Haz talks with Logo Daedalus | InfraredShow Stream

2021-11-24
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hey what's up man
hello
oh your mic's not working
[Β __Β ] what's up hey what's up
are you sure yeah it works now always no
what's up man um hey i got something for
you right off the bat
what's that
hello yeah yeah
hello can't hear you
i don't know what's going on
uh
oh wait there it is i got you can you
hear me yeah i can hear you like okay
okay cool i couldn't hear you but listen
man i brought something for you just off
of what you were saying right this is
one of my favorite things it's uh it's a
little uh very underrated bit of
american literature right but the first
thing edgar allan poe ever published was
a series of sonnets it's like again oh
yeah i know i know that one tamerlane
yeah yeah i know have you read the
original though because he put he
published the original version only in
50 copies most of which
the
other version
but i haven't i haven't fully read all
right i just want i want to read this
one for you it's the 15th on it in the
original version um so it's pretty it's
pretty good pretty relevant but uh look
round thee now on summer cond is she not
queen of earth her pride above all
cities
in her hand their destinies with all the
side of glory which the world hath known
stan she not proudly and alone and who
her sovereign timmer he whom the
astonished earth have seen with victory
on victory redoubling age and more i
weaned the jingi's yet raccoon fame and
yao yet now what was he
what a name
the sound of revelry by night comes or
me with the mingled voice of many with
abreast as light as if twere not the
dying hour
of one in whom they did rejoice as in a
leader happily power its venom secretly
imparts nothing have i with human hearts
because uh tamerlane right he sort of uh
comes to represent in the romantics this
sort of um like he kind of is equated
with napoleon and a lot of yes
yeah
no napoleon is um
you know you know who is that
who's that um
who is that the aristocratic woman i
think she's from the house of orleans
who hated napoleon
and what was her name
are you thinking of bathory i don't know
there's a lot of uh i'm not super
deep under friends
one of ezra calls her the the karen of
france
the french karen
she was very anglophilic she loved
britain she was very anglophilic
that's pretty it's pretty standard
that's something um like it's man dude
i don't know where to start there's so
much stuff i've [Β __Β ] uncovered since
last time i talked to you i've like put
together so many puzzle pieces you were
saying that like your uh patriotic
socialism arc has been kind of
instructive but uh i think that's always
true whenever you get mass scapegoated
that's when you're learning something
like you're like really on something and
uh you're gonna like learn something
from it is what i've discovered right
yeah i feel like we've both gone through
that quite a bit it's it's just a little
you always learn something it's just a
little bit awkward because it's like
is this isn't
like i never thought it was that big of
a deal you know but
here we are i guess oh no it's a big
deal no if it wasn't a big deal then it
wouldn't need to be said and saying it
wouldn't be such a you know wouldn't
garner this sort of response it actually
is a huge deal you know it's actually a
huge deal that this has like become a
massive uh kerfuffle over being like
like well it's so absurd but like they
interpret like what you're saying is
basically a kind of like they can't
really
uh distinguish between the institution
and like the the things that are being
represented or ostensibly represented in
that institution like
it's weird because they wouldn't say
this even if you're like let's say you
were like a black military vet and
you're like yeah i'm like a patriot and
i'm also a socialist like i'm a veteran
or whatever be like yeah cool based
whatever like do you think they'd really
be uh
as
as critical in in a weird sense no no
they wouldn't but it
i don't know it's like what i say
the only reason someone ever is going to
come and identify with marxism leninism
right now in the us
is that they just hate their the you
know they just hate the world they live
in and they just think it's a way out
you know they're like oh i hate ever i
hate america so much and i hate
everything it stands for us let me just
be the opposite of what i think
it's actually the same exact reason why
and it's like the same uh like thought
processes that happen
why all these like uh like post austrian
libertarians becoming neo-nazis or
whatever it's literally the same thing
it's just being like what do you think
is going to offend this people the most
and then it's like it's very much larpy
it always has been warped um for like
the last 50 years uh at least of uh when
it comes to like connections to um
being like the vanguard of like the
proletariat or whatever considering uh
yeah you can't really be that and be the
main construction like the emerging out
of the very people who like created the
conditions for world war one and world
war ii in the first place
well it doesn't really make sense the
thing that really um
bother you know
the way where i've been at and i don't i
don't expect to ever make this like
these dumb asses on twitter will never
understand this so i there's no point in
trying to
explain it to them but you and many
others get this is that
communism
in the 20th century was america that was
um that was fundamentally america right
i mean like uh you had these traditional
societies the soviet union
sorry russian empire china and communism
was like the
external
manifestation of what america was
and that's not necessarily a good thing
either because
communism represented the apocalypse of
modernity right um
these societies were facing just like
this complete leveling and you know this
complete kind of castration in the
psychoanalytic sense or whatever
just this uh complete
kind of alienation in a sense right
between people and their traditional
way of life this was the initial stage
of communism i i would say like for
example uh during the
uh war communism of the civil war and
then the very early stages of the
collectivization right not talking about
the long-term consequences but just the
beginning and then in china the great
leap forward these were all kind of
just
apocalyptic phenomena that they survived
and endured through
but
the unfolding of america is itself the
this revelation this sort of apocalypse
this is like how william blake sees it
uh as like the american revolution is
happening that sort of fire is what
spreads like the american revolution
um like the the ability for like people
to come out in this exact sort of way
was extremely radical and it's something
that's like downplayed by pedagog like
pedagogy in america now
you basically get this idea where they
