specific person, you're just, you can't even fucking help it.

You're always talking to them, right?

And it's like you have friends, you know, you don't even like them that much, but like you're always just used to hanging out with them every Saturday or something, right?

Like, just for the sake of it, right?

Then, of course, like, you know, there's so many different examples of this where it's like there's these just these patterns and cycles and circuits of receptivity.

What that means is like you.

Need the feedback.

You know, it may not be right for you.

You know, it's like not necessarily good for you, or it's um.

It's like totally meaningless, right?

But you just need the feedback.

Like a fish needs to be in water.

Like you fucking need it, right?

Like you need confirmation that you exist as a human being, right?

And what ends up happening is that people in their head will be like, I hate this person, I hate these friends I have, I hate this, I hate my social life and I I find it meaningless and vapid and useless.

When they'll tell themselves that in private,

And becu precisely because on this rational conscious level they totally repudiate and reject it, they fall into these habitual circuits of receptivity where they're getting their social feedback

From sources

In a purely pathological way, just because they need the oxygen, the social oxygen, right?

And um

I think that the solution to that is to actually um

Well, I don't think I have a solution to it.

That's the problem.

Like, I don't think I have a solution to it because my fucking solution is just like I straight up just don't talk to anyone, which is fucked up.

But it's like, I don't.

And I don't.

It's not that I.

It's not that it bothers me.

It just kind of bothers me that it doesn't bother me.

Because.

It's very alienating.

Like, no, I straight up don't like having vapid, fucking meaningless conversations just for the sake of it.

But on the other hand, it's like

Is that am I a monster for like

You know, I don't know.

You see what I'm getting at here?

It's like I don't necessarily have good advice about this problem.

Because it's it's tragic.

I just wanna tell you the truth.

The tragedy is

Um, we just well, to me, for me, right, I just don't think.

Um, we it's not about society, it's like if there was a huge, massive Communist Party where like everybody was always talking about interesting things and there's a whole school of thought and it's like it's really interesting and like

Um

I could be very social, like I could see myself as a social person, talking all the time and shit, right?

But it's like, I think in the society we live in, a lot of people just live for themselves and are stuck in that.

And they can't get past the whole thing about like personal subjectivity and like they're the center, everything is for them.

So it's like it's super alienating as a communist to live in a capitalist society, if that makes sense in a lot of ways.

It's super alienating because I'm not saying I communists are better on a moral level, but it is very fucking different.

Like it is very fucking different.

Like what you, how you understand what a problem is and how you comprehend your place in the cosmos is very different if you're actually a communist versus if you're like a normie under capitalism, right?

And I'm saying under capitalism, not to be pretentious.

I'm saying that because most people just um

Most people just see the point of living.

This is, this is, put it this way, right?

A lot of people have this ideal of like what it means to live a good life, right?

99.999% of people will fail to get this ideal, but it's always like I get a good career and I have a good salary and I have my family and it's a normal life, you know, and you know, it's like.

And I want to say I agree, but in my heart of hearts, I don't.

Like, I find I it's not for me.

If if if that's working for people, I don't want to be the source of distress and turbulence and trouble.

But it's like for me,

The ideal, right, is like something grand on a historical level.

Like something really grand, something really new, something that is not before, something that is um the whole collective.

Society and nation marching in a direction of history, like something like that, you know?

That to me is like the point of life, in a way, right?

And

It's hard that that is not a given for the overwhelming majority of people.

That's not what's given.

Like, that is something extraordinary and exceptional.

And, like, oh, you're you must be exceptionally a morally good person.

I am not an exceptionally morally good person.

I am not an exceptionally virtuous person.

I'm just a communist, and it makes me really fucking different, you know, from the majority of people in the society I live in.

Not morally better, just literally different, you know?

Like in the sense that it is qualitatively a different version of what it means to be human, you know?

And you know what's fucked up is like when I go to Russia, although Russia is not a communist country, I do not feel this alienation in Russia at all.

I straight up do not.

In Russia, it really feels like the people who are really embracing the the Western consumeristic Gucci bag lifestyle, like they're really like going out of their way to be extra, it feels like.

And it feels like the default, which a lot of people are trying to escape and whatever, but the default is

How I already feel, like, which is that our place in the cosmos is about.

you know, the the bigness of humanity and it's like

To um

To walk in the embrace of a future together, you know?

I don't know.

Sounds stupid when I vocalize it, but it's like.

That seems very like much the given, you know?

And here it's not.

And here.

It's not that I have resentment or I blame people for that.

Which I don't.

It's just that's how people are raised, and they don't know any alternative.

Like, here, the way people are socialized is that their version of communism is a fantasy where they are the subject themselves and

They are going to attain this future where they're like smiling in the sun and like happiness.

I'm on the beach on my vacation.

Like, that is still this remote.

It's like, it's like communistic in the sense, like, it's a utopia.

It's not real in the utopian sense of communism, right?

But the difference is like they are the center of that fantasy.

It's about them.

And at no point do they just risk suspending that fantasy of what the good life is in something impersonal, in something unconditionally social, like in the sense that it's like it's out there and it's the whole people, right?

And it's not just you, it's something speaking.

Uh in the void by itself, and it's not your voice, but your voice is from that voice.

Sorry guys, this sounds crazy, but I hope you get it a little bit.

And like I have

You know, like sometimes people it's fucked up of me.

I don't know, like, this is fucked up.

Like, sometimes people will come up to you and it's so innocent 'cause it's, you know, they'll talk about some mundane, vapid thing that means nothing.

And I'm like, I could tell that you're making me part of like your own narcissistic fantasy where you're the center and like I don't it's making like I don't want to fucking talk to you.

Like, even when the elder, I'm gonna shit on the elderly for one second.

Jimmy, what's up?

So fucked up.

But the elderly do this all the time, and I'm always on to them.

