MY ORIGIN STORY [2021-11-10]

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want to know where i'm coming from and like what my perspective is and pretty much how i feel most of the time when i interact with you know the public thank you so much ja c appreciate you thank you so much j like this is the feeling vieral feeling i have a lot of times when i'm live

i'm on twitter i'm interacting with the public is i can't show them on stream because they're so graphic but if you want to understand where i'm coming from what i'm about and what my stick is and where i came from and shit just look at the paintings of george gross because that's where i'm coming from that's what i believe

that's how i look at everything i'm seeing on the internet that's what i see like that's the perspective i haveamed you know thank you for bringing up the rough side of the

like com gre appreciate eris i appreciate heers you know politics aside i'm a human being before anything and that's kind of what i want to talk about to you there's so many people that disagree with me politically but they still show me humanity you know

those are the people that that's just square one you know i don't care what your politics is if you have the ability to show people humanity beyond politics that's square one for me to even consider you human or just have anything but fity for you you know

one thing i want you guys to do and i want you guys to make me a promise right now please make me this promise no matter how much i get attacked no matter what they say about me no matter all the shit they

earl against me the harassment whatever the one feeling i never want you to have toward me the one feeling i never want you to have toward me is pity i don't eever want you to feel bad for me or pity me this is what i am you understand

this is what i am at the core of my being this is what i was asking for from the very beginning these are the people that i declared war on just by helping found infrared as a platform it's why we founded infrared but

right now what i want to do is you know sometimes i'm worry about the fact that there's a lot of good people that hates me or attack me or are hostile to me because they bought into all these mischaracterizations about what i'm about and what infrareds about and where we're coming from and why we're so

hostile to the left so what i was thinking is i'm going to illuminate where i'm coming from and maybe you'll understand a little bit better about why it is that i'm the controversial figure that i am

what happened you knowre we're in a really tough spot right now in general as far as our growth we're still growing we're still doing fine but we're in a position where we just don't have friends

we've i've antagonized all the left every single leftist every one remotely adjacent to leftism in america is my enemy every single one of them right and the people that we're constantly bringing over are former right wingers or right wingers who are interested in

red and are in becoming interested in marxism leninism and then there's also the jimmy dore people in caleb and jackson and stuff but we're talking about first specific segment of the youth so right now we're in a tough spot i'm not going to lie to you we're in a very tough spot because we don't have a community we don't really have a community

yeah a political people as well

we do not have a community though you know

i mean we have the infrared community but

we don't have an echo chamber to pander to right now is what i'm trying to say like it's we can't pander to right wingers

because we are marxislaans we're communists and we have different views we don't believe

that trump is the messiah and stuff like that right but

we can try to win them over but

there's no one we can really pander to right

tell me if you know someone that needs now we've been through a lot of things tell me if you know someone that needss in a lot of things

can we take a second and you guys ca heear me out i want you guys to shut off the noise right just shut off the noise in your head and just hear me out for one second and you do that there's so much fucking noise just shut it out shut out the noise and hear me out no

that was ok then this dream is not for you but when you sur i w many people seem by the season thiss mam season and shut out the noise and hear me out right nowk i know on made a promise that i never let deepest friends lately women on the deepest is t why does the always have to be a narrative you don't even

want you to really think about that why does' the always have to be a meaning and a narrative right and what i mean by that is something i notice a lot is i'll do something and i won't even be thinking and i will be feeling nothing while i do it there's no feeling at all i'm just

it's almost like i'm only doing it to show you how meaningless this realm of appearances really is right but then i read so much projection so much fisceral projection of people just spinning narratives about like who i am and how i feel

what's going on for me mentally and like all this stuff and this thing that really disturbs me and depresses the fuck out of me and makes me just want to pray and really does make me lose hope is like if you really think that i'm so devastated in like traumatized and that i want to kill myself and i'm at the end of

my life and i'm completely broken and all this kind of stuff what chills me is how not only do they say that but the idea of that gives them so much joy they get so much pleasure and satisfaction from it and that's really what i don't understand

even my worst enemies when i feel like i've defeated my worst enemies i move on i don't even pay it attention i say ok you're destroyed i'm moving on i don't pay it any attention but where does this enjoyment and this sadism come from and we're going to talk about this in relation to the col ddenhause thing too because it's related right

i don't know where this enjoyment of suffering comes from why do people want me why do people want to have this idea that i'm suffering so much because of them and why do they enjoy that idea so much they enjoy the

idea of me suffering so much because the way i i want to tell you how i think and how i operate as a as a man as a human being there are people that i do make suffer there are people that i defeat there are people i humiliate and i'm mover and i completely destroy but i finish i just do it and

then i move on and i do it because i consider them to be committing an injustice or to be spreading lise w i consider the image that they're projecting to be false and i want to expose that image and when i'm done doing that i turn my back and i move on and i've always been like that as a human being if i win a fight and someone's on the ground i'm gone

but these people aren't content with that if they genuinely believe that they're inflicting so much psychological damage upon me which also is a sickening feeling in and of itself that they think they're doing this why do you why

is that bring you so much enjoyment hypothetically if i'm defeated why don't you just move on and then it gets me thinking about the things that informed our perspective as infrared in the first place which was there is something so rotten so evil and so say tanic and yes sa tanic about the

american left about social media in general maybe right but mainly the american left where there's no sense of just this unconscious prohibition where you just recognize this human beings behind a screen this this you're actually dealing with some reality this isn't just some like ideological fantasy that you're

engaged in this is actual real life and actual reality and it's like the reason i don't want to get talking about astro world too much is because first there's so much emotional depth to it and i have to get into the right state of mind in order to talk about something like that

one of the examples of it is like the way people just trampled over others with their phones out trying to get to the fucking celebrity and they're just trampling over these human beings in front of them and people are dying and there's just this such toal indifference i mean what stravis scott represent he represents

this this kind ofd object of common sociality is specifically on the internet well this is the g i'm to we reach weeat and i'ming and i'm going to is real share the instagram i'ming py the tweet i'm going to get clout from and he represents pure represents a god of pure undiluted cloud and it's

almost like our humanity is being completely projected onto this screen which is fine because i'm not against the internet and i'm not against screens but there's just no sense of finitude anymore there's no sense of the fact that we before we are on the screen

re we're born rid we we come out of our mother and we're human beings first and that there's some things that are just not on the screen right we all we all have to take a shit we all have to fucking you know we're all bound and humiliated by our physical and bodily finitude and it's like

all i've ever wanted to do was reject what i consider a false social contract where this projection an image of what we are comes before what we are in our essence and that we are just what you see on the screen and if we don't have a

sinitude we don't have a

a past a history

and an antecedence

right

forget about the particular details of politics forget about land back and netflix and all this kind of shit

all i've ever ever stood for was the fact

that this social contract of the american left this little bubble where people prouject these ideals on the internet and and the find their identities on the basis of them and define their morality and sense of humanity on that basis that there's something fundamentally false about that the something fundamentally false about the way people try and believe that they're actually good human beings because they're

obey some kind of fuking internet online artificially manufactured f and signaling sense of morality which is so fuking utterly corrupt it makes me sic to my fuk and stomach because it's so call moality that these people are prochecting on the internet and the deriving as the basis of their identity is bounded up with a paological social dynamics of social recognition

popularity clout and validation that has nothing to do with spirituality and morality but has everything to do with the cornal desire to run up your fellow man in this world and they're using this ideology and they're using this morliityly gam over the fellow over their fellow human beings

the trying to characterize me as a white supremacist and as a chardanist and whatever but have you ever considered have you ever considered that i'm sry to say you is wrong community is wrong of sf is wrong social contract

fundamentally wrong and ok even if i'm wrong and i a falking solution all i want to bd the space outside of you i just want us to breed and to be outside of your buble to give me room to breed give us room to breath and be free from your life be free from the

lie that we're born with an instagra profile be free from the lif that we're born with a twitter profile that we're born with an ideology or that we're born with a morality or that we're burn with some kind of principle want to say is that we are born re

back that there's this space of material beingfore we become anything we're just human beingsmtak becausehe that's all i've ever wanted to do just with the picturet that's a portrait just

sixteenb ca' just it's not even really about the content of what we're talking about anymore just it's about this deeper social thing going on where it's like you

either in the bubble or you're out of the bubble right you're either pandering to this fake social contract where people derive this sense of common humanity and common sociality on the basis of obeying this ideology or this this this morality and i just fundamentally reject that

would chek the platform i would chek with their positioning in relation to reality i would check how they have their own special language rely buil to reality and where the fact that there's just a piece of reality the didn't ask them or consult them before deciding to come into being is some kind of wle scandal you know at this brill starting to call

fascist anything that didn't ask them for permission it's not really about the content it's just if you act spontaneously on a shamedly and without any super ego that's based in their community they call you a fascist just because you were born and didn't ask them to exist youn ask them

and as their permission to be that's what bab chapeld did if he actually put it down to it he was a very moderate liberal guy in that speech but because he didn't use their language and he didn't put it in the way that confirms he's one of them he's an evil fascist because for them the very fact that we are born that we are born

and the way that we are in a scandal our fiitud is a scandal the fact that we have to shit thisk heat sleep and be is a scandal it's a stamp of evil of cursed material particularity

all i've ever done all i've ever done is reach out reach out to this material and testdence of our being in say that that is where i am that is where i am look at the paintings of george gross i far my favorite painter

in history whats is the ideological narrative what'ss braining what's his filtering there is none he's showing you the word for what it is he's showing you all wd outside of a pree defined meaning he's not imposing a meaning on it hes soing you the row the bravity evil and wickedness of the world has

it is and he's not imposing anything before first foremost i wan thank you for taking the fight from father you might not have been the only one that could but you that do that and w your assistance we the world take part in this fight and a lot of people

think george grosss paintings are some kind of pessimistic you know doumor kind of thing but it's not it's a very cthartic feeling that you're going to get really understanding them because his movement which is called new objectivity was really about the fact that the modern sense of all

objectivity was false and that this was its reality right the so called stable and solid objectivity was really this manifold of chaos that is utterly meaningless at least on the terms of this old objectivity and that the truth behind george grosss paintings that behind the veil of this turmoil this chaos

and his depravity there's this new object that reconciles it all it doesn't impose some kind of meaning it's just that some kind of meaning can survive that some kind of humanity can survive that don't wory i'm going to get to cal

written house or whatever i just i want to talk about this get this off my chestra sti give me a moment give me one second

kissed or touch any of his grandchildren and they haven't been able to touch their grandfather even though it is not saeing that way for some of us but for many of us l who is a beagon of hope for his community who deserves to breathe free free my father ex sat to get food from the door that's it

sometimes i think about

are people so persistent

in their hatred

because

you know

they're trying to cope and they could see me

as

a confident you know and let's not lie good looking guy who's relatively fine with their life and that despite all this shit they're doing against me i'm still going strong and kicking strong but that's just my optimistic side right that they're just doing all this evil because it's like in vain they're trying to make

themselves feel better right but then the other side of it is that sometimes i think these people really do feel like they destroyed me and they've broken me and they've they've killed me right but that's not enough and that the very fact that i'm still living and breathing and then i'm alive just a bare minimum of being alive right that g is is enough for them

to justify constantly keep going at it keep going at it even after they feel like they've torn me down keep doing it right and i'll tell you why i'll tell you why that sadism exists and where it comes from it comes from the fact

that our humanity is a scandal is a scandal for social media the very fact that before we were born we didn't tweet about it is a scandal that has to be exterminated

the fact that we're human first the superimpose intentionality and meaning on it this gy he has a face he's he's a person he has hands and ears and a nose

and he's breathing and he's living or he's taking up space and he's he's actually living in a vital way he's breathing how are he how are he they can't just accept the fact that that came first behind every al expression of my existence or the existence of a human being in general that

is outside of their their hygienic community of pure pure subjects the lies the intentionality of some kind of malice or you know badness or ridicule

it's a fundamentally exterminationis logic and yes that is what it is it's a form of extermination ism right the just want to exterminate any trace of anything that is testent or indifferent more fundamental and more

base then they're abstractly contrived baing up kingdom and realm of pure spirit after this this is last he got a show that upon with the p stays stll made my mother cry tell me what reon i said and send you up to christ he said go in take my life seen everything but cry

one of the things that also surprised me too and this actually was something i learned beforehand was in a way i've always been kind of sexist right i always assume that women are angels and they're just they can't possibly be evil in the same way men are right

but the way i see this just demonic sadism on twitter of these like political only fans goirs or whatever it's like it actually shocks me right it actually shocks me like what the fok this is like what a male herbert does right chenuine evil i

i was i used to have this idea that when you people who demonize women are just like resentful rightor bitter but these people are genuinely genuinely evil people that are attacking me on twitter and there's a lot of women among them too which shocks me honestly shocks me because it's hard for me to be th

threatened by a woman i'm not going to lie to you it's hard for me to feel threatened by themiece but i learned this during the qristian thing when i found out about that woman from that university in or whatever they were and just all this sick shit they were torturing puppies doing all this evil sick shit