first presented as being like oh it's
like super radical like when you're a
kid or something and you get like a
comic book version of it and in some
ways the comic book version is closer to
reality than the more quote unquote
nuanced interpretations you get later
where it's like well actually like you
know the british empire had gotten rid
of slavery and they were more
progressive so
uh this was just representing like
whatever landlord what i mean by like
apocalypse though is this just like so
with modernity right specifically the
english the original
modernity basically was this breakdown
of meaning in the world right it was
basically this like
um
look
for example modern science right oh this
is you invested so much meaning in the
idea of
genesis and creation well hey [Β __Β ] you
it turns out we came from monkeys or we
revolve around the sun we're not the
center of the universe like it's a form
of this kind of humiliating um
just disclosure of some kind of
meaninglessness right and where the kind
of satanism of modernity as i put it in
parent quotation marks comes in is
basically where it says this meaningless
uh humiliation of man's
senses and
sense of meaning in the world
is itself the metaphysical absolute that
exists for its own sake something is
only as true it's it's nick land's gnome
the g-n-o-n whatever you know the nature
the god of nature yeah it's just this
like fundamental alienation basically
right
um yeah yeah but so to me uh
the the way i've come to see it is that
the the british empire the sovereignty
the sovereign
rule of the british empire after the
glorious revolution
uh was the rule of this kind of nihil
right it's a sovereign kneel sovereign
nothingness
and to me
the american revolution was a way of uh
decapitating this sovereignty this crown
and finally opening up
uh
making uh
opening up mankind again to the kind of
ambiguity metaphysical ambiguity instead
of saying
the humiliation and radical alienation
of modernity is
itself existing for its own sake there
it's an ambiguity instead we don't know
what it means just this fundamental
ambiguity this is how i understand
pragmatism right with pragmatism it's
not they don't first begin with like
some loaded sense of meaning and then
you impose that on reality
um you begin with
an ambiguity well if it works it works
and what the implications that has for
meaning is open right but the issue the
reason america's such an evil country so
to speak
is because
even
the pragmat
this pragmatism itself
corresponding to each ruling class that
has consolidated in the history of the
us
it's turned into a sovereign object
right it's like
it's not only that if it works then it's
fine it's that
the only reality is what works there is
no means mentality exactly
i was just reading um this is like a big
gap between um uh if you read walter
littman and john dewey like their books
that were kind of polemical against each
other uh because john dewey has this
very john dewey is like a hegelian now
like he's like very uh erudite and uh
he's part of that sort of um like
transcendentalist uh like
post-transcendentalist uh kind of uh
look at the world in america uh he comes
from that school so you know he like
reads german idealism he's like that
whereas like lipman is very
in the like british utilitarian
tradition more so so uh when he's like
you know interpreting these things in
like a pragmatic sense or like saying
things that like you know everything in
the world is like a tool and like all of
man's creations are like tools like
we're creating these things you know
what i mean like that type of pragmatism
that has like a very uh that's well that
has a very that's like that's like a
maoist kind of conception also though
right where it's like where where you're
the proof of things is in their
continued social utility like if
something continued a practice that
continues to exist has some sort of
truth to it because it is maintains like
stability over time well the problem is
like with with people like lipman they
go um yeah but these things cannot
emerge from the people because the
people the masses they the things that
emerge from their minds like the systems
that they create are anarchy whereas the
elites we're the ones who can create
systems of order so what our job is to
do is to program these games effectively
or like tools like social conditions uh
social programs uh population control in
general and uh that's our job that's our
burden as like the elite we have to
create and like maintain order whereas
what dewey was more interested in was
saying that you we need to create a
system that is like um kind of like
uh order on a fractalized level so that
uh like the citizens themselves on an
individual level are creating like
participating in the construction of
order and the construction of
intelligence like actionable
intelligence uh in a republican you know
setting like you know that type of um
social organization
yeah you know the thing with though is
that um
the a really crucial difference though
between pragmatism and utilitarianism is
that
utilitarianism sees the ends as maybe i
would say the satisfaction of some kind
of goal or this
more i would say
satisfaction of some kind of senses
right this is how i used like to look at
it like the ultimate utilitarian example
is the british you know uh
kind of like capitalist who's use he's
using everything as a tool just to
satisfy some kind of like base pleasure
or some kind of something right but
with
with pragmatism this is how i put it in
my sub stack that's i didn't finish yet
but the basic idea is that
uh for the englishman the machine is a
tool to realize some ends right but for
the american the machine is the ants the
machine is itself the ultimate ends
so with pragmatism uh
work the things being able to work is
the privileged
um
is the privileged kind of uh
um how should i say expression of the
platonic good the good is
what works right
so
what that basically means is that when
it comes to the evil of america the evil
things we associate with
united states in america or
the unhappy consciousness of america so
to speak
is this kind of attempt to
arrive at a form of sovereign
objectivity with instead of the
empiricism of the british
occulted sovereign object of the senses
that is this metaphysical absolute this
sovereign objectivity is instead some
kind of thing that works completely
indifferent
completely uh
uh
completely alien to humanity and
completely
existing on its own terms right so
there's never we never arrive at this
reconciliation this harmony you could
say with a pragmatism pragmatism results
in uh well i guess i don't really know
on this level um
the way i've conceived it is it's
basically you just think of it like this
we got rid of the british crown
and then
we've been trying to replace and fill
the vacuum and also this is involving