I'm like, you are a narcissist, straight up.

You're a narcissist.

I would never say, I'm not a crazy person.

I'm not fucked up.

I'd never say that to them, but I'm going to confess that's how I feel a lot of the time.

Like, you just can't get over the fact that you're not the center.

And so, what to me does it mean to have social interactions that are communistic, as weird as that sounds, right?

Does it mean that you're always talking about politics and social issues and science?

No, it doesn't.

But it's a way of speaking about things where, like,

In a way that's natural, you're not making yourself the subject, if that makes sense.

Like.

You know, like, I don't know, you could it's like, um

You could be talking about the fucking weather and it's like

There's different ways of talking about the weather.

You could be like, Yeah, I mean, this is a crazy storm.

Um, I I don't think there's been a storm like this in decades, you know.

Like to me, that's the communistic way, but the the capitalistic way would be like

Be like, this was a really crazy storm, and I am the center of it, and it's about me.

And the storm happened for me, and it was just all about me.

And it's like, I don't care, you know, like, I don't know you like that.

I don't want to talk to you about when you go to the bathroom and take a dump.

And sometimes I feel like people are crossing a line when they make themselves the fucking subject of every conversation.

Is that fucked up with me?

And look, I make myself the subject of conversation all the time.

There's nothing wrong with that.

But I don't.

How do I explain this?

It's like it's in a way where.

Um

That is not the most important thing about that I'm talking about.

Like, that's not the point.

If you talk about yourself, that's fine.

But when people make that the point of what they're talking about, it rubs me the wrong way.

Sometimes I'll talk about myself to try and illustrate an example of like a bigger point.

I'm not saying this has to be like a deep point.

I'm not saying it has to be virtuous.

I'm not saying it has to be moral or political or ideological or anything like that.

That's why it's fucked up because like actually being a communist is not about ideology.

It's just a very different form of humanity.

And it's not necessarily more moral or less moral, it's just fundamentally qualitatively different, you know?

Um

Do I sound fucking crazy?

Yeah, like if someone says How are you?

instead of saying good they like actively explain their problems.

Yeah, that's kind of

That's kind of no, you guys don't get it.

I don't know.

Um, that's kind of kind of what I'm talking about.

Like, yeah, like, oh, uh, how are you doing?

Oh, I'll tell you, I had the worst day.

Why does that piss me off?

I'm like, dude, I have bad fucking days all the time.

I don't fucking talk about them.

Why do I have to fucking hear about shit that should just be we all go through bad days.

Like, why am why it's I don't know.

Like, I'm venting to you guys about that, but I would never do this in real life 'cause I know it's fucked up and weird.

But I'm just like venting it to you guys 'cause it's how I feel, honestly.

Like, versus, you know, okay, there's two ways.

Like, someone comes up to you.

I had the worst day.

I couldn't believe it.

I was held up.

I don't like that, but versus versus this, and this is why by the way, if you have to force this consciously.

Ignore what I'm saying because I'm talking about something very unconscious, like a very unconscious difference in how people communicate, communistic versus, you know, I don't know, liberal capitalism, versus like you're talking about the event itself and you're centering that.

Like, oh, you know, I had a pretty bad day.

Apparently, they're holding up everybody at the line.

It's pretty crazy.

Like, that is totally fine to me because it's like you're talking about something.

That actually has that's worth talking about, using speech to communicate to another person.

But when you make yourself the ultimate and sole exclusive subject of what you're talking about, it's a very subtle distinction.

I hope you guys have the intelligence to like comprehend this very subtle distinction.

Like one is like you're talking about how

You were like, I had a really bad day.

Like, as if it fucking matters that you had a bad day.

It doesn't.

Versus, I had a pretty bad day.

Here's what happened.

It's pretty shocking.

Because in the second case, you're not making the fact that you had a bad day the most important thing.

You're making the fact that this is happening in general and could possibly happen to people in general as the subject of what you're talking about.

Like, it's a very subtle distinction.

A very subtle subtle distinction.

Um, and the elderly are the biggest, they are the most guilty of the narcissism I'm talking about.

And I hate saying that because I love the elderly and they're sweet and they're great, but they came from a generation where the individual subject was sovereign and intact.

And we are in a generation now where individual subjectivity is being ripped apart by TikTok and the acceleration of cybernetic forms of socialization.

And like, once you see the boomers from that perspective, they look pretty fucking ridiculous and insufferably narcissistic.

They look insufferably s narcissistic from that perspective.

Um because they gen they genuinely live in this fantasy where like they are the center of existence.

Um

I like the elderly and I'm not here to shit on them.

I'm just here to say something that bothers me about them that I would never say in other any other setting.

Because I don't blame them.

I find it a tragedy.

Because they can't help it.

It's not their fault.

And if you could see past it.

then you're chill because you're like, oh, that's just how they were raised.

Like that at that point the resentment disappears, you know, it's like it's chill.

And you even see something if you have the mercy, you can even see it as very endearing.

But

If you actually take it seriously on an intersubjective level and acquiesce and like submit to their terms of communication, that could be a source of huge resentment, you know, if you're not coming from that generation.

Um I feel like this was also uh in a lot of ways

I don't wanna get into that actually.

It's fucking crazy.

Um

No, I'll get into it.

This is why when it happened, when the Me Too movement happened, I instantly sided with the victims.

And I was like, fuck these disgusting boomers.

And there were so many people, you know, they were making like, well, some of the victims are like over-exaggerating, and I'm like, but you don't get it.

Like, these boomer people that are in a position of power are taking way too many liberties because they literally are too fucking narcissistic to understand that they're not at the fucking center and they are too.

You know, some you know Zijek was so like outspokenly against it.

Against the Me Too thing.

And he it's the same boomer shit where they're like, no, it's a destruction of culture that we can't just.