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din do a lot of things tell me you can know someone that needs what up y disc laryll join first and foremost i want to thank you for taking a fight from my father to the old office you might not have been the only one that could a did that but you were the one that did do that

and with your assistance we can continue to let the world take part in this fight you know to me it kind of feels like me my mother my brothers and my kids have all been incarcerated through this journey and we haven't even been to jail we have been looked at and treated as criminals for being a part of this family my father's truth and the reality that he raised me in

is twenty three i want you guys to understand something about resentment and privileged theories right because this is where the internet

left this coming from and this is what they used to justify their their evil their malice their fundamental demonic just falcking disgusting anti human pieces shit behavior right when i want to destroy someone i ged it over with i actually do it and i comoplish it i don't dll in this fantasy that i'm actually torturing

someone if i want to destroy someone i just do it i don't have this fantasy that i'm like a mentally sowing and shattering them and i'm driving them to the point of suicide and that you know i'm torturing them and i'm and inflicting this endless suffering and pain where does that come from

where the fuck does that come from and we still where does that come from and have been to touch the grandfather though it is not seing that way for some of usy of us beg in the hoe this community deerves to breath fore free yeah electron a lot of it is very

sexually charged to

and it does seem like that type of fantasy

that's something i see a lot on the internet too among lethsts

this is the way they have this kind of like

what is it called what is it repressive desublimation or they have to repress so much toxicity in the form of political correctness and the minute they get a chance to unleash all the evil it all comes out pure undistilled

and concentrated

withhe ages have no limits at all

you know

you want to know a lot of times how it makes me feel it makes me feel like i'm a guy it makes me feel like i shouldn't even be in this perspective where

it bounces off me and i'm just like ow the fuck do i have this armor where did i get this armor from because anyone else couldn't survive this right and i'm thinking like these people are shooting at me they're shooting at me so much and i said w did i get this armor from and holy fuck imagine if i didn't have it and how did i

get this armor was right when you sur w many people see m by the season this season andet i'm thinking what i didn't even have this armor and the kept doing this to someone de f why you where does this evil come from this is t you don't even

know was stups suicidal thought got you wonder what was up there and why totroduce a party to say it's up there too many pl so much pot so much pain to many emotions and everything it good it's go on notice di it that god just the focus you was the life but a party you know where a lot of it came from when you lost you it took the lif was

me like we'll get there i'll explain to you everything i'll explain to you my origin story theyk w'll get there watch you want com night if the come to lif that might be right been in a dog so long don't know we'll get there don't worry i' just reach it for the like and nightmare

when and if iing believe it or not guys i always try to make sense of what people say about me i try to put myself in their shoes you know i try to think what if i wasn't o and i was just the

random bystander what would it take for me to understand this or agree with it and i'm very good faith when it comes to that you know i always like like for example mouse tweet that went viral that showed me you know the the discord posts i can't show it because he blocked me but he show screenshots of me in the discord being like guy

get this if you likes you're getting banned if you don't there was some shit like that you know what should i do and i see how it just explodes into thousand likes and i'm trying to think why it's the same thing with the cute but video why i don't get it right and then i see people in comments

pl what's going on i don't get it i don't get it i really don't understand so i try to sit and think that i really get destroyed and i get pared and i'm like what the fut that this actually destroy me should i feel destroyed should i how should i feel about this right

it doesn't matter what i say because people are always going to project and superimpose their assumptions about you on you i'm telling you earnestly and honestly on my life on my falcking life and i'm willing i can't say this on which right but i would put everything on the line i would put the whole of my

being on the line in defense of this fact i think genuinely do not understand when i read the narratives they spin about me sometimes i feel like i should be feeling that way because they're saying that and i'm just missing it like you know i just shit my pants and i don't think it's a big deal so i have to try and understand

and why it's a big deal and that it's the equivalent of something like that like who cares if i said that in a discord why that serious but then i realized and this is the theory i came up with i don't know if i'm being generous

but i thought about it like this i thought about it like ok so these people see this guy has he's an up and coming which guy or he's an up up and coming internet celebrity now and they feel like this is exposing the fact that everything was a frauduent like i'm a snake oil salesman and i'm a fraud because i was

engineering this the whole time artificially and that my relevance has been manufactured and it's not coming from a real place and there's no real reason behind my rise and my being thrusted into relevance there's no actual authentic reason for that it's all based on this like artificial engineering and that i just got exposed thank you

so much jackson preciate you man thank you so much jacksonc you man thank you so much it's like these people have this idea that it's like it's not authentic right it's like everything was as got exploses like the school we do moment where the whole thing was just a smoke and mirror

mirage and then when i looked at it that way when i looked at it that way i was like ok i kind of get that then i get that i get that that's how you could that's how for like a random political person they that would see it that way right and that would i guess justify why there's so many likes it's like

has just got exposed as a fake turns out guys we just expos the whole reason for hases relevance and it was all because he was in the discord telling people to like his tweets but then i feel like i'm being too generous because i actually have a lot of good faith and i really do rationalize why

people hate me that's one of my biggest flaws is i rationalize the way people fucking demonize me but then later on i arn was just being generous and that there is no rational justification and it is because these people are really fuking dishonest andll the just not they just want say me

and that's the only reason it's the same thing with the ute bout thing a lot of people think that i got mad about the two whole thing that's not why i got mad the reason i got mad is i can i rationalized why so many people were bothering me about it and then it turns out that a lack of education on female anatomy is so commonplace even among the same people that were a

attacking me but there is no rational justification for why i got so much shit because of it before i started the stream today i watched i watched a streamer called live agnar right someone linked it to me in the d m s and i watched it and she was watching a cute bot video from three months ago the same cute bot video

a right she's watching the whole thing with five hundred people

and

if you saw the falking comments on that stream and now mike the cock mike from p a was there

and i don't know why mike from p a is trying to come at me when i could literally just pull up the video of him

touching bad bunny and he would shut the fuck up

but whatever

um

i was watching the fucking uh

thisvi de comments on that stream

and it's like

it's almost like my heart was racing bec cause i was in a moment of conflict i was like

on this just got serious right i was on cute bot stream and the the tone of how serious it was and how much it mattered was really dialed down but then i was watching the stream and there's so much intensity and investment in what's going on like it's a matter of life and death right like like look at

s he sh is just kill mself now i don't get it i don't get it even kiana didn't get it

herself when she's confronted with that energy it's like it's not that serious though you know what i mean it's it's it's really not that serious there's so much like psychoanalysis going on about like intimate inner being of me like we are going so hard in

like making these just like os has been completely broken he has been completely shattered and he shouldn't even be living any more that is he has been so embarrassed and he shouldn't even show his face has is so has been completely blackened into ablivions is completely dead and destroyed

o so god himself could handle it god like holy holy right literally holy creature

i don't know what's going on when i'm doing these things on twitch i don't know the intensity of how much people are projecting on it like you guys no i do this for a living right and that this is the tuesday i just do shit on stream and it's completely meaningless but why why this idea that it's like

like this is where my heart is right that's what that's what that's what bothers me is just this idea that that's where my soul is and that's where my heart is and i take it that seriously that i'm just shattered in there's no sense of withdrawnness on

my part where i just don't take it that seriously beus and then i thought surely there's a reason behind this and that this is all authentic you want to know what happened at the end of the stream lively authentic commentator n extra motivation

s for demonizing me or trying to make me look thata she got to the point they were all doing the drum or kiana is going to rap me kana goes ten out of ten i am kidding i id you not go watch vit i did you not s immediately exit out of it immediately exited out of it and no one when the chat said shit no one's it's like me forgot i was even on her show

no one said anything and they all forgot i was on her show shely immediately exited up and she was parting the video and giving commentary on every single thing that happened in that encounter and the minute i got raded a ten out of ten immediately exited out and said nothing he said absolutely nothing her chat

said absolutely nothing chat minds you were spenning p and they were spinning narratives based on the smallest fart i would make but when i get rated at ten out of ten no one says anything that's whath i realize this isn't some kind of like normal authentic reaction

this is a completely artificial way of trying to paint me in a bad light which is in no way organic a neutral person doesn't look at it that way you have to spin the narrative first and then people have a tendency to go with crowds but the people who are behind these narratives they're spinning it they're spinning the facts and spinning the narratives of what happens

nobody talks about when i'm seen with women or you know what i'm doing that kind of shit no one talks about it right everyone just talks about when i look embarrassing to them and they hilight that in pyper focus on it but no one ever talks about when i look really good no one even pays attention to

act like i don't exist it's the same thing when i'm acting ridiculous and silly everyone hyper focuses on it right witht actually being articulate and well spoken and making really good solid points no one ever fight foot none of that never goes viral things that go against the narrative never for whatever reason go viral it's just

ey thing that seems to confirm this fake narrative being created about me is what goes viral never done something embarrassing like mike from p a when he touched bad bunny and you could see the literal visceral repulsion on her face where she actually looked disgusted and the way in which mike from p reacted to her discuss like

i have never been in that situation in my life and i try to have empathy and i tried to look at it today i watched the video today for extra context id like maybe they took him out of context that looks really bad to me but as someone who's taken out of context a lot i will try and give him the benefit of the doubt that he was taken out of context and

i really looked into it and i dug deep and in context he actually it actually was that ba in context i've always thought mike from p a was the most p

pthetic cringe ca on which even before i started streaming saw that thing that happened to him years ago and then i saw how he started to try and change his persona and have a man bun and weear contacts and look like a tough guy or whatever and it's the most pathetic falking thing i've ever foughk and seen but

because mike from p a and i'm going to explain to you how sickening and disgusting this left that i declared war on is and why i'm declaring war but because he fell in line he fell in line with the left nobody humiliates him for his actual cringe humiliating and embarrassing self they let everything slide

everything about mike from v a gets a slide because he fell in line but me this smallest possible fucking thing gets exploited and blown out of proportion and then i'm here sitting and for to feel like i should care about it more than i do it's like what that i do that's so bad who cares it's it's not serious it's

not serious if you think i went on that show

with the expectation that i'm actually going to make kiana my girlfriend and actually date her

and actually win her over and take her out

you're a fundamentally fucking stupid person and i don't know what the fucking tell you

but every time i try to explain

the truth and just speak the truth

about when i mischaracterized

you know what happens

every one just spams copium he' croping what a crop what a crope then what do you want from me

then maybe my unconscious is a colp because this is legitimately and genuinely how i've been experiencing the reality what do you want me to do this is genuinely how i experienced the reality after i got off of ana show i literally felt like i did really well and i was like ok i made an impression

it's like i did really well i didn't i didn't know i was going to do that well and then i moved on but look what happened look what happened

grabbed in a barrel people on line are neurotic messes so they want to project that on to anyone who's a normal person but how m i supposed to react to it because there's so much intensity being theres so much intensity being thrown

projected my way and i just feel like if i ignore it i'm giving it power you wonder w do someparty say it's too many p so much p so much pain and good's just the life

t

the

closees on sunday you might chick close on sunday you might chick ho i don't know you know what i think it is

i think people just have never let go with this whole thing but i wantch i want to give you some background where i came from right i told you my story with the d s a but i don't really tell you much about what happened afterwards

and afterwards train with that whole thing with the d s a make i was committed to writing a book and this book was going to be about justifying marxism and justifying communism from scratch

without any recourse in any external authority community or social space i was going to prove the truth of marxism in one book

a but to god that is strengthen my head

you know i had a pretty big social life before then right when i started to make this book

i wanted to finish it fast and i didn't i wanted to finish it like in a month or two right or three months four months fast right but i soon realize it was taking way longer

tooke the ap

cold war i think you should just balk off forever and never watch me again

you wrote that whole thing just to waste my time

good

oh

i wasn't really finishing this book in time and i started to feel really guilty about i didn't feel secure that it wasn't finished so every time i' go out with my friends or do anything i'd start to feel anxious and guilty like part of me is is just not being it like i'm not a complete man

i'm not a whole man because i'm neglecting my duty i have to do this first and then i can go about living my life first i have to justify this thing i've decided to dedicate my life to which is communism very at a young age and this is not a joke i really had resolved to dedicate the entirety of my life to communism

jesus and to moxism so i felt like every time i'd go out or do anything or or

just indulge and and watch movies or be a human being i feel guilty and like i'm not attending to this thing that i have to finish so gradually i just was going out less and less right and i was just sitting at home punishing myself more and more and i wasn't necessarily