the british elites as well directly but
every everything
every chapter of the class struggle in
the americas history is this attempt by
our ruling class
to replace the british crown so to speak
and institute
uh
make our pragmatic uh ambiguity into an
sovereign objectivity that exists for
itself
yes man is that that was uh what in new
england anyway the the
the puritans there uh they had already
replaced the crown like these were the
people who had executed the king in uh
the english civil war you know this like
they they had already uh taken this like
there was there's like an american
revolution before the american
revolution you know in a in that time
where you're talking about the glorious
revolution what that really did was set
the stage for the american revolution
because when they reorganized the
colonies afterwards which had been
effectively abandoned in the period of
the civil war uh
and like self-governing um they
reorganized things and they wanted to
impose leadership and direction from
london over these like previously
autonomous colonies um who were even
printing their own currency and things
like that um
so that was taken away and they were
subject again to the crown they weren't
subject to the crown for decades
yeah but um you're aware of the thesis
it forward in the book the the uh the
loyalists
the what is it the loyalist revolution
something like that
where
the
the uh
revolutionaries of the american
war of independence
actually began as loyalists and they
actually
came to realize this was my takeaway
that the current british crown were
usurpers they're not real
they're they're pretenders to the throne
they don't represent the real authentic
monarchy so
the whole
founding of the u.s republic was
basically like
not to safeguard against the excesses of
tyranny so to speak that just was from
feudalism or from the traditional
society but was a reaction to the
horrifying revelation of the fact that
how is there a pretender who's sitting
on the throne this is the only way we
can safeguard ourselves from uh
pretenders from ever sitting on the
throne again like and by pretenders
i basically am
meaning uh
like uh
like from the poems of the english
romantics like what's this poem uh
the um the mask of anarchy who is this
do you know aware of this poem
the mask of anarchy who is this by again
well the mask of anarchy was basically
like
how er
that the crown represented the like
exactly it's opposite the anarchy of
modernity and the complete usurping of
all tradition and rights and customs and
history or whatever like
the person's it's almost like the pope
right the pope is the highest
representative of christianity but then
with protestantism you have the
horrifying revelation that holy [Β __Β ] the
antichrist that's the antichrist right
so even the first time they realized
that though man that's not the first
time it's it's the same as uh from my
perspective it's the same
as how they viewed the
why the us republic was founded not as a
monarchy was because how could it be
possible that a usurper a false
pretender uh can be a king right
it's not that they rejected
the history of monarchy and all kings in
history as illegitimate and false it's
just that
here we have
an anarchist as king
so to speak
we have the mask of anarchy
so that's really
that's really uh what it is and like
that's like
uh that the divine right in a way kind
of leads directly to global imperial
anarchism or whatever like like who gets
this divine right it it then goes down
to whoever effectively can wield it i.e
like make their uh make like control
nature right this is uh this is where
gain your divine right is your ability
to uh exert power your will onto the
world that's like what anguishes like
divine right from an elected monarchy
right is a
is an elective monarchy you you you
don't wield these powers like
individually you've been vested with
them by the people but in a divine right
monarchy the people are irrelevant to
you like the people are
in are like good they're on a list like
they don't they don't invest you with
anything you are over them like you're a
god man this is like the ubermensch
right is to be the divine right monarch
yeah the strange
the thing that i always like to
emphasize though is that we typically
view
uh modernity so to speak i know this is
a loaded term and it's not
you know it's it's a lot of suits like
to use this word all modernity but just
it simplifies things right we like to
think of this idea as like first you
have
the old traditional society and then you
have the
modernistic progressive forces who have
no regard for tradition and no regard
for
um
history and they just decide to from
scratch
create a new society based on
this kind of rationalistic nihilism
whatever but we've
when my study of european history has
led me to a very very uh different
conclusion which is that
this
uh rationalistic nihilism whatever you
want to call it satanism whatever of
modernity that turns the world upside
down
this actually happened before the
revolutions first
there was some fundamental corruption of
the institution of monarchy
um
and of religion as well where you had
basically satanists become the pope
and you had um
completely way back buddy yeah how far
back you want to go right now
complete atheistic nihilists become
sitting on the throne they become the
king right
and revolutionaries
come to embody the true
um
return to tradition so to speak like
robespierre with his
um
republican virtue was an attempt to
return to some kind of authentic
tradition and it was actually the king
king louis uh 16th
who was the revolutionary in quotations
right so you have this very very
fundamental
it's it's a very like confusing
dialectic but it really does make it's a
very beautiful irony when you
come to realize like once once you have
once you can see it like in history like
uh then
it it just reverberates like everywhere
and it also like helps guide like your
ability to uh research better i think um
once you're like aware of these sorts of
tensions kind of replicating themselves
uh throughout time then you know what
what to look for and where to find it
like in any given like situation so you
find some you uncover some pretty
interesting stuff this way like if
you're looking at um like the uh peasant
revolts or like the sort of uh the
quote-unquote like her
heretical uh like uprisings of peasants
in like the dark ages and things like
this this uh this sort of like under
this like submerged history
has a this complete continuity to the
present um in a way that is actually
easier to connect
um philosophically than i think like the
quote unquote like ruling ideologies
development in time like the ruling
ideology is always kind of nonsensical
it's like uh it's like a
cabinet of um delusions that have been
gone through that's sort of like what
the nightmare of history is but the