We can't just fulfill our our addiction to our circuits of receptivity.

And it's like, no, sleeper, I don't fucking believe that.

I think women are just as bad as men.

Um

And that, you know, they're they could be just as evil.

There's nothing about women that make them better than men.

Anything men can do by way of deceit and lying and whatever, women are the fucking same way, you know.

But um

But what but in general, the the dictatorship

I hate I resent the dictatorship of these like boomers that force everyone to be part of their personal fantasy and a victim of their addiction to receptivity.

Even though the young victims or whatever

Whether they're victims of sexual harassment or any kind of harassment, they are only there to make money and they're there because they're in an institution.

And yet the boomer bosses will be like, No, it's 'cause we're all here as friends and we're all here and you you have to be a fucking uh uh uh uh uh a re a reflection or a an outlet for receptivity for me.

I was always on some Squidward shit where I'm like, if we are here to get our bag, if we are here.

to make money, right?

Then be Squidward.

Then fuck you!

We're not friends because if we were friends.

I would be getting benefits.

I would be getting a decent wage.

This would be a good job in general.

Like, it would be fair.

You wouldn't be wasting my time all the time.

You would.

Shit would be a lot different.

If I'm just here to make money, fuck you.

I don't owe you a fucking thing except what's in the contract and nothing else.

You know?

Some boomers had it rough.

No, I'm not attacking all boomers.

Don't get me wrong.

I'm not attacking all boomers.

I'm attacking a specific tendency among boomers that I blame for the worst thing, which is millennials.

The worst generation by far are millennials.

Like, it's not even close.

Millennials, as someone who's kind of a millennial myself, take it from me, when they are the worst generation of all time.

Of all modern I'm not even kidding, the entire modern history of mankind.

The entire modern history of mankind.

Beginning

Let's say in the seventeen fifties.

There isn't a single generation since the seventeen fifties worse than millennials.

They were the worst.

The worst

By far.

And what terrifies me is the idea that they're actually going to take power.

Because you know how it is, the people who turn 50 are usually the ones that take power.

If you look at the Bolshevik Revolution, the Bolsheviks were about 50 years old when they took power.

The French Revolution, I think it was the same, wasn't it?

Or I don't know, I could be making that up.

Usually, it's like that generation, 40 years old, that takes power.

Usually, it's 40 to 50 that take power, right?

Um, and if there's no revolution, you get a gerontocracy usually absent revolution.

The tendency always goes to gerontocracy, right?

It's always like people in their 80s and 90s who rule.

But if there's a revolution, it's always people in their like 40s and their 50s that rise up and take power, you know.

So basically, we need to dump all the millennials into the ocean before that.

I'm just kidding, it's a joke.

But that does need to not happen, you know.

Like, it needs to be prevented from happening.

I won't let it happen.

I'm ashamed to be a millennial.

Look, I'm a fucking millennial, all right?

Um

Yeah, I mean I I I think I am.

You know the the thing is is that I am a millennial, I'll tell you why.

When I go on a millennial's stream, I understand it.

Like, I can speak the language.

Like, I can actually communicate.

But if I were to go on Aiden Ross's stream and if I were to go on a stream, um,

Like hosted by a Zoomer, I couldn't fit in.

Like, I would not understand it.

I would not be able to, like, be normal, you know?

At all.

So, like, I guess that does make me a millennial.

'Cause like I understand Zoomers from a distance, but I don't really, like, know how to talk to Zoomers.

Um

I'm very strange to Zoomers.

Yeah, I don't I don't really know how to talk to them.

They're always like very fidgety and like

You know, and C and like I don't

I don't understand.

Gen Z got the most aura.

You know, it's really not true, okay?

And I'm shitting on millennials, but that doesn't mean I think Gen Z is great.

All right, Gen Z.

Gen Z, like the people with the the carrot top, whatever, like, they're so autistic.

They're just like autistic in a Deleuzian sense.

They're like autistic in a rhizomatic sense.

Like they're they're

Millennials are the type that'll like fucking

Let me t I'm trying to think of a meme.

Trying to think of one of those fucking memes that are on TikTok.

Oh, yeah, those just like pop in, uh, you know, you'll be live streaming, like, in public.

They'll pop in only in Ohio and they'll run away.

Like, that's the Gen Z fucking

Vibe.

They are like they can't they're fidgety and they're like they can't commit to an a line of

Thought.

They can't commit to a line of conscious thinking.

They're j it's just all like partial objects and partial drives and these fragmented forms of communication and enunciation.

And every time they are called upon to commit to a conscious line of thinking, they turn into like SpongeBob where they like start shaking.

It's like you caught them.

No, no, no.

I didn't mean to.

You're free.

Let loose.

So that is something I don't uh that's fucked up about millennials.

Or sorry, about Gen Z.

The problem with millennials

Is that

They can com they can think uh formally, I guess.

But

I don't know.

The problem with millennials is that they have the capacity to be extremely serious and

Concentrate when it comes to thinking, but they need.

I hate the Dorno so much, but they need something Adorno called, what is it called?

Is it called repressive desublimation?

They need something like repressive desublimation, where they can commit to like a formal formalism and serious thinking, but they need that like cringe outlet to be like free and spontaneous.

Whether it's like they have a punk rock band or some other fucking cringe thing where like I can

Like

Like they need some shit like that.

Or else they go crazy.

And I and it's disgusting.

It's really disgusting.

Like Ben Norton, precisely like Ben Norton.

Precise precisely precisely.

Precisely fucking Ben that Ben Norton shit.

It's exactly what I'm fucking talking about.

Look, I imagine Fiorella and her like mean girl trio

They probably like when they get together, they probably like have like scarves like around their shoulders and they have like wine glasses.

Come on, guys, let's loosen up and they just like do these like cringe and they're like spinning and they're like, Oh, we're so crazy

You need to understand the level of hate I'm on.