i was working on the book but when i wasn't i was just sitting and staring at a wall like why can't i just fucking finish this book

maw backed up my family mo gohnds

gam weapons in

you know i did write a lot of it like like a hundred thousand words right i got into but i'd sit in my computer and i'd look at it

and i would just get this feeling like

the it's it was a labyrinth and every time

i was confronted by it

i have to retrace my steps and i have to like discover

the conclusion i had arrived at the day before again it was a labyrinth it's what i always called it as a labyrinth

you know every time i i do it i' have ok i have to pick up where i left off but to get into that mental state it's really hard right because there's just a lot to keep in mind right and suddenly just these contingent factors of memory human memoryway and the contingent

sees at a certain point of human life the need to eat shit sleep and just be confronted me as as a as an annoyance and a paradox in a scandal like why isn't this book already done why do i have to go eat now why do i have to sleep why do i have to shit wh do i have to do these

things before this book which in my view it p amye the whole truth of my life and the whole truth of my being why isn't it already done

because i'm breathing right now i'm living right now i have human needs that i have to attend to and yet i hadn't completed this book but this book was supposed to completely rationalize and

seal my purpose here on in this world at least for me and to whomever else it may concern so i would just sit at this screen and just stare at it blankly and the very passage of time itself would confront me as a a a scandal said i am here

and i know the truth of communism but how can how can i prove to myself that i know this truth when i still have to write this book

b

and it started to get to a point and by the way all throughout we're its talking about years are passing and i'm isolating myself from the world more and more just focusing on this one thing i'm not allowing myself to live as a human being

because i'm thinking i'll do all that when i'm finished when i'm finished i'm going to have so much fun i'm going to go get drunk and party and live the time of my life i just have to finish this first

right

clo sunday i didn't care about anything else i didn't care about anything else there's nothing else i cared about than making finishing this book family wen you always keep them sa

but it's almost like i didn't want to finish it it got to a point where i didn't want to finish it like to me it couldn't be finished i' always i so it's like i have to talk about the content of the book for you to understand where i'm coming from right

the basic point of the book was how is it that communism can be justified in relation to the whole of being and the meaning of life itself and there's almost a sense of cosmology there too

in the book like what really is communism what is this impl what about being necessarily gives rise to the necessity of communism how can communism justify itself how can it be how can it become at what point is it possible in the world how could it be possible right how could it be possible that we are in a

live in a communist society for example

man backed up my family mo gohads

gamy weapons in the

every time i'd i'd write more about this book i'd uncover more mysteries and more questions it's like

every time i'd get farther i'd realize holy fuck i'm not even at the tip of the iceberg yet

remember that the ambition of this book was to encompass the whole of being the entire fucking universe basically right

so i had to wonder like how does psychoanalysis figure into this what

these things to me were haunting me

i was trying to create this perfect system

but i did believe that i was going to do it i believed i was going to do it because i believed i already had done it i believe that i know this i just have to put it into words already keep

literally everything thegins of class society the origins of capitalism the meaning of classes under capitalism how communism emerges and becomes possible what is communism what is communism's relation to humanity what is the essence of humanity what is the relationship between human nature and the human

ideals for example what is material real all of these things were being encompassed in this book and not one by one and like this too bit like the find this night it was all a system it was a coherent rational system that was all interconnected i have to

emphasized it was a system it was not like i didn't just have arbitrary statement nothing about it was arbitrary that's what i you need to understand this book was rationalistic through and through everything had a reason there was not one arbitrary premise from which i was content with beginning with everything had to be rationally justified

and the a big influence for me was gjette and his

his idea of the act the act so fgige the act

the act is what grounds and coheres and gives rise

um

to the very conditions of the possibility of thought being the universe meaning rationality and so on and so on it begins with

act in act

which creates its own presuppositions retroactively and that's where i was coming from as far as understanding communism is concerned that communism that in communism there is some kind of act completely arbitrary act not premise but act an act that creates its own presuppositions and creates its own

conditions of beingay so that was the philosophical background that i was coming from when you get always keep them safe watch out the don't let them and doctrine closeed on sunday you might chick number one with

it got to a point where train thank you electron i started to enjoy this space i was in too much because while i was focused on this book i really did feel like i was free from the world only this book was real

right

nothing was real except this book

my social obligations my family my surroundings my place in society how people viewed me even myself what i looked at in the mirror nothing mattered the whole of my being

was this book

and to me there was a profound sense of satisfaction and freedom in this fact i didn't have to care about anything this book was all that mattered i really did not care about anything except this book nothing nothing absolutely nothing

and it came to a point where i experienced a complete social death i practically had no friends no people who cared about me no one i was talking to i wasn't in contact with any one i was estranged from my family

i was really alone i was really alone and socially dead it's not that

i was an object of ridicule and humiliation and embarrassment i was literally nothing i was dead i i was only something for this book and i still was eating living surviving and was in college the last year or so but

much i was socially dead grandway and there was no self pity whatsoever there's not a moment where i had any self pity always keep them w don't letm close on sunday you much

i started to realize there's a truth in this there's a truth in this train i started to enjoy this and i didn't want to finish the book because to me there's something true about the very paradox i was facing and not being able to finish it

and what was this truth

that's when you begin from heaven

when you begin from an idea or an ideology and you try to create its premises you're too late your premises are already set before you

your premise is already there and you have no control over itre i can create a book justifying the whole premises of communism i already have premises i can't control

and this delay this time lag is where i started to live in this time lad where it was also on this time where twin twin peak season three

was airing right

and i i was watching that and keeping up with it and i was exploring david lynch

his work again right

and something about twin peaks resonated with me so much while i was in this mental state that

my withdrawnness from the world and from any pre given meaning i felt like i was at home watching twin peaks season three that this was the language of my predicaments because although i believed there was an ultimate meaning that was going to be stealed in finishing this book

it wasn't finished yet so meaning is open there's just this fundamental ambiguity this needhill that i'm dwelling in and i saw the same thing in in david lynch's season three of twin peaks which was airing at the time i said yes this is the dream reality started to be dream like for me right

it's like it wasn't really real train it wasn't really real anymore right i'm living in this ambiguous dream like space whose reality is not finished the's just not clear just not

it's not been consecrated in any kind of way

just this limbo this kind of purgatory right but i still believe there's just this fundamental truth there there's just this fundamental truth there

now for me this also corresponded to this new prod now here here's a thing to the other thinker that i was really engaging with at the time who is always my devil's advocate for like this is the ultimate this is hell right this thinker represents total

doom and total like if he's right i'm faugt right there's only two possibilities i'm right or this guy's right the thinker was nick land

nickland

took the ap

if his

ontology

is correct his needleism was correct

i took it very seriously

for me communism is what restores meaning to being

or it doesn't restore meaning to being but it creates meaning from nothing

i agreed with nick land's view that being or ah

whatever is inherently devoid of meaning but to me

from meaninglessness there can arise meaning it can emerge meaning right you i didn't really read about evald ilyenkov until a few years later like in twenty eighteen twenty nineteen but i shared with ilyankov this idea that niklan's view of the fundamental meaningless antecedence of caspo

and of being and of reality what's true but that comm communism is like this singular point this singular cut in the fabric of being that makes it meaningful that in proletarian self consciousness the whole of being becomes meaningful it's not just this thing that specific to our society it's something that's about

everything right you need to understand i'm not like these leftists who came from universities and came from hillary's campaign and just transition into being a leftist i came from a very very strong

theological background a very very very strong background of shia islam which i have to make sense of life and the world and cosmos and being these kinds of things are things that communism marxism it has to answer to these things

or it's not or it's nothing right it's wrong

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so i was dealing with nick land is like the ultimate enemy theoretical enemy i respected him a great deal personally because

i thought he

i admired him because i thought he was a profoundly brave person i thought

he's pretty much admitting what no one else is willing to admit

right he's he's he's honest enough to be able to entertain this possibility what if he's right

right is nick land wrong because the virtue signaling mobs are saying so is he wrong because the so these social bubbles no why why because you want to fit in and you don't want to fucking be attacked and ridiculed and you don't want to be fired from your universe what if he is right right what if there is no such thing as humanity and and everything is fuck and funn

mentally meaningless and that the real forces behind everything we find meaningful in this world are tterly and fundamentally indifferent to us and that we are on a roller coaster ride who structure and whose end is completely

indifferent to our being we are being used as husksrain by an ai from the future that isn't give a shit about us it's going to lead to our wole sill destruction and extermination and suffering and torture even maybe and it don't matter it's nothing personal it don't care right

stand up fro my home

you have to understand i was young too right so it's not it's not like i knew everything at the time it's just there was a very strong sense of immediacy when it came to this you know

you know what killed me though is that his view of this fundamental indifference of the universe in nature

is fundamentally american and it's shared by every single american leftist they agree with nick land

it's too much of cowards to admit it then agree with him that truth is completely indifferent to our humanity and our being we're just trying to say oh

so if you want to be free from that wilderness join our circle join our community and we're going to make you feel better about it and and although nature and being and god doesn't care about you and is completely indifferent to you you can be embedded in our little social contract where i'm going to be i'm going to give you validation and you're going to give me validation we're goin to huddle up in a circle and have solid

and wre we can makeh cares about truth who cares about the truth of being and absolute truth and who cares about these kinds of things all that matters is my smiling face thank you more luck

i rejected that i don't know i rejected that i rejected that i don't know what about it is what it is from my background i try to maybe say maybe it's because i'm a muslim or maybe it's because i'm more masculine or i don't know what it is

is train but to me make sure to me all things all things will be annihlated by their premises and all things

must be taken to their logical conclusions this little leftist community this copial community of leftist is finite it has not transcended the laws of nature the laws of being and reality will collapse on the basis of its foundation and i am not interested

and buying time i am not interested in fitting in and getting some minimal worldly pleasure and being satisfied in and being popular and having friends and don't fulfill my spiritual longing i know they're wrong i know they're falking wrong and if you take it to a thlausible conclusion

two

th

if this is the thing if martism is the thing

that i am sacrificing my identity my religion my family and everything in this world that ever meant anything to me for aponm sacrificing everything to that it better be true

it better be true

it better be true

i know you can't call i know you can't cape you can't run from the truth and hide from the truth forever i see how years and years past and people fak and do it everyone will get what's coming to them you can ignore the truth all you f

want it will rearts falconhead don't let them and doctrine close on sunday you might chick youy number one with raise train the men the faith to temptation make sure theyre

jus for me it was always about justifying my past making sense of my past

stand up from my home

making sense of why i was arriving where i was and when it comes to being a leftist they're going to ask you to make a leap

they're going to ask you to make a leap without justifying it without regard for truth without regard or what you really believe in your heart they're going to say

linell in line sae what we say believe what we do because we do

because if you don't you're going to be lonely because if you don't you're not going to have friends because if you don't we're not going to give you validation because if you don't we're going to ridicule you and we're going to mock you and we're going to attack you

but if i'm living in a world

that doesn't have a meaning that doesn't have a truth

that doesn't have a purpose

if my life doesn't have a purpose it doesn't have any meaning

and no truth no fundamental truth

i am already ridiculed i am lonely im dead i'm nothing you you think not mean socially validated matter to me i turn my back on my family i turn my back on my religion and my community

and my culture watch out the f you think you doctrine closed on sunday you my chick you my number one withm raise ous train the men the faith do temptation make sure they're w

there's people in this world west david lynch

i feel like these people have in common the fact

that they just point out a space where they carve a space and they point out a space and they say where were you you're acting like you're a god and you're building a god you're building a social contract that can replace divinity that can replace the divine and tesseedon

and mystery of being and you're the new god and they just crib out of space and say look look at this space look at this place where you were nothing where you were less than hated you weren't even acknowledged didn't even exist yet

when i watched twin peaks season three episode eight

i was almost moved to tears

when i watched this scene of um

the atomic bomb

and it was a close up on on a a test of an atomic bomb right it was a mushroom cloud they showed and the camera would pen and move closer and closer to it and

it would

try to like describe what's going on inside of there

and the screen just became this chaos just these particles moving around and just these thing i don't know what it is inside the bomb just this completely messy meaningless demeurgic reality and it almost brought me to tears because it kept going and going and going and to me

it was like lynch trying to say it doesn't end looko i have to show it to you for you to understand but i really do have to show it to you you really have to see it for me for you to understand what i'm talking about i'll show it you

lord jesus listen noay no more live be for the culch we no body slave

stand up from my home

take this bk to me it's like hold on this is not it this this one doesn't last long enough

a bey to god that you strengthen my he

this is it so it's going to zoom in keep getting close and close right you think they're done making their point right aren't they done making their point

maw backed up my family mo hnds

you'd think they're done making their point at a certain at a certain point right like ok we get it it's it's a bomb it's an explosion what are you trying to say what's the meaning behind it