truth amongst the people has always been
sort of um
that's the most lindy thing in the world
is uh is the people
yeah um
yeah i mean uh
to me the very very ability to
have a notion of the people
that's divorced from
the institution that's meant to
instantiate them
for me that begins with the
american revolution right
it's
just some kind of we the people and
there's a fundamental ambiguity so many
many people ask and they think they're
smart
right uh so who's her name luna oy you
know why
these people on twitter i beat with
she said she's just like oh you say the
people but which people do you mean the
trans people or
the marginalized or the disabled but
they miss the point that the people in
the united states the people exist the
ambiguity is imminent right it's it's
meant to be ambiguous it's meant not to
be loaded with any specific determinant
form because the minute you give it
determinate form you are interpolating a
subject through some kind of institution
has this this is like all the theology
to me though like this goes back to like
what combat and i have been obsessed
with which is uh the problem of
universals
in um
hermeneutics because it comes down to
like what the definition of the church
was right because you could say the same
thing where it's like we're doing this
for like christians and for the church
right and that's a huge amount of things
right if you're talking about like
christians
um or a church what is that is the
church the exact same church that like
the roman church the institutions the
ones that are subject to this that agree
to xyz specific charter the ones that
say this creed the ones that say this
like what are the what like how does
that develop like the church um the
universal church like basically there
was this conception amongst the radical
reformationists that there's always a
universal church which is not known to
people um in time like we do not know
who's a member of the universal church
uh but that this is a this is what the
church actually means is uh the
universal church hood of believers in
eternity not the any individual
instantiation of um like an institution
around us but a much larger like vaguer
like metaphysical concept like this for
the same it works the exact same way
with the people because if you say for
the people you don't even mean for just
the american people right because if
you're like an actual populist um then
doing things for your own people and
like like say like eliminating like the
american empire that you're also be in
the doing this in the best interest of
like those people actually uh there's no
conflict between self-development and
like uh mutual development like it's not
a winner take all game it's not one take
like to win someone else must lose in
this sort of thing but in a in a proper
like educational environment in this
sense like in the way dewey meant in
education uh everyone trying to manifest
their themselves like the best versions
of themselves they're tempering each
other also and like draw that sort of um
that competition this is like where the
positive sense of like the
competitiveness in america comes from is
this sense of
this is actually this actually makes
everyone better is that um
it's not uh it's not a zero-sum game and
you don't have to uh like divide
everything where it's like uh you know
you're playing a game and you see that's
people with xyz traits seem to excel at
a certain game and you go like oh this
game isn't fair to people with who don't
have xyz traits or whatever that's like
what they're doing when they're
dissolving the notion of the people like
they're eliminating uh the possibility
of having the pretense of like a
universality that may not prove itself
to be like universal and outputs but is
universal in inputs
yeah to me
we just i always like to return to what
i consider marx's monotheistic humanism
and the reason i think i say it's
monotheistic
thank you so much voidburn donating
love these discussions thank you so much
for having logo back on these streams
are amazing thank you voidburn
appreciate you but um
and the way you have to understand that
is that remarks what does marx mean by
man what does he mean by humanity
does he mean a humanity
uh loaded with certain predefined
characteristics and positive quality
what does he actually mean when he talks
about humanity and man right well marx
actually isn't referring remarks he says
if you want to know what humanity is
work right work for humanity and
work to discover you
but
productivity is is man like you could
say like this is what it means to say
man is the image of god i.e those
working in like productive like in the
reproduction of the world like like
using language and you know arts and and
uh buildings like that's what man is
well it's even deeper than that because
for marx there is no there's not even
any
there's no premise of man whatsoever
marx the word man just refers to
um
this monotheistic view that there is one
absolute there is one uh
kind of point point of the metaphysical
absolute in which all of this
developments of our thinking
specifically in the thinking of
philosophy all of this shares the same
essence and is one in the same
with um
with ourselves in our in with uh how
should i say
with
um
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with
our bases at its lowest base like for
example
uh the the most base and menial work of
a toilet this is part of one single
object all marx is basically saying in
terms of his humanism is that i don't
know what humanity means or what it is
but it does mean something and it is
actually something right so man just
refers to this fact man just
means to return the head
to its material base now what is that
material base what is the consequence
that what does that look like well marx
doesn't say this because that comes
after first you have to accept
that there is this reconciliation there
is one universal humanity
now again what this humanity looks like
and whatever is besides the point it's a
fundamental commitment to the fact that
even if you don't know
even if you don't know it
um a contradiction between heaven and
earth between head and body for example
is reconciled
as a material object
see see sometimes it's like i read marx
i think angles is better with this
honestly i'm like an angle's head right
now like i feel like marx gets too much
play i feel like engels was actually the
major partner in the relationship these
days but uh sometimes i'm reading mark
so i'm just like
it's like the stone that the builder
rejected here and it's like everything
he's saying is just like uh yeah like
that's why jesus christ existed you know
where it's like where it's like oh yeah
there is this like imminent absolute
which is like best represented by this
sort of a person who like works right
and uh and in working like discovers
this truth and in discovering this truth