Like, I actually think about these disgusting, cringe things that my enemies do on a very visceral level and I get angry about it.

Like it's super tame.

They're not doing anything like scandalous, but it's like

Woo!

We're be we work for the news, but we could get down a little bit.

Uh-huh.

We can be a little bit we can be a little bit spontaneous.

I'm an advanced level hater.

I'm not gonna I'm not gonna lie, you know, like shit.

I could you know what they need to make me you know what they need to put me in charge of?

Put me in charge of White Lotus.

I I don't just I I can't justify White Lotus like I hate it but me my dream all right fine I'll tell you my my narcissistic dream me and Logo direct and write White Lotus season four

Let us do it.

Let us do it.

Me and Logo.

I know for a fact Logo will be more savage than me.

And Logo won't even laugh about it.

Like, he'll be dead serious.

Put me and Logo in charge of White Lotus Season 4.

I guarantee you, we make the best thing in the world.

It'd be so good.

It'd be s it it you guys would cry tears of laughter and joy if we made that.

But they'll never do that.

They'll never fucking do it.

Oh my god.

I j I really um

I I could I could excel.

I could really

I could really do that.

Um

What would you do?

I would just know how to like really make you hate and cringe at a character.

And Logo knows how to do that as well.

Like Logo understands these this like subtle reality of like the true dark depths of psychology, which is just how pathetic fucking how pathetic people are in their attempt to enact and fulfill their retarded, meaningless, narcissistic fantasies.

Um

You know South Park South Park does that as well.

Like South Park does that really well too.

South Park usually victimizes Randy as like the for some reason Randy is always like the exemplary case of like

The White Lotus character was being like a ridiculous retard.

But that's why it's so funny, you know?

I'm so worried about the next season of South Park.

I hope they don't talk about Palestine at all.

I don't want them to.

Um

But I could see them like making Randy into like a hardcore Zionist where like Randy's just on the computer and he's like, What's this?

and like, no, Randy like goes to like some local thing and like there's like some Zionist um IDF recruitment thing and they're like

And oh, they take Randy on a uh birth what is it called?

What is it called where they bring people to Israel, quote unquote?

Um what is that called?

Birthright.

They take Randy on a birthright, even though he's not Jewish.

He like sneaks in or something and he like becomes this like narcissistic Zionist like LARPing as if he's Jewish and he's not.

And I could see that.

Like, I could really see that.

But they wouldn't do that.

They would 'cause they're I think they themselves I don't actually I don't know if they're Zionists.

I don't know.

Maybe they're not.

I always assume that anything that's allowed on T V

Mm-hmm.

Yeah, they could make it Zionist propaganda as well, you know, and do the opposite.

So I don't know.

I I

whatever.

But South Park that's why I don't want them to do it at all.

But s um

See, South Park does that very well.

That it's so interesting, like White Lotus is like South Park if it was a live action show.

Honestly, it's like such an accurate description of what that show is.

It's so fundamentally like cynical about the nature of human beings and it's it depicts them in the most humiliating ways.

Any public ACP announcements and updates?

Guys, we really need you to RSVP for that uh for the May events.

You you really got to get on that.

Like, at this point it's no fucking joke, all right?

You really, really gotta get in on that shit.

So, stop waiting and just fucking do it, all right?

Um so we are the reason there there hasn't been a ton of new announcements when it comes to the party is because our big, big thing is coming up on may second, which is going to be the confirmation of our central committee.

It's going to fundamentally change the dynamic within our party big time.

We're going to have real democracy.

And it's going to change the nature of party work, it's going to change the nature of what the party does, and it's going to really bring a lot of life into the party, I predict, right?

And we are ma we are preparations are underway for that, most of all.

But that being said, there are a lot of things related to the Newark port going on.

Um with myself included.

Uh that are happening this month.

Very, very big developments when it comes to that.

Will you post about Halali at the border?

Yes, peak time tomorrow we're going to be posting.

We ha already have a video of it.

I kinda wanna show it to you guys now, but um I don't know if they'll let me.

I'll show you a a preview.

I'll show you a preview.

They they won't mind.

Can I can I can I just show my s can I

Why am I telling you guys this?

Let me see.

They might take too long to respond.

My name is Christopher Ho.

Sorry.

Um, no, forget it, we'll just wait.

I d 'cause I can't open it on web.

That's the problem.

And I I can't open it on web, that's kind of an issue.

Um I would like to.

Just wait, yeah.

Um, no, he'll talk about how like this is actually a regular occurrence for him, but he never talks about it.

And uh yeah.

I have some other news.

I'm uh dieting again.

I weighed myself.

I'm a hundred eighty.

And I'm usually sitting at like one hundred seventy five, a hundred seventy four.

So I gained some weight over Ramadan.

Ramadan

I was eating a lot of junk food and fucking bad food.

I gained like I think I gained like eight pounds like a month.

Um so I'm I'm back on my uh my my my my dieting grind.

Uh aren't you supposed to be fasting?

Uh are you you're talking about during Ramadan 'cause of uh Ifdar, dude?

You don't know how it is.

Ifdar, people go fucking crazy.

They go ha

It's kind of even defeats the purpose, but it's the true truth.

Um, it's the truth.

Isn't gluttony a sin?

Of course.

You know, I I've been I've been uh I ate that uh

They got that Dubai chocolate with strawberries.

Okay.

I've seen a lot of things.

Ifdar 2025, I've seen a lot of things.

All right.

I've seen a lot of things.

Got them.

Chocolate croissants.

Chocolate croissants.

What the hell is that?

You know?

I've been seeing a lot of things, you know.

No, for real, the thing that I really made me gain weight is uh the cheeseman-esh.

You don't know what that is.

You're missing out.