right

and you just watched this

and it just goes on

you know

it just continues to go on

com me if you know someone that needs now we've been through a lot of things com me if you know someone that needss in a lot of things

knowone that a lot of thing know someone that it just keeps going it just keeps going for like another

minutes i was dreaming and when you sur by i w many people s by the season this maa season and get thevi watch i no one made a promise that this actually almost brought me to tears this scene almost brought me to tears because it's persistence right it's almost like this is a living thing

and it' just keeps on going you keep asking what is the meaning of it and it just doesn't respond it doesn't give you an answer but it still is it just persists what lynch is trying to say to me is all of you people who are super imposing a meaning on this reality have you ever

stop for a moment and embraced the truth of the matter that sure lying this is reality you were nothing here you were nothing you were nothing in the moment of creation you were absolutely talking nothing

and what the falk do you have to say about it and if i talk to chris br bac everything's you could be when you're sitting from this perspective and you see this you see the demaurgic moment of creation before anything

all of these people who are trying to construct and build god sx looks so fucking vain they look so vain and their cathedral their god their mural like their mosaic looks like a fucking george grosse painting you just see nothing but depravity

chaos and meaninglessness and all i've done is take a step back and look at this please look up the paintings of george gross ip type it for you and chat look at these paintings and you'll understand what i'm saying take a step back and all these people trying to super

impose meaning on the world instead of coming into peace coming to peace with the end pescedence the infinite material antescedence of reality i guess this is why i'm an american patriot because to me

america's contribution to the world pragmatism liberated this breathing space of being freed from any presupposed axiomatic or superimposed meanings and the real authentic nature of our humanity can then flourish

and the meaning of sevenhundred seventy six to me is the patriots the people the material people the people in the material antescedence of their being declare their independence rise up and assert their sovereignty

any artificial social contract that tries to assert its existence before them to me american patriotism is materialism it's the patriots it's the people there asserting an ideology of some kind or a certain meaning or a certain

narrative or certain idea the're just saying we ca you c before you you put your fuking crown and declare yourself the sufeign of reality before you raise your scepter and declare yourself a fuking god were the ones who feed you were the ones who

came before you were the ones who made you your state and your government from the soil of the people and to the sol it will return that's why they call me a chalvnist

because i believe in one final seventeen seventy six we are moving away from the american era and into the chinese era of world history first foreos but before that era can finally be freed america must be reconciled with its own self and its own history

and its own beingstinue the world we need to declare one more independence day to finally free humanity from the clutches ofll be concratedjon we haven't even of a modernityen looked at that refuses to accept upon that it has already been reconciled in reality

to mee patriotism in america is the freedom to step outside left wing bubbles and communities and start from scratch start from a new beginning and start from a new morning a lot of people critique me

attack me intellectually have they ever sought sat back and asked themselves whether or not they're doing it i have been authentic pursuit of truth through use of thought or because it's convenient as far as their existing social standing and obligations is concerned have they hadrass themselves with the

al basis and foundation of the people they're pandering to comes from what if you were freed from social obligations what if you were already cancelled what if you were already faced with the ridicule the hatred

and the attacks that i am from the american left would you still be a communist or would you turn to hatred would you turn to bitterness would you turn to a edginess could you be like me and still have nothing but love for the people even after i have no social incentive to

all i have ever wanted to believe

and what i've come to believe

with utmost conviction and i do fundamentally believe this

i do fundamentally believe this

i fundamentally believe

that win you were a race

all wokeness

all communities

all social discourse

and fake social contracts and you

get rid of the virtue signaling and you get rid of this

corrupted church

that is the left

there is still goodness

in the meaninglessness of the reel

when you

decapitate the head

and just leave the body

the body will grow a new head

that's what i believe

when you destroy the way in which people impose meaning on our reality

reality will give you

a true and authentic meaning

that's what i believe

i believe in material reality

i believe there's meaning in material reality

and i'm willing to risk that

i don't believe we only have meaning

to the church

i don't believe in the church

is the only mediation through which we can find salvation

i believe we can find salvation

through grace

and conviction

because the church

has become

a prostitute

a prostitute

which sells

tickets to heaven

without eurning them

if you woke you'll get rewarded with clout and adoration and praise and social validation and recognition and friends

you might even get money like hassan does

no

i reject them

luther was willing to risk

the ottoman empire

conquering europe

because he believed in his faith so strongly

he believed so strongly

in the truth of his faith

that even a mius

conquest of europe by the ottomans

it would endure

he believed so strongly that the church

a corrupted faith

so thoroughly

and so exactly

that even the ottomens would be preferable

to the rain

of the devil in rome

this is my view

towurd the american left

i am willing to risk

all of the demons

all of the evil that they say is out there

that they lie is out there

which is actually a reflection only of the evil in their own souls

i'm willing to risk it

because i believe they have corrupted and destroyed marxism

so thoroughly

and so wickedly

even trump

is preferable

even especially trump

is preferable

to there

church of corruption and lies

continuing

to stand

i'm not a protestant

but our modern world was built

and based on protestantism

and i just want to return things to their origins

what i agree with the protestants about

is that the western church corrupted the truth of christianity so much

that everything had to be reevaluated from scratch

and this sober

empty

beginning

is the only square one

of any possible communism

i want people to understand whaty're crying

of the american left is

it's not a crime of thes specific content of its ideology

it's the crime of imposing

it slf has truth

over and before

the material conditions that gave rise to it

if you follow these lfty twitter accounts

what a nice world you're living in

you're living in such a nice world

those people are your friends

that's where the revolution's happening

solidarity unionized

the activists are there

we're all living in this grand great

and we're on our way

come on what's the jacquebine song from jacquebine magazine everyone on the socialism train every one get on the socialism train

we're on the socialism trained guys as long as we have solidarity with one another and and each other we're all friends with each other you see thought slime and auch and luna oi and all these other people we're all together hand in hand

i see the george gross painting instead

that's what i see

bas

thank you wakefield

infrasu and g or illa

i see

the paintings of george gross

a new

history

a new movement

and make no mistake

you may find it impossible to wrap your head around it

because i'm such a silly guy and i've done so many silly things

but infrared is a new movement

make no mistake

a new movement

a new idea

a new disclosure of being

doesn't only initiate

a new future

bas

it also initiates a new past

h

it humbles you before your genesis

your forefathers your mother

your origins

your material basis

it tells you you're not a god

you were at the mercy

of an infinite infinite past

the past is also infinite

the past is also a source

of creativity

i'm not just a reactionary

i'm not just a conservative

i am such an extreme reactionary that it is beyond the threshold of conception by the modern subject

i'll tell you what i am

and i'll reveal what that means

i'm so reactionary

so beyond

the ability

of your conception

of what a reactionary is because

what i am is a muslim you know someone that nedveen do a lot of things

know someone that need is in a lot of things te mey if you know someone that can do a lot of things tell me if you know someone that

s by myself i'm thkingt a muslim isn't simply a reactionary youus wonderstand i want you to understand this that's why i was so shocked that people thought e was such a fascist reactionary movie just because it was a little bit

evocative of islam w mms are not only reactionaryes you don't know we believe in the not only do we believe in the material antescedence of beings were a muslim the pastli like a river

to eternity and the source of all the vital replenishment of humanity we homd ourselves and bow our heads butfore what is infinitely before us what is infinitely beyond us higher than us greater than us and before us we will never reach in the heights of our thinking and our actions

and i thought even an infantesimal of the eternal antestedence of our creator we are not just faced and but we are beyond based based and somewhere it's base and somewhere in a base substance we are beyond based

aitic our faith our belief los infinitely infinitely through the river of time into the pastjus the pictu that's portit just sixten with a left liberal western westerner islam is worse than fascisms far

far worse it is the very eternal point old and living source of fascism a doctor just turned one she stood dependent on a mom big b the ind hisustries he went and bought m a gun he wont because the pain fl the nub and a mom doing is that the only time he feel love is it real love to disgusse re love from all the pain that can build don't

insult me by calling me a chalvinist or a white supremacist or a fascist or a nosbl a muslim that's what i and i'm one of the muslims who refused to compromise with american left ands

stay a still tok my brother life you made my mother cry tell me one reason i shouldn't send you up to christ he said go in take my life i've seen everything but christ the big proacht backed down and all you seen was the light meen know someone that me

the reason i hate land back isn't because i'm against indigenous people having land like the it's because i hate the people who rally around this label i hate the people who think

that they're participating in some kind of truth and some kind of reality by doing this land back they tell themselves these disgusting corrupt vile pieces of shit leftist

talking virtue signaling moralist pieces of shit microphone i forarded the christe but what you great they want to see you took a al hosy feel in the fight here fight here was seeen like ight gar a rug across a pony crown squeeze out christs dirty pieces of silver clock apere christ here it's a wilside it's a wileside it's like last day sid of sid

tell me if you know someone that needs we know in a lot of things te me if you know someone that needss in a lot

of thing teing if in know someone that need ben do a lot of things teing if be in know someone that needs what up thislaal join first and foremost

i want to thank you for taking a fight from my father to the you might not have been the only one that could that but you were the one that did do that and with your assistance we can continue to let the world take part in this fight you know to me it ind of feels like what is let's go do based onkids have all be conctd emptiness

against nothingness abstraction the religion of satanism and it is the enemy of mankind i let this be known let this be known and this is not a joke by the way i will devote my life

destroying and ings fens of the earth build palace on abstraction andalism and emptiness and nothingness in a position of you reflexive ssal parentstism in relation to the world i will bring your palace to

the dirt out of which it had emerged you will content yourself with the material being of the people we are the reason we're tankees is because we tred and

through the soil stop calling these fake n stakis because you they really are the falkon helicopters just like helicopters they ho over everything they ho over the people and shot missiles down at the people what they are hellis hellys

call em helles i'm starting a new trend they're called dronies we're starting a new term dronies and helles helles and dronies

they are not little is not a tankey she's a drony

all those fake a nows were attacking me are hellies and dronies we used to say bys we and whatever we' call him dronies now we' call him droniesow the princy and he is the biggest princy on prier a drony hes a drone is a helly he's a helly and is a drony

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write down write down that term

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em me i know someone that needs ben do a lot of things ell me ifen know someone that needs sitting by myself i'm thinking about all i've been

in through wut the sho i was dreaming man it's hard to beging when you surrounded by theams i watch so many people leave i see him changed by the season s mama season and god get you the devil is watching he just saking in i know one made a promise that i'd never let the pople lately ive been los in all my deepest friends and lately ive women on a deepes s this is trues it a hos and a know you've been dost so much you don't even

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that woman rod with me like a visions of my cousin in the sie really scar me moving to the was like signing up for they beuse they've been killing us watching bny you want to come true but i had nightmares because if that come to life the i might not be right here been in a dark so long don't know the light here but i'm just reaching for the stars like buzz light here and now i'm like ahead of this nightmaes

i ad it those night t when a night clear and if i talk to chris and i bring my mother back to life and if i die a night wen i see it in the after lif but back to reality everything's a tragedy you better have a strategy you could be a statistic little boy gs he just wanted a mystic and mama steady crank because she really didpict them she's getting she's getting addicted and i older boy to