is uh crucified by the capitalists of
the world essentially yes and uh like
it's literally like that's that's sort
of um that's sort of what angles is
getting to you at the end uh with his
like history early christianity and like
their constant comparisons between them
um i think really that so much uh so
much of the botched nature of like
western like western marxists and
leftovers is from this uh their failure
to like fully reconcile like um to uh
like a kind of like radical christianity
because um
it completely
like it completes their their vision and
it's already like implicit in a way and
what that ends up what ends up happening
like the reason why they didn't is
because christianity was actually
hegemonic like this sort of bourgeois
christianity of like uh metaphors of
like debt right uh this meta this uh
this sort of um calvinistic uh sense
where uh jesus gives you uh lower
interest rates on your loan to the
[Β __Β ] devil and like that's and then
when you pay off your debt you're in the
elect that's basically like the metaphor
of calvinism um
but
that is uh that's like as opposed to
like the great jubilee right of uh of
communism of a cornucopian communism
yeah you know the the issue really stems
from the fact that people don't first of
all people don't really appreciate that
marx and engels as they say shared one
mind so if angles were saying something
that seemed like it contradicts marx or
is different from marx
it's usually because the
interpretation of marx is not complete
right
but
when i really i just mean like the man
was around longer like you know yeah
yeah i think i think the issue is that
many people i think the more general
issue is philistinism and by
philistinism i mean um
it's this kind of relativization of
marxism to ju you know just some kind of
like
some part of a bigger division of labor
when marxism is supposed to be like this
privileged fundamentally like
renaissance man
type of
way of completely connecting the whole
division of labor into one
form of practice and one method and one
kind of relation to universal humanity
so the issue really is that there's a
lack of understanding of what religion
even is in the first place right there
is obviously the institution of religion
that existed at the time
but the more fundamental religious
extra foundation of religion
was something that marx and engels even
angles himself despite
his he was turning from this in his
later years
they took it for granted right they were
never confronted with any kind of um
challenge to this but yes christianity
uh
is not reducible to
philosophy so to speak it's not
confronted
they were confronted with sort of a
radical atheist like skeptics of the
time and who they were were like the
bourgeois socialists and the utopian
socialists who uh who go on to uh and
the anarchists who go on to uh produce
uh the system we have now so but the
curse the curse is that though that even
atheists are
in a sense christian in the west right
it's this more fundamental spiritual
texture
well what i would say is that there's
like so it depends on what you mean by
that because i would say that the
standard atheist cosmology is actually
just deism
like um is it fun like there's like if
you watch like neil degrasse neil
degrasse tyson cosmos or whatever
they'll even be like you know what we're
actually not even atheist because we're
like agnostics that we do believe that
there's the possibility of a deistic god
which is identical nature you have to
you have to look at it from the
perspective of the division of labor
they are
they they'll say these things right but
they're taking for granted this more
fundamental substantive texture of the
christian religion right as the real
foundation
so by rejecting christianity all they're
doing is estranging themselves from
having any kind of
active uh or
um
non-alienated relationship to their own
kind of uh
i guess i would call it uh religious
substance so to speak like i do agree
with marx with this sense that religion
is in a sense of the world our world is
itself religious right our world is it's
our civilization is itself in a way
christian
uh the question is whether one is if one
is a philistine then one is going to
occupy one narrow one-sided part of the
division of labor
and be blinded from the whole whereas if
one is a well-rounded kind of
renaissance man or whatever you're going
to ex you're going to really be able to
um
embrace this fact and could be able to
confront it and
be reconciled with it
yeah it's it's like a really unique
thing that um biblical literacy is like
almost non-existent it's like gone um
which is really kind of uh strange for
america it's an extremely strange thing
to happen to america for that sort of
literacy to to decline because uh it's
really founded um our obsession with
literacy was founded on uh biblical
literacy being something that was like
kind of necessary even to
uh having like troll over yourself in a
way like like this was like a means by
which to manifest yourself so uh to
yourself like ethically like the
experience of reading this text um is uh
is it
it's educated it creates a type of
relation to the world which is more
conducive to republican governance like
in the sense of a participatory uh
actual um like commonwealth uh you know
like the an unalienated like relation to
the uh productive
uh force of the worlds that's what the
the goal for uh these early settlements
was like they were communists like in
their time they uh they had their own
problems but like even in like the uh
the massachusetts bay colony the
original charter they do like a full uh
they go full communism there is no
private property and eventually they
start uh to legislate away from that but
that is uh this this notion is a you
know it's biblical the this notion of
communism that's where it comes from it
comes from
people reading uh
and interpreting the laws around
property and inheritance and uh usury
and you know these sorts of things from
the old testament
like leviticus and stuff like that like
this was uh this is where these ideas
come from
so what i want to bring up is speaking
of this is that
i've struggled with america still i
haven't completely completed the puzzle
i think i'm close but
it's a big problem for me and when i say
it's a big problem i mean it like this
so in china you have the communist party
of china and what that basically means
is that
the communist party is in power but
there is still this
historically partial kind of object
china which is not reducible the
communist party may be in power someone
else may be in power but china remains
there is this reality of china this
common point of objective
unity of the whole chinese people it's a
and the the coherent point that's the
quilting point of an entire civilization
same is true for russia same is true for
other countries the issue with united