It's you know what's fucking weird is that it's like it's such a distinctly

Y'all don't have that.

Nobody has it.

No other culture has it.

But then I learn in Lebanon only one village has it.

Even other villages don't have that shit.

It's like a it's it's like a bread

With a lot of butter and cheese in it.

But it's a bread.

It's not like the Turkish version.

Even the Turkish what do they call it?

Uh

The Turkish pied the pied

Turkish pies usually do not have a lot of uh butter.

And they're not as savory, and they're not as like

Yeah, they don't have the butter.

Canf uh oh yeah, I'm gonna eat a lot of shit.

I've been eating a lot of shit.

I don't know what a sine pi, I'm gonna look that up.

Yeah, I recommended y'all a place when you came to Dearborn.

That's exactly.

Yeah, I think wait, is that a thyme?

I don't know what a thyme pie is, bro.

I don't know what that is.

Yeah.

That felt good and

Yeah.

But you know, a I come to think of it, the month of uh March, I've been eating uh chicken tenders, burgers, fries.

Every fucking day I've been eating bad shit.

Like every fucking day I've been eating like terribly.

Cheese pies, just shit food, fucking McDonald's, you name it.

I'm surprised I didn't gain like 20 pounds, you know?

But it's easy for me to cut.

Um

So I'm doing that now.

It's probably gonna take me two to three weeks to get back to where I was.

Um

Eating all that junk food doesn't upset you no, it don't.

It don't

Are you thinking any better?

Um

I have a lot of distractions.

I have a lot of distractions.

That has nothing to do with food.

Jackson would have see the the Jackson um

This dude does not eat good.

Like he eats like um

He eats good, like steaks, good quality, but he doesn't eat like fun.

He doesn't like you know Jackson will not have any drink that has flavor.

like orange juice.

Be breakfast.

I'd be like, yo, try this orange juice.

It's super good.

I don't do that.

What?

He doesn't ever have soda.

He doesn't have milkshake, nothing.

He's like, I only have water.

I'm like, bro, that was me.

That was me like

Six years ago.

Okay, grow up.

You only live once.

You know, in Russia, they got a coffee.

And it's like it's called what the hell is it called?

What the fuck is it called?

It's like it's like got milk and sugar.

It's c they call it um

What the fuck is it called?

They have sometimes it's RAF, R-A-F, RAF.

RAF Coffee

So look it up, it's it's just called RAF.

Game.

I like rap.

You know, every time I get coffee, I'd be like, let me get that rap.

Let me get that rap.

Jackson, he's always a.

I'll just get an Americano or some black coffee.

Try and be a tough guy.

And then I'm like, yo, what what's why don't you get some good coffee?

You know, because this tastes good.

He goes, That's for girls.

I'm like, bro, we only live once.

We only live once.

I lived the disciplined, ascetic food life to be a tough guy for like eight years.

Then when I.

Actually, when I first, after I started streaming, when I finally got into a long-term relationship, I just said, fuck it.

I'm gonna eat good.

I'm gonna have juice.

I'm gonna have soda.

Let me try them desserts.

Oh, you got an E-clair.

Let me try that E-clair.

You know what I mean?

You got some cake.

The waiter comes.

You know, see, when you got a woman, you start eating good.

You know, the waiter comes.

Would you guys like any dessert?

You know, back in the day,

Hell no, I'm Batman.

You know, I'm back in the day.

But then you know you want some dessert.

You know what?

I will see that dessert menu.

I will see that dessert menu.

I will see that dessert menu.

Now, let me.

Oh, you got a strawberry, chocolate.

You know, uh ice cream.

Interesting.

Interesting.

So, uh, you know, I I learned to ch I'm not crazy like I u you know, I I got to 200 pounds and this was the worst was um I was it was like it was like December 23.

Through February 24, I was big.

I was like 200 pounds.

And I had a wake-up call.

I was like, I gotta lose weight.

So I lost 20 pounds after a few months.

And um

I lost twenty pounds after a few months.

And um

Uh but but still I'm re but the thing is I'm I have in moderation still.

I I don't I don't skip sweets all the time, you know.

If I sometimes, you know, here and there.

I will have you know, and I like having good food that tastes good.

Sue me.

You know, Jackson, he when Jackson he needs four more years to understand where I am.

'Cause I was just like him when I was his age, you know.

Once he gets to my age, he'll understand what I'm talking about.

'Cause right now he's like, Oh, I only

He's like, I don't drink soda.

I don't like juice.

I don't like see every time I go to a restaurant

I I I wanna see the sele especially if I'm abroad, I wanna see what kind of juice y'all have.

Sweet drinks.

I like it sweet, you know.

And

Sue me because I only live once and shit tastes good, you know.

So sue me.

And this dude Jackson who I only have water, that don't make you a tough guy.

That doesn't make you a tough guy.

Only have water, black coffee, and American.

That don't make you a tough guy.

You know, tough guy know, you know, in prison.

The real tough guys, they're sipping on juice boxes.

They're smuggling Capri Sun in that shit.

And they got cookies and crackers and everything.

Oreos.

They killed for some fucking Oreos in prison.

They're killing motherfuckers for a goddamn Twinkie.

We want to talk about a real tough guy.

Real tough guy is a Wagner soldier in the Sahel Desert.

With a fucking PKM machine gun in one hand, he got a Twinkie in the other hand, cause life's too short to be skipping all the sweet shit.

'Cause I don't give a fuck how tough you are.

Life is too short to be skipping the sweet the sweet stuff.

You know what I mean?

It's too short.

You know?

They got an RPG in one hand.

They got a bagel with strawberry cream cheese toasted in the other hand.

Cinnamon raisin.

You know what?

This is literally true.

I'm not even fucking kidding.

Let me tell you guys something.

I visited one of the battalions.

In Donbass, real fucking hardcore, tough, tough soldiers, like killers, right.