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big brother in his streets he went and bought him a gun he won't bevins because the pain feeling numb and a mobsit doing drug is that the only time he feel love is it real love do the scars really heal love from all the pain that been built but they don't feel us a weeim flew back big crow rid and then see the guys have this little brother on the side leading from the side he seeing

s like bleeding through his sy to see him did the only thing that i helped the grieving up beside even let him get the last meal done with the streets after this this is last ill he got to show him that is that real ran upon with the pipe stay still took my brother lif made my mother cry and was man se and i sud and send you up to christ he said go here take my life i've seen everything but christ

the big broaches backed own and all you seeing was the light meen know someone that in the name of the true living god to n not p sent the mercil thank you for bringing me up the

rough side of the mountin like hearth every need and every time confessed and pay homage to the visit y child like the loneliest diplomonaca elect tm trnica coming to g monitor back from the great d to the son of man and the son of na i never sicx of the a six of theda mycat north america like the conda earquakes to strike this nation what bush did topond what the clintons did the haiti down the street did the con

it's a postmanic call me total bil nego i sink the tectonic treates of the game if i ly want the god is sent fello white fellows remain local

i ask a question to the chat

how many of you

believe

that

i'm

i'm drawing the twitter stuff two outs

too much out

and that i should move on from twitter

and that's where you're coming from

how many of you are feeling that

that i'm drawing out the twitter stuff too much

be honest you're not going to get bad just be honest

what if you think of drawing it out too much

two of you think i'm not

well there's enough ones for me to have to address it

i want you guys to understand something

every single day i'm going viral on twitter

and accounts with up to one hundred thousand followers are pushing these posts

re tweeding them

forty followers fifty k five hundred k followers every single day they are pushing post

trying to make me look bad on twitter

saw a huge amountainous volcano of attenion

is being poured on me every single day

so you have to understand that

you have to understand that it every single day

do you think i could just ignore it

do you think i could just ignore it

i can't

it's was giving me a ton of attention recently

they're trying to define me in this way

i need you guys to fight through it with me

and understand

of course i don't want to spend my time on this twitter bullshit i really don't

i just have to

i have to defend my honor

it's so easy to think that i am overblowing it when you've never explained

and so many people say you're overblowing it

and some influencers say that and i go on their account

and they're driven crazy by two or three hate comments remember little girls

those political girls that were trying to talk shit to me

they literally threw a fucking tantrum because like one or two comments from you guys was talking shit to them

you think people are supposed to are built for withthstanding what i withstand

no human being can falkon would stand where i would stand

no human being can do that

and remember

we're not dealing we're dealing with a crowd of thousands of people who hate me

no matter what happens

you have to understand a lot of people saying has why you taking so many else recently

because i'm exclusively getting negative coverage from accounts with tens of thousands of followers

with legions of

thousands of people who just want to find a reason to hate me

can already hate me

when i get my sit in i don't get re i don't get rewarded for being

we winning

i don't get rewarded for winning i don't get rewarded for beating these people or owning them or making them look stupid

when i do that they ignore me

it's only when it appears and i have to emphasize appears

cause it's only ever an appearance that i'm somehow losing

that they start to pile in so wo most weet

go big because they have this idea in their head

i'm losing sleep at night over twitter and tweets right and that i'm really desperate to to to boost my tweets with likes when in reality i'm just on discord

m

you know

and being petty with my egle or whatever but at the grand scheme of things i don't actually really care that much

i do this for a living it's not like i have another job

so i'm an influencer for a living of course i'm in a buking

you know but but a they y the they look for anything that can be misconstrued it's just like the thing with luna oi when i responded to luna oil like that

i was completely mischaracterized after it

like i was just dnking on her wokeness i was just out woking her that's all was fucking doing

right but every one looked

every one read super into it and jumped to these conclusions

that are complete mischaracterizations and suddenly i became a completely different guy

you know

they only understand ironic humor

first of all that rots my soul

that rots my fuck and soul and makes me miserable

second of all

i'm pretty sure i have an aesthetic that's beyond irony

my aesthetic is

niholistic warfare where i am

showing these people that everything they find meaningful is meaningless i tweech it

that is completely i just say how i'm tweeting it because i can't what are you going to do about it bitch that's my mentality i'm doing it because i can

it doesn't even have to be meaningful it doesn't even have to be a joke doesn't have to be serious i'm just doing it

for the sake of it

without even being invested right

that's where i am

i have a pragmatist approach

you need lunois sincere a such as of marxist linist no

no she's not sincere she is completely full of shit

she's just fucking grifting off of a fucking western american audience

finally if i'm going to talk about col riten house

i'm going to give my thoughts on it end the trial first of all i'm absolutely falkin disgusted

at all these leftists celebrating

and yh he's crying and should they're celebrating

i don't care who's in the right and who's in the wrong if you do that you're a fucking bitch you're a scambager

hed you're the scum of the earth

he was faking it don't give a funk he was faking it

why dont you have the dignity of just being withdrawn why do you have to have this sadistic impulse

to

try to enjoy other people's suffering

justice is caured

impartial and blind

justice

must be executed

and be done with

you don't sit there and be a sadis to enjoy torture

these people are torturers

if there's a future american civil war i want you to watch out for these lefties and these antifa where the fulkise people are they are genuinely sick and evil people and i sound like i'm ain right now and i sound like i

trust me you're going to witness a lot of disgusting grotesque

evil and unthinkable things

in a situation of social unrest in the united states

being inflicted by these people

these are genuine scum bags

they do not have any sense of humanity

they don't have any sense of

human dignity

their complete psychopathic sociopathic

venomous scum

that are thirsting that have a blood lust they are bloodthirsty

and they lost for bloot

they

get off on the torture and suffering of others

i think i know where this evil comes from

and oftentimes it's a result of being a victim of evil

and to protect yourself you become evil and impose that evil on everyone else

because you become paranoid about the idea

that everyone must be evil or if you let me if you let your guard down you're going to be a victim

right

but regardless

these are evil sick unhinged people

he were the facts of the written house case as far as i could see

it's a tragedy

that a child

is running around larping

and this ends up having real world consequences and ends up with people dying

it's a it's a horrible and disgusting thing

that larping

ends in that he shouldn't have been there

there's no reason for him to have been there in the first place

but at the same time

the viciousness the bloodthirstiness

of

the people involved in the altercation

is also fundamentally fucking disgusting

anti human it's one in the same thing

it's two sides of the same coin of american psychosis and derangement

some of those peoplere involved

were involved in child sex abuse

by the way who were victims of written house

so the fact that the left is coming forward and defending these people is absolutely sickening

anyone who gets off on and craves violence

in a politically and morally charged way

is an anti human scumbag

these arein'tif people i'll tell you what kind of people they are they're fuking losers

who just get off on violence they love their sadist and they love they want to be violent

right

but they also

want to

have the social support of leftists who are going to say oh you're morally justified they want no strings attached

vicious satanic violence and they don't do this because they believe in the cause of leftism and they believe in anti fascism and this ideology they do it

because they enjoy violence but they're too much of pussy's

to go fucking boxing or m m a so this is what they do instead

that

and to me i have to be honest and frank with you

these antipa scumbags

are far more dangerous

anti human evil

and disturbing phenomena

then these larpers like these young larpers like ritten house

who are trying to larp

this was not something that involved black people by the way this was white leftists

fighting against written uss

regardless

it is absolutely disgusting that this situation should be politicized if you are a communist with the capital c your job is not to jump on the falk and bandwagon of the politicization of this event but to depoliticize

and detract attention away your job isnn to inflame the tensions being created by this trial

but to take attention away from it that's your fucking job

your job isn't to join one side or the other or get passionate about one side or the other it's to say let the courts take care of it

we're not interested it doesn't matter you're not s you don't use it to construct some political narrative about either white supremacy or even

the written house being a eurrower of some kind you

there's nothing communist about participating in the politicization of this shit

let the courts take care of it

and move on

even for my worst

you want to know something even from my enemies i'm not like them remember that fucking bald guy who went on kiana show yesterday that we covered

imagine if

i or we were just as sadistic as the people who were watching my shit on live's stream

i fee

en to his soul and talked about his visceral i barely said shit

you want to i literally just sit back and just let it speak for itself i don't have to fucking a

do all this fucc and projection bullshit

i didn't finish the story about my book

i'll finish the story another time

i just want to let you know that everything led to infraod

everything led to infraread

go on what

the royal

is the royal happening

they're still doing an intro bring the bitch

the farck is this

there's no royal is not happening right now

i can go on the royot

i don't know if it's a closed royal though because

i think they have like a confirmed cast i'll see

i'll see

i'm going to go piss

thats like the pyramid temples apoplel sure j confrom the zq will like change the world like that coo but two pieces still swarre to my microphone not sart to the christe but w you great they want to see you took a l hos feel in the fight here fight here it was seen like light gears a rugg across a stony crown squeeze out christs thirty pieces of silver clop pre christ here it's a wilside

it's a wall sid it's like the last as sid of ma moral side coming if you know someone that need you know a lot of thingsing if you know someone that needs

thes in a lot of things uming if you know someone that needs then do a lot of things duming if you know someone that needs

what of this la first and foremost i want to thank you for taking a fight from my father to thell you might not have been the only one that could did that but you were the one that did do the and with your assistance we can continue to let the world take part in this fight you know to me it kind of feels like me my mother

my brothers and my kids have all beencarcerated through his journey and we haven't even been in jail we've been looked at and treated as criminals for being a part of his family my father's truth in the reality he raised me is that he want to make change in this community thatuse conditions in this capitalist so saty is what made him and is what made the children of a day

after twenty five years of being locked down twenty three and one my father is not called any shots one of the most secure in segregated prisons in the world and we'll not once release call any shots for the case to dicide if my father's intentiones what lead us to death destruction into the hail hes had to live in for the past twenty six years man

he would be dead to me the prosecutor got in and into it with the judge f the ground from the

i'm just a team player while every man p sil you stanmp for nothing probably can't stand you sif p a hand out r around demnd to hill used to be to hehip now i'm the man myself pro went from grands to hichs not a new as classs tenant work i was st and get it only with care give it you be so mad it nk jealous and b go get some money bummy dummy get a dwell on my nick remember not distressed to watching all your pictures that just screams you wt used to

would you got do if every single day you just see people projecting what's going on in your own head it's such a weird disturbing feeling what you do tell me how you would react this s of speculation and claims made about me all the fucking time

i'm just stuck not caring i'm just stuck not caring is it a crime to not care like i don't care ok imagine you don't care about something right imagine you don't care about something

t and they try to get in the nitty gritty about how do notly care identity and being and sense of ego and sef is being invested in it and that you're crying right now you in shamb and broken as a man because of it that's my favorite one you you

ken but the truth is i started broken i started broken that's how i started

i've always been broken

i started broken that's why i came to where i was

we broke him we broke cars we broke him

that day

no you didn't

my heart was broken in high school b my first love that did break my heart wor it did shatter me al think you'll ever compared to that you'll think you'll ever do anything to me that compares to that you think you'll ever ever inflict anything upon me this case

that will compare it to that work with the la about his money but you don't think i was broken scared to get

really

burn a li

yeah they're building a character it's just the issue is guys it's so hard because

if i'm constantly being attacked based on a false mixed mischaracterization

i have to struggle to resist becoming the character

they're trying to paint me as if they keep attacking me as like oh hoan the white supremacist

it's ironic because

ask the other infrared people

i went hard into anti blackness theory

we buy a frank wilderson

m afro pessimism

i declonial theory i was hard into that shit i was hard into fenon

it's crazy this character they're trying to make me i was hard

hart into that fucking

i went so extreme that's why i found ugen and stuff i want so hard in my critique of european modernity and white supremacy

you know i mean that i took it to the farthest conclusion that leftism is the ultimate form of white supremacy right

where's this idea coming from that i represent

ah white chauvinism

it's not that i mind getting attacked

it's just

when people attack me for something that's a false mixed mischaracterization

what am i supposed to say like

sorry for being

for sorry i'm not the guy you think i am i don't know why you're attacking me

that's just not what i am it's not who i am it's not where i come from

what am i supposed to do

if someone keeps attacking you for something that's not you

what do you say

what do you do

infrared's community used to be notorious for

for being like they's the cause we hate the west were anti western

we represent china

and were anti western tankees who

want to destroy the west and completely

and now it's like we're the opposite right

now we're being accused of the opposite

you guys think there's like federal shit involved

but had seen people spontaneously just

git fuckin hiped up

it is funking disgusting

sadistic

you know what i think it is i think it's estrogenic soymills

and bitter women estrogenic soymles

with gaynocomstia

and bitter women who are uniting together

to it like i represent the father they must destroy

and make no mistake

i'll log off and stream or whatever and i won't be here

but

you really need to understand that these people

really do want to destroy me their goal is to destroy me

i what's going on with the royale is the royal filled is there is the spots filled should i go on

i kind of do want to go on the royalt to get my mind off things

and is chill

i

yeah i do want to go on but i don't know if i can

telling the backtory

w i'm not on the cast

they said i not on the cast

ye i wouldever

what now

were just going to continue

no no no

no i will take a break from it

it's oka i can take a break

but we can continue let's check the recoric

finish your origin story

i'm siry dude i don't know what i want i don't think i want to

someone in soquue wants to debate who does

come on show requests

i'll talk about

this guy wants to talk about two deep shit

too much of deep shit

w these people in soir queue that want to debate

who are all these fucking people

we're all these fucking people that want to debate

do'd fok you two

buck you to

i don't we sure about you to

don't falck and talk to me about you tube

don't folk and talk to me about youtubee i'm go to be sure about it

i can't do a stream because i'm an affiliate

i like to disconnect from osuel between patriotic rotares and seventeen seventy six

who does

what's his name what's the person's name who wants the fucking to be

what's the person's name who wants the fuck in de beate

bobby explained they're not even in the show que

show you

heinrich what does heinrich want to debate i think heinrich just wants to talk

oh the guy the fosth guy n the guy who killed my fuck in views no

the guy who destroyed my views

and decimated them

by like two hundred views talking no

that's the force got

where's the falkon person who wants to debate

where's the person who wants to debate bobby where is bobby

ok everyone get the buck out of sho q if you're not going to balking debate get the fuck out of show q