states of course is that
we don't have that right so the
communist party of the united states
is a kind of very strange alchemical
mixture it's almost like you're saying
the communist party
of the communist state
it's like um
the issue is that
communism here let's just simplify it
means this kind of uh
negation of corresponding to the journey
so the communist china basically means
china experiences this fundamental
alienation abstract
negation of modernity and then it has
the negation of the negation where it is
returned to the original
object china china remains and survives
this so this is the dialectic
alchemical whatever formula but the
weird thing going on with the united
states that i struggle with is that
this is why i
i i introduced the idea of reviving the
cpusa in the first place it really comes
from exactly is this is the secret of
the whole thing to me i found it's very
poetic and i found something even if i
don't fully understand it very
uh prophetic even this idea of
the chickens coming home to roost and
the very source of communism and you
know what i mean by communism right this
abstract
leveling process of modernity communism
returns to its home and the full
consequences of what this
abstract negation quote unquote of
modernity what even is that
uh
it all of that becomes revealed here and
we have this fundamental internal
confrontation where america confronts
america but you it's like two negations
what do you get out of two negations
what do you get out of the communist
party of the communist state we don't
have the communist party of china or
russia anything else it's just the
united states the united states already
communist in a way from the very
beginning right so
what effectively effectively like doing
the whole like uh i don't um like there
has to be the creation of like some sort
of a party
to destroy all parties in a way because
uh what i think if you're saying like
things have to return etc um the real
return will be uh getting americans to
be actually more like [Β __Β ] americans
uh americans now like even patriotic
americans they're like patriots but
they're like and i love winston
churchill and margaret thatcher and hey
so it's like are you really patriots um
these
the americans are not actually being
american enough um they don't know or
care enough about our own traditions and
uh that that return will be the real
return because the goal of the american
republic was to not have parties at all
well my whole point
was that the the congress and the house
of representatives and these sorts of
bodies this was the party like the the
government was identical to the party
like there is one and it's one party and
it's all the people in the states
what my worry though is that
is
is america
only defined by this kind of um
negation of
in a way civilized like isn't america
only defined by this constant negation
of all stable traditions one like what
is our sovereign point of objectivity
for our country like what is really it's
defined by that negation i don't think
uh like in that sense um i i really
don't because uh america even in the um
like
if you're looking for a country that's
like a pure like or as close as possible
to that pure negation you'll find it in
like
sweden and like and london you know this
is uh this is the real place where uh
there's just uh what is the swedish
tradition do you like do you think do
you not feel that like the swedes in a
way are uh more abstract in this sense
like are the land of ikea like are they
not
actually further on this than we are
well the ins you know in a sense you can
say they are they're a hyper reflexive
society but still they have an object of
sweden sweden and its history and
sweden's civilization and there's
something there it just has to do with
their peculiar
perversion of uh in my view protestant
christianity in sweden that leads them
to the ikea
the ikea swedes that hover over the
world in this you know they're kind of
like space aliens right but
the the issue with the next project yeah
the issue to me is like
we here's here's how i put it is that we
don't have a common
we don't have a sovereign we don't have
a sovereign that
historically united american
civilization into one people
we are not yet one people here in the
united states that makes sense right
like
china for example that
had its various dynasties russia had its
ours europe had its kings
um
middle eastern whatever they have their
sultans or their emmers or whatever we
we um
we we like
uh how should i put it
um
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what was i gonna say [Β __Β ]
i mean because it's like who's lincoln
like that's what abraham lincoln was
like that's what
like a titanic figure and like why the
assassination of lincoln is like
like spells the rest of uh like the
tragedy of american history unfolding
after that and kind of the death of the
second republic um that link is trying
to uh
herald i guess i guess what i would try
to say is this is i read this in the
chat this is exactly what i mean we
don't have really a civilization here by
civilization here's what i mean
civilization as i would define it is
when you have both the state
you have some kind of harmony between a
state
and the material base outside the state
in the form of the people the people
in their
telerik you know earthly existence come
to an understanding with the state and
this mediation produces a civil society
right
but united states to me is it's pretty
much the like
it's it's the caricature of the
anti-communists that they make of like
communist countries it's like one
universal state
that has no regard
for the earthly reality of its people
and you know if you come into the
there's no like civil society here it's
just here's the state
and then chaos
you know what i mean
so
uh there's actually a mediating figure
in american literature there
the native americans
uh interesting elaborate
native americans are not like this idea
that like there was like anti-native
american racism or something like that
this base this like a purely uh like
eugenics like uh ethno anthropological
like you know rational uh disdain or
whatever is not the case at all because
uh the native americans uh were always
uh rep like they had they've had a huge
influence on the way uh we organized our
society here and they were always that
uh that that media mediating figure
because they were in the anarchy of
nature and uh the ambiguity was like
what is their form of order and if
you're saying like you were talking
about the mongols earlier right well
that's closer to like the what the
native american societies were like and
um
that was always that's always like like
from the beginning it was like how do we
merge with the native americans like how
do we become
uh one
thing like as americans that was uh
that's like the question that's like why
uh