These guys

This is where I shot my PKM, by the way.

But these guys, um.

These guys had a professional chef as part of their battalion.

Who is regularly making banger-ass good like food?

Like this time.

He made us uh he had these Jimmy John's like sandwiches that were wrapped.

They the I love the presentation.

They were wrapped the right way.

That makes a big impression on me, you know, 'cause it's effort.

Very good scent.

They're like j better than Jimmy John's, right?

And then he had cake, and then he had like this sweet tea hot drink.

This is what the killers, hardcore killers, and Donbass, are eating.

And this dude, Jackson, he's going, he'll look me in the eyes and say, That's for girls.

Man, get the hell out of here.

You only live once.

You know?

And they know that.

I mean, if they know that, you know, these dudes are tough.

They these ain't, you know, I mean, ain't he nothing wrong with being a a woman, you know, but I'm trying to say, like, these are tough dudes.

And this is what they eat.

Eat good.

You only on earth once.

You know?

If Jackson was at that battalion, you know, he would tell the chef, he would go, I only have steak and water.

I don't have cake.

And the chef would be like, Oh You are a tough guy

Hey Vladimir, we have tough guy here.

Everyone, he is tough guy.

And they're gonna make Jackson do drills on nails and shit.

He's gonna be explosions.

You see how tough you are, Jackson.

We'll see how tough you are.

I was just he's not here to defend himself.

We'll bring him on.

I'm gonna confront him this in public next time.

'Cause uh

He thinks he's too good for that shit.

Ain't nobody's too good for that.

It's the truth, you know.

Ice cream and shit.

What would life be without that?

Best ice cream flavor chocolate.

I mean, how is that a question?

You know, some people are, I like vanilla.

Yeah, you're just trying to be different for no fucking reason.

Trying to be different for no reason.

Chocolate!

What is this?

Cherry and strawberry.

You know, if you want strawberry, go have a fucking smoothie, you fucking idiot.

I like strawberry ice cream.

Why?

Go have a fucking smoothie.

Fruit smoothie.

This is a dairy situation.

You know, mint, I understand.

There's only three real legitimate flavors: mint, vanilla, chocolate.

Cookies and cream

Go have a fucking cookie.

Stop stop trying to mix it.

Go have a damn cookie.

Butter pecan.

You just y'all doing too much.

It's just like pecan, a fucking nut, a nut.

You want your ice cream to taste like a dry nut?

The fuck is that?

Don't even make sense.

You know, like, I like almond-flavored ice cream.

Almonds?

Pistachio, what the hell is this, man?

She wants shit to taste like

Like I don't know.

See.

It's like wood flavored ice cream.

You know, Rocky Road.

Listen, y'all can talk about whatever you want.

Chocolate, okay?

It's just chocolate.

Make it simple.

Chocolate is the best.

Overcomplicate it by calling it all these different ass fucking names.

I guarantee you, if you had a blindfold, you wouldn't be able to tell the difference.

And they're scamming the world, creating these new flavors that it's just listen, you're over-complicating it.

It's chocolate, it's vanilla, it's mint.

Everything is going to be which way in between variations, sure, but that's what it is.

NO DAY.

With Ben and Jerry they do too much, you know Moose Tracks and

I don't it's like I don't you know uh you know I I will say Asta ice cream is pretty good.

I don't know what it is, but it's pretty good.

Ashta ice cream is is not bad.

It's not bad.

It's all right.

Treatlerites.

You know why I know that's a stupid, retarded ass term?

'Cause nowhere but in the third world do they like their treats the most.

Go to a third world country, they savor and value and cherish their treats.

They love the desserts.

That shit matters in third world countries.

It matters way in Sweden.

The ultimate first world country is Sweden.

Swedish people.

They eat blocks of ice.

They're minimalistic and they're Ikea.

I'm it.

Shut up.

You go to a real third world country and the treats are life.

And people will shoot each other over treats.

Are you fucking kidding?

In Lebanon, the Baklava fucking bakery, the Baklava store, that dude'll grab an RPG and blow everyone up if they fucking they don't mess with that shit.

You know, me, Jackson, and Chris, we went to this beautiful, I don't know what to call it.

It's like a restaurant with music.

Very late, you know.

Man, they're bringing us fruits and they're bringing us whatever.

And this was not in a rich part of the the city, and it's like everyone here were normal Lebanese people.

Fruits and snacks and you fucking name it.

Desserts That's culture, man.

But there's these self-hating white people who live in America.

They go, You're the treatlerites.

The the chap you know who fucking invented that was Chapo Trap House.

People like their treats too much.

Yeah, go to Mexico.

You don't think people in Mexico like their treats?

You don't go to El Salvador.

You don't think they like their treats in Nicaragua and El Salvador and Cuba and Mexico and in African countries and shit.

Everyone likes it's a human universal.

We all like.

They like it more over there in third world countries, that's the thing.

No, it's uh you have to be a uh wear glasses and be a virtuous ascetic.

Yeah, but that's a sign you're a rich fuck living in a first world country, by the way.

The only good ice cream is chocolate.

Like, I don't know what to tell you guys.

He's still arguing about this.

I thought we moved past it.

Okay.

I thought we moved past it.

Uh

Is it true that Dutch people as well, like they I I saw something on TikTok where they're like, I went to my Dutch friend's house in in in the Netherlands.

And um

They they you know they offered me coffee or something and then they sent me a Zell.

Later in the day, saying, Oh, I I give me like two dollars for this coffee I gave you.

Or like someti like one time they let someone come over for dinner and then the day after they charge them through like their cash app.

Like like fifteen dollars.

Like, Oh, we fed you, give us money

And I saw that on TikTok.

I was like, what the fuck is that?

That's reasonable, though.

Bro.

That's reasonable.