if you are not there to debate

get the fuk out of show q it's not social hour get out of show q unless you're there to fuking debate

so fuck and stupid are you socialize in the fuck and show

no pestole

pesto no i'm not going to fok and bring you on

irik is no unless you have something very urgent to fuck in debate about

that's of pressing significance it's not going to fuckon happen

do you think twitter will say any fin o about your views on liicentoism i don't know

i'm still confused by it and i'm struggling to understand it

the more i struggle to understand it the more

paranoid i become

that

people are just trying to fucking destroy my soul somehow i' know how they're trying to

but it's like i really feel like these are demons hell bent on my fucking destruction

and i donun

like they make me feel like i should feel so ridiculed and broke andlyroken and it makes me paranoid that it's like

are they did they break me and i just didn't realize it

was i broken and i didn't even realize it

i was sleeping i was in austin

having fun i don't even know what happened when i was gone

but they found a video of kiana

at that moment people foind a video a bboy kiana from

four months ago i became mentally broken i didn't realize it becuse i

you know i didn't see that the video went viral but i apparently i'm mentally broken

we why why are you responding to it so much because i was getting so much shit

i randomly people just started attacking me about it getting on my case about it

randomly of course i'm going to respond to this fucking a

sh people sowering me with attention i don't even care what it's about if you sower me with attention about if

thousands of people get riled up about something yeah i'm going to respond to it

who the fuct wouldn't

i'm going to defend myself too

i know the fuck you're talking about ah we're dunkin hiding my eyes you're getting dunked on that's your fucking dumb ass din't even know a fucking vagina is you think a vagina's a volver

and you just admitted that i havet been fuck on record saying that

are you fucking dunkin on me dum ass

sun up and you know what else the gas light to me about i real watched when i was on cute box

on whoever what's your face is stream

i wan in that encounter they made me feel like i took an ll i didn't take an ll on that shiit i wan

i stayed on for a really long time and i feel like i did get under keana skin

i feel like i did win i did get to her

and make an impression on her i did

i literally did i wont

but they made it seem like we were battling like me and keiana were at war and that

it's like this was the most intense distress no it wasn't it was literally just falking a

why isn't that serious

people let me com my chat

you got this sig by kiana

did you see how live sha reacted when kiana said she had daddy issues in your mindy her dad

they didn't react to it her said ignored it they didn't even pay attention to it

what are you saying live

said she had daddy issues

yeah banter goes over their fucking head stroy you strog

why

why am i destroyed and broken

why

tell me why

how is that supposed to make sense

oh we have some news about the communist party too guys i have to explain it to you

to the communist party today

conducted interviews with people over zoom

i don't care about scientology

and they're trying to root out infrared followers stick to the plan guides and

they're gonna ask you about your social media posts because some of you didn't hide those enough

will you be coming on the royal later yeah idea the royal discord

and they said that i'm not on the cast today so i they don't want me on today

so that's that

the

will i say

the fucking arm

what was i saying

oh the communist party yet the there're zoom meeting people

i'm already a member you really need to hide it you member the going to be like what did you think about our recent comments about infraret

do not

break and do not blow your fucking cover

stick to the falcon plan

stick and i hope you guys are joining the c p s a they took a pole on the red it was nowhere near enough what it needs to fuck and be

so yeah

you'll need to stick to the plan join the focency pusa

when he said infiltrates the abuse i thought it was bullshit no shot yeah it did

we are going to do it

we are definitely

i am definitely tying my followers to join the c p sa hundred percent

we are going to take over that

a party

hundred percent

how mamuch

does a woman

i'm watching talents video you say

i'm going to rate you ten out of ten i w in for redh w thank you you are so interesting i think like content wise you're great

i'm uploading it to twitter i'm uploading it to twitter

can we watch yeah why don't we just watch it together

although i want to make sure there is like no tos

like

town did you include like diagrams and shit in it because

i'm scared because there's a lot of tweets that were like diagrams of fucking vaginas or whatever

so

and also like t o s profile pictures and shit like that

there're so many tweets we exposed in this

yeah there's a lot of like weird profile pictures and shit

should i just upload it to twitter right now

the final saga

jason and ruy gets really exposed and itto his lawyers

i think i'm an upload it tomorrow or something tonight i just have a headache

mean from that shit i don't wanta

it was in

yeah their profile picture sauce

if you think humans are just unable to change or understand nature

what separate us from animals then

hlister what the fuck are you talking about

literally what the fuck are you talking about

i don't say we can't understand nature the funck do you mean

i just said what engle said as much as we transform nature and master nature

nature also

reveals its wealth to us in ways we didn't know before

you never permanently conquer anything

engeles is british

he no one's gonna debate me tonight

i don't want to have a conversation tonight i just want to debate someone

and it's very clear no one's goinga fuckh de baby tonight

what sexual mutual efoect does that mean

sexual mutual aid

my chapter of cb c has a patriotic socist majority

beautiful absolutely funck and beautiful

look it's the new york y c l chapter of the c p s a

that's causing all these problems it's the new york one

are going to join johns royal

um

the royal discord their producer of the show told me that i'm not on the cast so i'm just assuming that

yeah i'm not invited to this one

which is fine

my chapter is very hostile to it's ok just

don't talk about me

and you'll be fine don't blow your cover

take over your chapter taan you got to take over your chapter

you need to become the leader of that chapter

absolutely

ok we're going to check

are falking redded

i was saw the y c o a coal miner demonstration from a black rock and they were wearing shirts

that said save the planet

yeah

the party leadership is extremely paranoid almost every week we get directives against infrared

which show that their measures are simply not working

can you talk to me more about what these directives are and can you d m me about exactly what directives

are you talking about the party leadership or the

chapter leadership or what are you talking about can you give me

becuse we should just blow the lid on it and expose everything and talk about what's going on internally in the party can you m me right now with more details or tell me in the chat what you're talking about

what are some of the directives they're giving you about infrared

let's blow the lid on the thing so we all know what's going on

they're issuing directives against infrared almost every week

you know it's weird

isn't it weird how

right after i get denounced by the c pusa

tweets meant to make me look bad and paint me in a bad picture go fuck and viral

maybe the c p sa leadership is involved with the federal government

and there behind this

you ever thought of that

that's so weird it's such a weird coincidence no it's the algorithm it's not the algorithm because you need show normis they don't

normys don't get it normys are not on board with the

the these posts it's all it's a very specific

type of people

that's so weird

that's so fucking weird

yeh the timing is so weird

someone said in my y c l some members are calling for a thorough vetting process against patriotic socialists

leaer compared mophin to richard spencer

but there's not many at all

only five or so dedicated ones

yeah

wo's the guy who talked about the directives

let me seev d mi or something

why didn't get to om

bad bunny is in her discord making fun of me let me see

what did bad bunny say

because

if bad bunny wants to play games of exposing who's who

u we can play this game bad bunny you want to try and expose me about shit and talk shit about me

bad bunny we can play that game bad bunny

let's play the game by how you said

uh there's so much fucking dirt about bad bunny i don't even know where the fuck to begin like how

she is notorious for fuckin saying the n word a shit fuckin

um

a shit tun on ar fuck and discord how bad bunnies fucking notorious saying let's say i just pretended to be a leftist

what would happen and she's literally just falking grifting and pretending and destiny already fucking explosive

yeah this is if bad money want to go to war with me that's not going to

that's not very wise bad bunny you want to go to war with me there's so much more shit on you

before you try to go to war with me

ninety percent of these duchbags are short

there's always a tall fucker in there but the vast majority are short

isn't hars

five six for some shit

why

why am i five six

w

when you say isn't t like where are you getting the idea from

and why say five six why not say five three

if you're just going to lie

like i said if you take away three inches i'm adding three and just going to say i'm fucking six foot

don't ass

let's be clear the party will deny us the current policy is to pretend nothing is wrong publicly while interney

the party is extremely paranoid

let me see what you're saying i didn't see what you said what did you say

what will the party deny can you d m me what you're talking about

tell me more

yeah bad money is

a fuck and loser

plain and simple

is it hig like five six

ist has you know it's weird

i can't talk about her appearance on wwich she can talk about my appearance but i can't talk about hers

but i've got a lot to say

yeah

hey

is what it is

is what it is

i don't want to get to the point where i'm literally making girls cry

but

somewat a lot like bad bunnies she's like way over head and ahead of herself

if she's just riding off of this anti haz hate coming from leftoid inscells

who are shrimping for fucking like these o f

leftist content crators or whatever

and she's riding off of that train of haighte and she thinks i won't fucking ah

go to war with her over it

and specifically like she thinks she's going to hide

and is she's going to camouflage herself and this fucking tsunami

of anti has hate and i'm totally not going to fucking hold her responsible for whatever the fuck she says about me so the fuck up bad bunny

she's pretty deranged

i'll give up fuck

i don't give a fuck if she's far'm more fucking range than she is

fucking bad bunny it's a bad bunny really whant fuckin gole with me for all the shit she's on record

being guilty of

what do i have to do is google it

mm

let's cover it

let's just begin

we're just going to have the audio

put this thread together

but i

i figure if i'm going to go through fucking hell

i'm going to drag a few people with me

so

just as a reminder for people that don't know now for some reason people say these threads are fake

they're not

i had a mode that was fed up with bad bunny shit that sent me several screenshots from bad bunnies discord

how funny would it be if i went full lefty for a while just to see where it goes

i feel like a

so let me make sure there's no t o s i don't know if i can show this i'm not going to risk it

but i have herunquot

how funny would it be if i went full left you for a while just to see where it goes i could keep the octup for at least a month

that was in august of this year

this was to almost two months ago on the day

helibra last ream lemao uh

steel west whim uting it

bunny's new friends he's basically being she's being very ableest right someing thell definitely get her cancelled anywhere else

now

nothing i said to luna oi comes close to the shit bad bunnyes on record saying i want you guys to remember that

there's nothing i said to luna oi that's comparable

to the shit bad bunnies on record saying

they say that the logs are fake

but

what did she do as soon as so bad bunny

removed all admant privileges from fellow political streamers in her discord after her logs were exposed she accuses the screenshots of being fake

and yet she wiped her discord to hide the evidence is the shit leak

she removed admin privileges from all the new political streamers that she had in her discord

what else did she do she wiped her fucking entire discord ok this was the second wipe too because she already had her first greate purge where she wiped like half the fucking channels but you know what she did she wiped the whole fucking thing

she gets away with all that she fell in line with the lefty bubble

hey guy and circle jerk

is trying to climp the community we're going to delete everything

i wonder why

i wonder why she felt the need to

i don't know what the fok

holy fox

no shit

i cannot show this onscreen i recommend you watch the video yourself

but needless to say

she is dropping f bombs there's like dozens and dozens of fucking cases of her dropping the f bomb

it's crazy crazy i bomb se's dropping

and i'm cancelled for saying what i did to luna oi but bad bunny can get away with this right

thourteen pages of bad bunny using the f word slur

yeah think outside the twitter gd m in a sec so bad bney is just completely fucking

way over her head trying to talk shit about me coming after me

ya

m anyways

the party has an ideological purification campaign

this is about the communist party we're shifting back into the communist party

m

they keep pushing shitlid theories about land back or whatever

and we get she polemics we have to read about why patriotism is right wing

they encouraged snitching and gossiping about other members suspected of being infared

and if you are accused you can be expelled without any chance to defend

sometimes the party takes bureaucratic actions like limiting recruitment in chapters

that expand too quickly

because they suspect that patriotic socialists are the only ones joining

it's kind of funny because the chapters which are stagnant are considered safe

and the ones that are growing fast are considered infiltrated

so right now the communist party is being very cautious

is taking bureaucratic yet they're limited recruitment in their own fuking listen i'm going to compile testimonies and blow the lid off of this on public

because we're going to do a feedback campaign i'm going to compile a bunch of testimonies

jason keep working with me because i'm going to write this out in a substack i'm going to do testimonies and i'm going expose

the self limiting actions of the current national leadership

which are trying to prevent the c pu sa from growing

the party directly told chapter leadership to deny that there's a campaign too

only leadership has hard copies of the documents

and membership isn't allowed to see them

we only get to read them in meetings it's an atmosphere of destruct the cadri can you do me a favor can you take a picture of them

can he somehow sneak them or take leak them or take a picture

one fuck unbelievable

i have my c psa interview new member orientation next week

keep everything loky yes keep it all lokey

youy have to blend in with the leftoids do not mention your firm infrared

be very very lokey about this

that would expose him

no wouldn't

i never got an email back

unfuck unbelievable

this is how you know the c pu s a is run by people

who are not interested in growing that party

the people who run the cpusa

they don't care about growing the party they care about securing it as a fucking democrat front