you have like hiawatha hiawatha like
longfellow the longfellow poem like
these things they're like they're like
american republican things and you know
we have this sort of a civic mythology
in which the native american uh plays an
extremely important role in legitimizing
things as being from like authentically
from the land and the people which is
why like land back etc has been uh so
necessary by the ngo plex to uh you know
for them to monopolize that brand space
because uh like everyone kind of
authentically recognizes that the native
americans have like the most authentic
relation to this to this land but in a
sense like
the american communism would be to like
we all become native americans
that's actually very interesting
um
huh
like we are all the people like this
idea like we are i'm a native american
like my family's been here for god knows
how long like am i a native american
this is what the nativists were saying
right uh like uh the know-nothings and
things like that they would actually
describe themselves as native american
yeah and this was like a sort of this is
like a patriotic thing even like a
jingoistic chauvinistic thing in some
sense to claim yourself to be a native
american i mean you can see that [Β __Β ]
uh wocahontas does it uh elizabeth
warren but um i i mean it and i'm not
like in that sort of like cringe like
using it for like i was so oppressed and
status thing but more is like an
aspirational thing like peop that's like
also i think what uh is sort of wrong
like you know the uh the redskins or
whatever as the football team is being
considered as like a derogatory or
something no it's like it's like an
aspiring thing it's like these were
people that
that like america wanted to replicate in
a way like they appre they they uh it
wasn't this uh this like
uh like i don't know some aspects of
like a patriarchal or condescending
attitude towards the native americans
but
i don't know they're i think much deeper
like the american mythology um the
native americans are like they're not
always rep they're not represented as
like
usually as like reprehensible and like
below uh civilization but as like you
know uh a uh an admirable enemy you know
like as like a worthy foe
yeah i mean um
one of the other things i was thinking
about too was that
this is really the big issue is that
if
the whole united states as a project as
the opponents of uh
patriotism whatever
alleged was one big frankenstein monster
it's just one big mistake one big
catastrophe there's no substance to
america there's no
object of america it's one continuous
artificial creation that will never have
a civilization and will never have any
roots in the land it's one completely
failed
meaningless catastrophe
for me the question then is
is this not a fundamentally
nihilistic insight isn't that mean what
does that mean humanity as a whole
that's actually what really
kind of pushed me away from
my more anti-american stance i had like
a year ago which was not anti-american
in the woke sense but i was more i was
very skeptical of the idea of an
american
state i just didn't know right i was
like how could this be possible what
pushed me away from it was that
different
when i when i when i started to like see
what these people were filling the
vacuum with and it was just this rancid
utter nihilism i realized like hold on
okay
you you aren't at peace with america yet
do you still have to work america has
more up its sleeve because
you know you're beautiful america is
great like i love what i what i mean by
that is this like
yeah no i understand it's like what i
mean by this is like they they're
engaging in a kind of foreclosure
they're foreclosing the very source
of the ground of their own subjectivity
and then just declaring that they won
like oh yeah we defeated america no you
haven't defeated america you're still
you're still fundamentally relying on a
very narrow
part of america and
that's really our ruling class you're
taking that and their relationship to
the people as the foundation and you're
running away from the material basis of
what america is and you want to just you
want to seal the deal and be done with
it and close that off forever and my
perspective is no america has more up
its sleeve there's more
to this country
there's more to the the people of this
country than the institutions that claim
to represent them right so that has been
my point but the reason i don't like
being backed the reason i'm having such
trouble being backed into this corner by
twitter twitter lefties
is that
i still have a lot of doubt i still have
a lot of ambiguity where it's like i i
do always think like um
what really is the future then what does
this mean what is
like what is america i still don't even
really know right all i know is that
they're wrong that's all i know is that
these people are evil and wrong but
i would say this is what america is is
um america is uh like
it's they're not in charge of what
america is they are alienated from it
they're the furthest people from it
they're the most alienated from it they
couldn't see it if you gave it to them
if you showed it to them they wouldn't
tell you that's what it is they have no
appreciate like they have no like
they're not attached to this if anything
their uh their sense of self is like
mediated through the internet and it's
mostly mediated through um
like uh
relation to europe right and
specifically to northern europe and
specifically even more so they measure
everything compared essentially to
sweden right sweden do you know do you
know this when you look at like those
things where it's like human rights
watch like liberty meter etc and they
they do these metrics uh most of the
time they're just uh they're just
they're just
measuring how close you you are to
sweden
sweden will have the top marks
yeah
i know sweden is a big
it's a hell it's hell
right since the iron the triangle man
you don't understand like it's sweden
sweden is loki loki
has is
man i don't know where to start because
sweden sweden has this like incredible
occulted history of like hyperborean
intrigue being like the mediating figure
between the british empire and the
russian empire in like the baltic and uh
oh my god dude like it's [Β __Β ] i don't
know where to start with this stuff but
i don't know no one cares about swedish
history it's like once you see it and
you're like wait a minute the swedes
like the what like what is what is going
on there like what it what have they
been doing this whole time like why do
they give out the nobel prize like wait
they weren't involved in world war one
or world war ii like what what were they
doing like the whole time they made
money on both of those they built all
this i've never actually never had a war
they've never been invaded nothing's
ever happened to them they've they've
just only grown and like they're
invested in like everything they tried