I I know it's not a white thing either, 'cause you know Jackson.

You know, me and Jackson will always say, like, we'll pay you back later.

We never pay each other back, but I'm pretty sure the balance is equal.

Like,

Um sometimes

One of us left our card, something.

What are we gonna have cash on?

Like me and Jackson.

Equal balance of payments, but we never actually pay each other back, but it's just because, like

And it's not even intentional like, oh, you know, it's your turn to pay for uh whatever, cigars, anything.

It's just that it always balances itself out.

That's how it sh has to be, you know.

But Dutch people, it's like

Really?

Y'all do that?

Oh you were referencing what?

Akanye West

With his interview with academics, did you guys see that?

Um

What does he want, man?

At this point, he's just his whole brand, his whole thing.

He just wants to be shocking.

It's it's

Pretty ridiculous.

Oh my god.

Yeah, he wants attention.

I uh I don't care.

I owe Jackson s I don't owe Jackson six hundred.

Are you kidding?

I don't know where the hell you got that.

I'll tell you guys a funny story.

So we were getting me.

What was it?

Um, I borrowed some money from Jackson to get my Tim's because I uh

I didn't have I didn't have the exchange uh cur I had the cash, like the dollars, but I didn't have the currency, right?

So, 'cause it was winter out there.

I was like, yo, I'll I'll pay you back.

Let me just grab it, right?

I ended up forgetting to pay him back, and he forgot to ask me, right?

I think I did over Apple or whatever, though.

I don't know.

Apple Pay.

But anyway, uh he calls me after I come home and he's like, Yo, those are 'cause I left them there.

I didn't even bring them with me.

He's like, Yo, those are these are really great boots.

I wear them all the time.

I was like, Oh, yeah, bro, don't worry about it.

You know, you can wear them, no problem.

I was just being like, yeah, go ahead, wear them.

He's like, bro, are you fucking kidding?

Of course I'm going to wear them.

I fucking paid for them.

Oh man.

She's so funny.

I was like, oh yeah, I forgot.

I'm gonna buy me a pair of those.

I like those.

The thing is, is that I would never wear them here because I I go to the gym so often.

I'm not gonna wear Tim's.

I even said, I was like, Yo, can I wear these to the gym?

Like, is that normal?

He's like, Bro, everyone will think it retarded if you wear this shit to the gym.

I'm like, All right.

See, I'm autistic, and sometimes I gotta ask Jackson, like, What's normal?

You know?

So, um, the pro I love those sh shoes, but I don't know if I would get them because, uh,

I can't wear 'em to the gym, like w

you know, what where would I go?

I don't even go anywhere.

And I don't have a social life.

I don't even I don't even go outside.

Uh

Those Black Tims, it's the move.

I'm gonna I'm gonna get them next winter.

For next winter, you know.

And wear Tim's when you work out outside.

I mean, who the fuck is working out outside?

Like, I got a fucking Smith machine in my driveway.

What the fuck are you talking about, man?

Working out outside.

How?

In Michigan?

I can do it in the summer.

I gotta dismantle the equipment in the winter and be a big hassle and it costs thousands and thousands of dollars.

I mean, what are you talking about?

End of the winter if you got high T.

Yeah, sometimes you would just make shit up.

Like, you know, there's some people that are like, you know, the Vikings could be outside and shit.

So they wi got a time machine, they went back to the Viking times to Sweden or whatever.

And the Vikings are inside with their fire.

And the the news reporter, he's like, So y'all chill with the cold, right?

I mean, you go outside, you're like, Hell no, it's cold as hell.

What are you talking about?

And that's what the Vikings said.

Like, what do you think we're just walking around outside and we're embracing the cold?

Well no, we wear ten layers and we got hats and nobody's you know how then they have it in the T V shows and the movies that these Vikings are running around shirtless or they're just like Conan the barbarian.

In reality, nobody's doing that.

Nobody.

Look at the Eskimo.

Is it politically incorrect now to call them Inuits?

Look at the Inuits.

Look at the Inuits.

I mean

They're used to the cold.

They don't, you know, they're wearing those things they have, like 20 layers.

And those igloos are very warm.

Igloos, they're very warm.

And how do I know this?

Have I been to an igloo?

No.

But I watched some shit on YouTube because I got curious.

It's like how does that shit work?

Like, how the fuck are these igloos warm?

It don't even make sense.

And I'm like if they are warm

Why don't they melt?

So I wanted to understand it.

So they have the fire in the igloos, and the fire rises, right?

And the heat, it just rises, and it just gets trapped into the igloo just from that small fire.

And it warms the whole thing up.

And the reason, I'll tell you why, it doesn't melt because it's hitting the ceiling.

But the cold from outside, it's like negative a thousand degrees.

The cold from outside.

The wind is

Is keeping that shit frozen because the fire is not hot enough to melt the coldness that's coming from outside.

So the whole thing balances out, and those Inuits, they're chilling.

I was worried about them.

I was thinking.

I gotta figure this out 'cause those igloos seem like they're gonna melt.

And then I saw the YouTube video, I'm like, It's alright, they're chilling.

It's alright, they're gonna be fine.

They're gonna be all right.

It's all good.

I was worried because that didn't seem sustainable.

You know, it didn't seem sustainable.

You know, they got polar bears out there and those, those, uh,

Hungry, uh, lion seals and shit.

I was saying it don't look good.

It don't seem they're living in ice with fires in them.

I mean, it's

The whole Scheldt, the whole thing is gonna be blown up, melt away and the polar bear army will come and kill everyone, you know.

But I I checked with YouTube and I made sure it was all right.

It's all right.

We're all gonna be good.

You know?

They're gonna be good, more specifically.

Um

You know who's going wild now, Sabine Hosenfender.

Sabine gone wild on YouTube.

Every time I see a Sabine video, she's always like, she's always going way out of bounds of her expertise now.