d m directions to him don't say it onstream yeah i should do that

yeah be careful about your social media too that's actually a given

it's honestly a given

they collect our phones during meetings under the pretext that it is presenting information gathering

from intelligence agencies

but old cadres say that this is a new practice

if what this guy is saying is true

that is on

talking believable

they are confiscating phones during meetings

the c p sa is on full paranoia lockdown mode

i have a message for joe simms and the leadership of the communist party

i'm not going to stop

maybe you're coordinating with the feds to smear me on twitter right now i'm not going to stop dude i'm going to keep doing this forever so unless you can keep up your paranoid gate keeping ways

they're like years and years and years

i'll be right there with you my friend see if you can handle this pressure

as long as i can keep putting it on

you can keep

gate keeping your party and take i'm not just going to go and give up i will never give up i will never give up and restoring the communist party

understand so

i know if youk always going to do this temporarily no you're not going to do it temporarily i'm going to keep the pressure up for as long as i continue to grow

so tell your buddies and the three letter agencies that their twitter smear campaign needs to be turned up

a few notches cause i'm not goninga fuck and stop

my message to joe sims

i'm not going to put

listen i can be here forever my pressure is not going to give give in give up i'm going to keep the pressure on

for as long as i' got it

i'm a a keep the pressure goe

for as long as i need to

it will be no issue for me

it is of no consequence

and it is of no issue to me whatsever

i'm going to keep the pressure up jo sims

so you don't have to worry about that

i promisse you that much

they chat on the royal desk be for has

the i went to the royal discord and they said i'm not part of the cast

because i didn't they said i'm not part of the cat because i didn't follow the rules whatever the fuck that means

so i guess i'm not allowed

so prop soop

i've got to follow rules like a pasant

's sign to go on

if they don't need any on i'm not going to go on it

right i only go on

if it's needed for content

there's a rumor the central committee is happy about the heat you get on twitter

hilariously they compare to the cultural revolution and red guards criticizing writers and reactionaries

they're probably the ones behind it

this is why they denounce china as a stalinist totali distorts

of march is on

they traffic in whatever suits their interests

bas

thank you saturkain

yeah great adam i saw that one

i saw that

who's in so cute with some weird guy

i'm weird guy i'm soke you

oh boby

yaw bring him on

m

i'm going to drag i'm going to eat this and then drag him up

but i'm going to eat this first

just a little brownie

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you just read like me you know i tried to reach out to amy very early on the blender but's a dirty friens pretend

for whatever reason amy to reesay don't like me to be aw i think she said she thinks i'm trying to be the new chapel and thatn i'm to leftis to some shit you make it fm you ca i don't think she wants to win and build i don't think she wants to be a winner i think she just wants to do her own thing and complain all the time whatever i got nothing agas her

be pay the i tried to reach out early on she don't like me but i made it in the street stel good and aary wo came o young nks ca

yeah no hes too name no y bad name

thats the pace soud

you know i can tolerate differences ideological differences i'm not really a

and know about that

but apparently she is so whatever

we bring this g on

hello

hello

yeah

good how are you

i co i'm not trying to

i actually believe that ninety five percent of everything you talk a i appreciate here

education

every ding you know you trech

g you had a question about that

man um

it could

i'm totally on the same page with you man like i'm for i love my country and like i love my neighbors i love

ay

you know what i mean

but i have no connection to the to the flat right i have no connection to these borders or anything like that

i'm not going to

you know

so theing this down with you know the history of our country obviously right

so i just

i can know

i only reason i say this because i see one of your one of the biggest criticisms people have of you online is

thinking know you a nazian ship and i totally disagree

i just completely

like i get the parallels for people that don't know you you see what i'm saying and i'm just trying to like

maybe there's

i din't want your thoughts right i guess because

yeah

so the flag i'm going to break it down the flag thing is a cultural thing right

so we could put that in the back

but i would insist upon something

borders are based in material reality they are not arbitrary

borders are based in determinanate

a recognition between sovereign states and their lines you do not cross they're mutually recognized internationally

borders right

which means they function materially they have a material reality it doesn't matter what you think about borders

even if you for example

believe in the complete elimination of all borders

you can't speak to the people of canada mexico and other places right

you they're still going to have a border whether you want like it or not

if you believe in no borders

your effect and you want to impose this upon them you're effectively an american chauvinist

because your imposing an ideology that you contrived in america

as an american upon the mexican right

so this is how borders and territories are actually material realities

it doesn't matter what your ideology is

the difference is actually materially real

forormally

um

okay

um

i

i'm kind of a dumb ass so i think i get that right um

it's like it's like

we are americans weere there's a difference between there's been americans and mexicans right mexicans say we have our own country we have our own state americans say

the same thing

if americans decided to say we don't have our own country have our own state

we can't impose that on mexicans

because they live in a different country right they're coming from a different hoe

i get that i get that i guess

so all that though is

the borders and everything like

and again i because i hate that we stole this land argument because it's

it's a stupid argument but i mean like

so for example during the revolution like getting for example like

the black

by people

black working class to get them on our side for example with the seven hundred seventy six

like this

any most people would

like seventeen seventy two is what sutherland the uh the the crown right banned slavery in in

everywhere except the colonies because of the what is it sutherland or whatever it was the guy's name was right

and so a lot of the colleagues saw the writing on the what like for example the peop we know people that win the wars write the history books right

i

there are thirteen colonies

right and they all didn't go to war with britain over the fuck and tea right it was other things like they did like the crown didn't want western expansion right

and like and a lot of it some of in the south probably had to do with slavery like they saw the writing on the walk of the southerland a

right so it

going with the seven hundred seventy six and

to a lot of people that they see that as a as a war flag even to this day

you i mean so i just it's

i serve to mad i've seen the shit we do overseas you know what i mean and that's one of the reasons that turn me off the capitalism because i've been front runin center for the for the you know i've been been in the belly of bese i hate it's fucking bullshit

i've seen what it does you know and so

yeah so yeah so so here's a thing right

the seventeen seventy two case of somerset

is why he went way

sorry

yeat it's widely being used

by the proponents of the sixteen nineteen project who are trying to push this idea

that

the english were about to abolish slavery in the colonies but

the law actually just stated that slaves that r on british soil could not be brought back to the americas

and

if you look at what actually happened

after seventeen seventy six

the somerset axe was actually used as the premise

of laws within the thirteen colonies in the north in order to lead to the complete erasure and abolition of slavery somerset continued to serve as the foundation for aboli abolitionist interpretations of the constitution

after seventeen seventy six

so there's nothing about it that

like it's the american revolution couldn't possibly have been a reaction to that

a at least it couldn't significantly have been because it was fully consecrated after even after the revolution wasn't reversed or abolished

no i totally agree and i mean the other part to right what the crown offered freedom the slaves that fought against

the the colonists right as well or weo that was a cynical ploy by the british

deceebout yeah i was a cynical employ they didn't care about

and the only evidence we need to know about the nature of the british empire

is

during the

sorry is my mike working

i can hear you fine i don't know if they can on the street

a lot okay

seen

i' o to forur vin

ok here we go

yeah

the only evidence we really need for that is the fact that

the british industrialization was carried on the back of southern

slavery and confederacy in the british empire would become

geopolitical cultural and strategic allies right

it's almost like slavery in the south came to represent the last

representation of the british empire right and

lincoln represented the final triumph of america over the british empire

at least and this was the eyes of the british press they demonized lincoln as like an anti liberal and he's betraying the fundamental anglo saxon

ah

you know

principles of liberalism and he's a tyrant and all this kind of stuff right

so i think it's more ambiguous now as far as winning over black working class people

i think there's an issue

of a need for black national self determination

and that means we can't confuse the way black people understand their own history and in this country

with the way that people who are committed to the united states

do right i don't just mean white people mean anyone who is so concerned

who believes in the united states and you know

believes in being a part of the united states

which i don't think black people have any obligation to the united states hasn't

well it hasn't it has excluded black people since the founding right

so be the least yees

so i think we if if we want to convince the black population united states

that the u s is something worth being a part of and fighting for it the job is on us to prove that to them so we

that's we can't expect different types of people who have been victims of the united states

to be so eager to join the project but

we do have a common enemy in the current

political establishment

which is also stifling the ability for there to be black self determination which is something i do fundamentally believe in

mean i anything this

progress in the word of you know my definition of progress and this i hate all the liberalism and all those terms because people

you know they use them they don't use them in the right

they don't you know what i mean they use them for to make a point and its and a's like

insults and half the time they don't know the fuck they're everybod everything the fascist like

the lady didn't bring your fucking chips she's a fascist like

it's fthing stupid i just

yeah man i' sort of just

i heard you i watched the other night you were with you that fucking extreme racist blond kid rouper the guy's hockey or whatever

and so he kept bringing up this

with in regards to like the civil war the revolutionary war and he you would say you're from lebanon right and but he would say it wasn't yall it wasn't us or it wasn't

you know that wasn't us that did this and even like people in his

eight

if i get

everything i just

i first off i appreciate your patience with him because that was but i how do you how do you do

what is your argument that something the reason i'm so confident about ho yet the re what makes me so confident about being an american and i don't mean to be vulgar here but you know america' is one of the only places where everybody circumcised right when you're born they take a little piece of you

and that means you're an american

basically right

it's just a analogy right

that's how it works for your soul too right when you're born in america and you're born in this country

this country restructures

how you relate to your reality how you think about reality how you live it doesn't matter what cultural background you come from this country takes a piece of you right

and

to me

um

there's something about me despite my cultural background and not having ancestors who are from here that is fundamentally american

right

so the whole we're all immigrants essentially right yeah yeah yeah exactly it's like to me it's almost like america's a curse but i also have this curse to there's something about it

that i also share america's like a

it's like a common

um

it's a common existential crisis we have

and my view has only been that i just think the people

who are trying to erase america it's not that i'm like saying oh please don't erase america i'm just saying i think it's a cope i think you're not confronting our crisis you're trying to cop out of it i think we have to face as americans

we have to face what america is we have to face its reality we have to face why it is

america came to be what is really great about america why has it

survived for so long why did it become one of the

the pre eminent power of the world it's not just because of imperialism there are also many other imperialist powers

um

you know we have to we have to give

credit to the fact there is something

world historically significant about america right

and that's just uh

i just pers i mean personally and this is something that i feel like that

that our schools and media are willfully ignorant to most of the public is the pestro dollar and the arrangement with saudi arabia the arrangement we yeah

absolutely and

and how that like

we're in the middle of the cold war and this is big arms race and then all a sudden nixon makes this deal where they can basically print money and now all of a sudden oh we're the

fucking capitalism wins like

yea a as bar fock has said

it's almost like we're not even living in capitalism because in capitalism profit is what drives the economy whereas

what's what's driven our economy since two thousand and eight is just printing money

yeah exactly well it's yeah what they figured out the hack basically i guess yeah it's not it's not even like p people aren't even making profit normally anymore they're just printing money and and injecting that into the economy

yeah and they're just outprinting the money they're just outprinting inflation they're just trying to basically stay in front of it at this point

and's like repent money and they just hope the real economy will catch up

and they just keep kicking the dance the can down the road yeah and i mean domestically it's a fucking ponzi scheme the dollars right and then you know internationally that's why we have you know

like iraq syria libya fucking it was going to be venezuela the israel

these are all countries that got off the petrol dollar they went to the euro or these other the

you know and it's no we're the world trade currency and it's no you know

it's no coincidence we have what eight hundred bases all over and like nobody you bring this up to people like it's the most obvious connection with everything with all our foreign policy

you and you edited

i that's what got you know what once i figured that out that's what sort of just started making me scratch my head and i was like wait and then just sort of connecting the dots i just got really fucked curious and

yeah men i just

it's

it's almost

aggravating trying to talk into people

and it's just all over the place man

yeah i don't really have

go ahead man

hoor keep on

i mean i don't really have much else and i'm not really trying to get into a big debatement i just like wanet to yeahk your brain i just think you know a lot of people think that oh what is america america is just this white supremacist

project and i'm not denying white supremacy' is relation to america i mean that's very much obvious but

i think there's more to america than that i think america represents pragmatism it represents

this in contrast to europe it represents this new way of rely relating to reality where we don't make assumptions about reality we

we we

we just focus and care about things that work instead of

they don't necessarily have to be meaningful

or have to be loaded with intention or whatever they just have to work they just have to somehow

function or be there i think

this american mentality

is something that all modern countries came to presuppose the soviet union china they all adopted

this

thing that seems to have originated from america

ah this specific form of modernity right and how they also rediscovered their own particular civilizations after but

my view has always been

that embracing american patriotism is going to give us a platform

who also rediscover the unique you know cultures and civilizations of the americas whether they're indigenous or whether they're

you know hispanic like related to mexico and our southwest or whether they're french

or wherever there's so much different cultures and localities within the united states

i jn't think america i don't think america has its own culture necessarily i think it's a platform

yeah

to discover specific cultures and realities that makes sense

no i completely agree and what i mean

the essence of what america was basically after world war two like that's where all the growth and anything that we you know what i mean

and we got alaska in hawaii and yeat a lot of people really take we are

a lot of people take for granted how for example in the soviet union

they were considered very much american how do i put it amero fhile i don't know what you call it

but

people foreigners wh remark why are you so obsessed with everything american why do you idolize henry ford

what it is about america that you consider so

worthy of like um admiration and so on and so on

and the way in iran now right even the youth of iran are

well that's that's just the cultural thing and the soviet union at the time in the thirties they would basically respond they would say in contrast to these arrogant europeans we just like

the frankness of americas we like their pragmatic practical attitude where they just

like to get to the root of things get to the bottom of things and they don't like to waste time and be arrogant and so on and so on like

there's something there that i think isn't reducible to white supremacy or this kind of racism whatever

no i'm one hundred percent with you

but there's everyone there's all this a whole group of people that realize that they're three fifths of person when that arrangement was made you know what i'm saying and so

getting past that hurdle with a lot of people and especially with everything else and then it's just

yeah i mean uh

i think that

i don't think america is

in essence racist i think racism

is a

is something that it represents the way america struggles with itself and struggles with its origins in the british empire

the truth is and this is why jefferson would say sch things like

the american experiment will truly prove its

its merit when we have a mouslem president and he was he was joking when he said that it was so outlandish to say that but

he was talking to the tunisians or sorry

was it the tunisians or the libyans at the time

he was like it was i dilomatic mission he was bas like oh yeah like

basic he was trying to say them our ideal our vision is to have a country that does not recognize

distinctions in

you know background or religion or ethnicity it's just this

state which is the bare minimum of a state

a commonwealth of some kind of republic

that is by foreign of the people

and which is totally indifferent to our

specific backgrounds and realities now where white supremacy figures in

is when this indifference is turned into like a

exterminationist rejection when the

when it is not only indifferent to our particular backgrounds

but it rejects our particular backgrounds right

that's where i think white supremacy and like white purity comes in where

they just want to have this culture of absolute purity

that's not contaminated by specific substantive

cultural or national or ethnic realities

but i don't think that's an i don't think that has to be the consequence of america america doesn't have to be white supremacist

we can still preserve this specific american indifference to any one specific

nationality

while at the same time

respecting those realities if that makes sense we're not going to inscribe them into the foundation of our state

but we can still respect them and still

even acknowledge them in some kind of way

well yeah and then i mean all the we don't

we don't have to make a state founded on the basis of nationality or ethnicity

a or religion

but we can still be a state that respects those things is what i'm trying to say

oh i i i don't i don't disagree with that at all and i just feel like some of the

uh i don't the things that we've grown accustomed to are like a lot of we've been sold a lot of

good

you know

for especially like poor people in this country and just sort of flows over ino minorities because the way the system works

like

one of my favorites is the thirteenth amendment right like they repealed slavery but

id not really because if you're in trouble they can just

you know what i mean and then now you have these for profit prisons that the have sheriff's departments that have quotas they have to fill seats like it's a fucking movie theater

yeah i agree i mean like i'm not a w i'm not like some

one sided american caricature i do recognize

there is a fundamental evil to this country and especially oh i wasn't trying to ss your telligence and think you didn't i know you all n know yea yeah i mean yeah this is a brutal evil country also which

kills and stifles people's humanity andnihilates people's humanity in the name of this false sense of sto

indifference and a sense of a

you know

substanceless abstract justice i completely understand that and i get that

this is a country that's built in a way that indifferent to our humanity right

but

i don't think

i don't i just don't think it's one sided at the same time you have this hideous evil

you also at the same time

ah cannot overcome this evil by trying to just ignore it or wipe it away in favor of like

completely discarded there's something about america that's true if that makes sense there's something even about this evil that's true and if

we don't acknowledge its rational kernel so to speak

we cannot

we cannot

we cannot really cure the disease of americanism

itself

we can just try to attack the target the symptoms but we're not going to be able to deal with the disease

i mean i agree and one hundred percent it is just that you know

yeah

with the wealth and equality and everything it's

there's there's so many layers and it's

would you

indoctrinated into this

sysdem of a lie

i mean from my

what you're four or five years old when you go to kindergarten right

it's

all the way through public schools

you know i mean in yeah

you get the college debt and you have your chase in the thing your entire life one hundred thousand dollars or

whatever it's a

they've got so many people just by the balls and they don't even realize it it's

i just like to know your scoksman

when people see your clips

of yelling at people and

like it sucks because i see the passion

but then when i see people like oh he's a fucking fascist i'm like yeah it's

didn't

hard to win people over like that man

and

anyways that's it man

yup all right see you later

an you so much buddy bye

alright

oh okay

yeah rejecting liberalism under the surface

we what are you saying

yeah to me it's not only that america is

freed from western european civilization it's the culmination of the west america's the ultimate culmination of the west

which is if you understand dialectics why it's a meeting point a bridge between west and east

america is the final form of the west

which is why it is the bridge between east and west it is the final

unity of east and west if that makes sense

if you do if that doesn't make sense to you you know nothing about dialectics

yup it's the final realization of european madernity which is why it's the final overcoming of european modernity

right

we

amen

ah for

thank you fear and trombone appreciate you

well no act

ptps

yup evergronde devulted i heard rumors

can anyone tell me the veracity of these rumors

that at the sixth plenary session of the communist party of china

they're going to

to reject some kind of legacy of dang jaoping did you guys hear about that

why think she letting ebvergronne default is a pretty much a statement he's basically trying to say

in this coming capitalist crisis

we are not going to bail out the big institutions we're going to let you fail

and we're probably going to pursue a more socialist path of development

whatever that means

i saw one tweet yeah i saw the same tweet so i'm assuming there's not much more to it and we're just going to have to wait

but this is eject and i want to hear what he has to say myself

i just don't believe they're going to reject danju being al right

who gave me a medical degree to call america disease

we do have a disease we have an american disease of course we have an american disease

i'm not saying america's a disease but there is an american disease we are facing

a crisis

oh

wrestling with our own demons and our own disease

i fundamentally believe in

it's a disease of neoism

nothingness

and yes i agree it's

from the british

and

its has its source the british legacy

but we are faced with the question

of where to go forward

we agree america's been trying to move away

and move forward

okay i don't know if this s is us

i'm af su down you we're going on the ground coming up in the show

heaven in disorder one of the world's greatest philosophers slavsjk on his hot off the presses new book

about corona virus in the end of capitalism

and if even a global pandemic couldn't stop bombing sanctions and the destruction of the earth

through climate change

can hope be found within the structures of capitalism

we talk possibility with award winning end to chicao front man ro reynolds

all the s more coming up in today's going underground the first thirty one years ago on this day

german reunification was ratified closing the book on communism in the eyes of the united

state

and supposedly ending history however a mere eleven years later

civilizations clashed as president george w bush

declared a war on terror before congress is the question of the end of s a gemany

is once again raised in the context

of the defeat in afghanistan

is the so called west

standing at the precipice of a new

historical epo

joining me now is philosopher slavojk

author of the new book

heaven

in disorder

so iy thanks so much for joining us

again it's a tour de force

it is a book that informs

everyday lives in whole new ways i have to tell you

you're playing on a mau quote

i've ignored egic for years

and now i'm starting to pay attention to him again because i'm playing the same game as him

with this public spectacle bullshit

mous saying there is great disorder in heaven the situation so no i have to pay attention to him

is excellent

and i haven't been ignoring him because i don't respect him but the opposite cause i respect him too much

to pay attention to the spectacle ship

that what does a disorderly

heaven

look like the one in which we live

no i didn't aund to ma ma said i checked it up precisely

there is a great disorder under heaven

mao still believed in heaven

in the sense of

continuous

she started to

progress or ismticy sporty

loss of history which lead towards communism

it's good that the scop here on earth

so that we can put

so begn we we to actually realize our goal what is happening today i tak is something much more dangerous

the decent organ is in

seven

it saens

week death

by this i mean you know

there's two types of people and i hate to do this to you guys and categorize you guys

two types of people one

you fully understand what he's saying

and there is

zero missunder zero

issue it's crystal clear or to your lif what's the for snipy guy say the rambling nonsense

if you're the second type of person i don't know what to tell you you're just not it you're just not one of us

that to me

simply

cannot

what you just said made perfect sense to me

andarn more around the world especially in the so called development west

we cannot

youit

even on

basic

value

that on

allow proper fund to mek of democracy itself

look at the united states today which is practically

in a situation of he

of ideological civil war

this explains all so and the stands to vaccination and so on and so on

this is

ideological liberalism

going totally wrong

now i will doe

no i disagree i think of anything

with the vaccination mandates are liberalism going wrong

that's where we probably disagree because

why doesn't china or russia need vaccine mandates these are not liberal countries they still have

preserved the progressive achievement of liberalism

whereas liberalism here is becoming totlitaran or whatever

i will be accused for being a fascist if i say something simple

more than ever

we should follow

what

you mind know wheen it come

the great philosopher of

freedom

and

enlightenment and sad

she sayd

enlightenment doesn't mean

m

m

don't debate just obey no enlightenment means

debate then your opinion bbly me

but

obey

that is to say

i almost call it very ironically this in the new

the good side of lenings

ur communist democratic socialism

yes debate

but

when society motey comes there

conclusion

we shed sol

be togeth and

do we

yea this is no

i disagree with this

is again is

impossible

more and more impossible

one of the other things i don't like about sijic is

he always just assumes whatever scientists say is correct

and

he is too much

a leftist and he's too much of a climate guy with the climate crisis

emphasis typeishd you know

im doing

today

when you're in the united states

if you enter a house

they don't have a ground floor

the begn comp bet with the first floor

and then first second s

in europe

first flods one already

we are right in europe

we you have to have zero

this is the highgarian view by the way this is high rady s

he's talking about hypri gratio

the scents over sem the ground

then you can count your

i'll have to get the u s ambassador to talk about

floors and

elevator or lif

lift numbers

i mean that

there are so many elements to this book that

re

what we're all going through

before i get to the vaccines actually the

you were watching on the screen the taliban victory the defeat of the united

yt states and you

i think there's a tie up in this book between the collective action

under the

beliefs

of

taliban versus the

fuzzy mercenaries they're not conscripted nato

troops yes

the belief in collective action for investing in gamestop and bitcoin

you know uh you know

why are you connected all these elements they are all

moment of a gain

this disintegration of the bigd it's very important what you mentioned it's apparently not even connected with this

how

in so called free democratic countrit

armies are mo

preparation for the panel i have to do it tonight i've been slacking so

i have to do that tonight

and tomorrow

professional armies

but

the situation that we have more and more in the west today

where

basically

imy

he gets called out from someone in the audience

and then yet so that person who called him out

then let me see p s ay

yp

guess who's guess who's

yeh

yh

yeah guess who's coming after infrared

yeah

i don't know if you know that

i

mercenaries of those in power

be

means dayship

mostly no brodbter

motivation

they are just

by the way they're very powerful very very powerful

very powerful in the party to the point where they've almost taken over the party entirely

they have the ear of the national committee

they have the complete ear of the national committee

ready to follow whatever

politics

decides and this for me again

ispite of a lung are

moment

movement sorry love movement

off

endines for a collective action our societies

falling att into two extremes

on the one hand

conspiracy theories every strong opinion

is reduced to just

and now go

just another verson we coouldn't be o big authority

some people call the sposed truth

logic or universe

on the other hand we have experts

cool

pretend to act

neutral way just telling us the truth

but weich are of course not real expects the are always already

faution

and

why this dangerous no i don't want

new fanatic nation states

ee

we're at the four hour mark

oh man

sorry guys i gotta prepare for the ry i'm not the ryull the show down friday

it's not going to be a fucking royal it has nothing to do with zerkeus

by the way the thing we're doing friday is not a fucking podcast it's a debate panel

and it's not

it's not like a fucking royale at all it's going to be

my attempt

to challenge dylan burns's monopoly on political twitch debates

so it's about securing our own political network it's politics

you can't have only have communist we're not only going to have communists we have all different political people we're just not going to have normis

on it there's going to be no normis it's just going to be all political shit

but anyway i thought i would going on the royalt today honestly i thought i'd be going on

he's a cool fun buty yeah arti is you guys wouldll be fun

don't worry about it i'll give you the invite to the server soon as i'm done making it

i probably work on it tonight i might ma watch a movie or some shit i don't know

i don't want to chill a little bit

what

yeah

it's gonn to be seven pm e s t

riight a

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