She's like.

She's like tell me, Was Paul Pott justified?

Like what the fuck are you talking about?

What are the ethics of Doge?

She's like getting into politics now and shit.

Like bitch, who asked you?

Sabine is like she got all her hands in every cookie jar, every which way.

She's like getting into all these profound topics, like

Should we ban Syria law?

So we ban Saria law.

What do we do about Islam?

No, no, the thing that made me uh like what the hell Sabine was like weighing in on the Israel Palestine I think

What is going on in Palestine?

Sabine, what are you talking about, Sabine?

What wha what do what do you know about that?

Sabine is like um like going crazy.

No f Chris, no fucking way she talked to Zijek.

Sabine is like

She got that reach.

No, no, she didn't talk to him.

Oh my.

She talked where the fuck is that?

Isn't because my stupid guy with glasses.

I mean, Sabine is not confronting Zhizek anywhere in any direct capacity.

But I think he was sneak dissing her, talking shit about her behind her back.

Just cowardly, but we're gonna see what he said.

Where should I locate a person who is now mega-popular at least in Europe?

Sabine Hossenfelder.

Sabine is in Germany.

Oh my god, she's popular in Europe.

You know, I declared her my arch enemy like years ago because I knew that she was no good, man.

She's like, trust me.

And Frank.

She's like the new face of Hitler.

Chris, what's going on?

She's the new Hitler.

Purely, uh, really also a scientist or more of popularizing.

No, no, she.

Now, Sabina has a different history.

Sabina is an elementary particle theorist who works on a phenomenology.

And when we say phenomenology, we don't mean what you mean by it.

We mean studies of the collisions of elementary particles, sufficient to predict the results of the collisions and so forth.

So they stand between the theoretical physicist in particle physics and the observer.

Now, Sabina was always very correct.

She always brother, bro, get out of here.

Found errors in other people's work and criticized them.

And this is the only way I can interpret it.

After many years of postdocs, also some preference established because of her family situation, as wanting not to live across Europe from her from her family, she ended up without a job.

So she invented.

I think Zijak is regretting asking this question because it's taking this guy twenty years to fucking other things.

And she is.

I just wanted to know what Zijak thought.

She studies Hitler particles in the Ukraine.

Zelensky

I mean, Sabine is like something's going on, like Hitler s Hitler shit.

Do you guys like how do you got should I go back to this look?

Damn, I used to be dirty as hell, man.

I didn't even

Wash my beard.

I mean, I washed it in the shower, but like, I didn't use beard wash.

When I looked like this, do you guys miss when I looked like this?

You know, just uh

Just a more chill.

Got the beater.

Gotta be professional, but professional is boring, you know.

Professionals boring.

I'm hungry, but I need something healthy.

Uh okay.

I think I'm gonna stream tomorrow because Thursday I may not be able to stream.

So, hopefully tomorrow will be an early stream, is what I'm trying to say.

Um do you ever eat before the stream?

Oh, like hours before, usually.

I'm gonna talk to Jackson, see if he can uh do a space tomorrow, and we'll do that for some content.

We'll see.

Prime time hours, max fever ship.

We're gonna yeah, we'll stream at like 9 or 8.

I streamed at 12 a.m.

today, it's not good.

What do you think of the Starship Troopers Discourse?

I think everyone involved in it is a fucking retard.

Um

I wanna be like the movie.

What a woman.

It's the fa it's embarrassing enough that people are like using movie fantasies to articulate serious politics.

It's another thing to have debates and discourse about it.

Like, no, this is Alger Fantasy.

No, this is a Star Wars.

No, Anakin would like me.

No, the the the Luke Skywalker would be on my side.

Shut the fuck up.

Yeah.

It's like it's bad enough people like

Are admitting like that that th these fundamental fantasies are so important for their understanding of the world and politics, but it's like it's another thing to start debating about it.

No, the Darn War would would vote for Obama!

No, the Darm War was was over by Trump No, the Darn War is with Obama How fucking retarded are you No, Starship Troopers is critiquing fascism No, no no it is fascist, is it?

It's a fucking movie.

It's a fucking movie.

Shut the fuck up.

Really?

Like

It's a fucking movie.

I think the point y it's not movies don't always have a directly political message.

Sometimes the goal is just to get you thinking about different relationships and

ways in which things work.

Not necessarily that it's good or bad, but like, hey, this is making me think about how morale and armies and ideologies and how all these things interact sometimes in a vacuum.

Like, and it's not always about the

morality of it, or whether it's good or bad, or or or we're endorsing it, or we're not endorsing it.

There's not always a form of commentary.

Sometimes they're not making that commentary.

Sometimes they're leaving it up to the audience to figure that out.

But they're just trying to give expression to phenomena that they perceive and that

reflects reality in some kind of way.

And it's never not necessarily always a statement about whether that's good or bad, or whether that should be encouraged or discouraged.

Um

I think, here's my take on Starship Troopers.

I think Starship Troopers is trying to draw upon the paradoxes and

Dynam and you know, just the subtleties of collective solidarity.

And collectivism, but with doses of irony there, um, with respect to, like, you know, well, these bugs are actually sapient and this whole fucking war is like completely unjust.

And there's supposed to be irony about that kind of stuff.

But that that doesn't mean every aspect of the aesthetics of the starship troopers engaging in, you know, a collective

You know, Heinlein said that was fascism, but every Hollywood l the George Lucas said Darth Vader was fascism, you know, like they're clearly projecting onto fascism these things about humanity they find fascinating in general, you know.

So yeah, that's my take.

Anyway, guys, we're going to wrap it up.

We're gonna wrap.

Northern Gorilla, wow with the 10.

What a great way to conclude the stream.

Excellent.

Excellent.

Alright guys.

We're gonna wrap it up.

Goodbye.