to do colonialization but they couldn't
quite do it so all they did was invest
in every other uh colonial enterprises
like uh corporations so they made money
on everyone's imperialism the whole time
like it's incredible
yeah i i never thought about that
actually
they they're like the key masonic lodges
too it's [Β __Β ]
that's that's man greta thuneberg now
think about greta thunberg like why is
she around she's [Β __Β ] royalty
really
her fam oh man
jesus
yeah aristocracy intrigue the ancient
regime is not gone like like it's not
it's it's up in uh the this is like what
uh
what i've been realizing more and more
this is like the horror of uh you should
watch the show aries a-r-e-s
it's a uh dutch show about um this sort
of thing but it's like like
let's just think like a cthulian horror
that i experience is uh looking into
like things like like the swedes because
they're they have never had a revolution
there's never been a revolution in
sweden
that's true actually that's actually
true
there are 10 million they're not that
big though
because they what they it's a eugenic
society right like basically this is
like where this whole notion right of
like the sort of hyperborean
theosophical world view where like the
higher races are the ones closer to the
north pole gee i wonder who came up with
that um
it's that's where it all comes from man
and uh if you look at uh if you look at
europe and you imagine a sort of like
pyramid uh with the baltic liberating
you know like the the the eye of
providence sort of thing sweden fits
that sort of figure it's like right
there and their goal basically was for
sweden to be like the the select like
the cream of the crop of the hereditary
aristocracies that would then rule over
the lower races of like the germans you
know they weren't they're like no
they're like the germans they're they're
not they're not swedes uh they're
they're a little swarthy too but uh you
know that's uh that's
that's how it works because it's all
this relation to like the vikings the
vikings are another key i think the key
figure for western history especially in
the northwest like anglophone history
which we uh we don't appreciate is a how
you're talking about the mongols being
like um that sort of world historical
uh shift to modernity i was gonna say
the vikings are because the vikings
were just a pure like they uh they they
were the first they were like they're
all they're like a financial oligarchy
they were like a lump and proletariat
empire
yeah
they did play the role of nomads in
europe it seems like
rated they just raided things and they
they were the ones to really come up
with the the divine right of kings right
you know the the writer like this uh
conquest right um in uh like the dane
law and this sort of [Β __Β ]
yeah i mean um
yeah i i don't know i i never really
thought about um sweden or anything like
that but i'll keep that in mind that's
really interesting
but no but it's a big deal because they
they they uh they create the dialectics
that lead to like um our current uh like
the uh like this is uh this is a do you
ever hear of like michael heisman
mitchell heisman the guy he uh he uh
wrote suicide note
no with himself like
he this guy uh
he lived in cambridge he was like a grad
student
looks really smart guy wrote this like
thousand page uh book about the history
of the world uh and uh then uh killed
himself with like a copy of it uh in
harvard like on the square
i've read most of it but uh he goes
really deep into this but
the dialectics that existed in uh like
the early british isles right you first
have like the anglo-saxons invade like
these gaelic tribes and then you have
the the normans invade and then at that
point like so you have these gaelic
tribes now sort of identifying with the
anglo-saxons and they're like we're like
englishmen now right against like the
the norman yoke and uh this is the sort
of um beginning of uh like that trying
to like get back to the original state
of uh
like uh gaelic uh sort of a tribal uh
nomadic freedom
is uh sort of
baked that
ah that's
yeah i mean um
no yeah urban maoism has told me about
that he told me about the norman the
norman pill
so to speak
man you know more about french stuff
than i do i've realized just by talking
like i just know about the the french
school in the 20th century but that's
really it like france
um i know more french revolutionary
history than i do i'm not that
interested in it i i don't know why it
just doesn't interest me that much
really wow
i i do mainly because of the ideological
background like that's the beginning of
you know
the so-called left and
revolutions so to speak off right
but
just like i don't know there's a sense
i've always had like being an american i
guess i'm like like like old school
american where i'm like what does
[Β __Β ] europe have to do with me like i
don't give a [Β __Β ] about what they're
doing like i don't care uh i like want
like the whole point of america is to
like not give a [Β __Β ] about europe
anymore like we're doing our own thing
in my opinion right like it's so it
annoys it's always been perpetually
annoying to me when people are like take
like europe as like the model of a
sophistication because like i meet all
these europeans and they're just like
they're [Β __Β ] like college kid
americans they have like oh it's like
they're just like oh god it sucks
i want to ask you a question an american
now i um
i had a newfound interest in david lynch
for a few weeks before a week ago when i
realized my psychosis was reaching its
limit
but
um
to me david lynch is like one probably
the most important american artist
that's living right now beside in the
field of uh
film
he is to me quintessentially american
he's a pragmatic uh he represents
american pragmatism like
doesn't have to make sense it just has
to work right
what but what i mean i don't think
that's that true of his process actually
i think um he's actually like i think
that he portrays himself as like you
know working from intuitions and these
sorts of things but uh i don't believe
him for a second um i know i know that
trick and uh he is a very deep uh sim
like symbolist and he plans everything
meticulously in what he's doing
really is if yeah absolutely absolutely
absolutely um his his stuff he's very
much informed by uh some specific like
kind of like new thought like sort of
mystical stuff i mean you know that he's
like really involved in uh
transcendental meditation and stuff like
that but a lot of his uh his work comes
from reading these this sort of
literature of like uh the weird like the
weird like new agey sort of stuff in
america in california especially in uh
it's like the 60s and earlier i mean he
he deals a lot with like secret
societies and stuff like that he's not
like he knows what symbols he's using to
and deploying for like specific reasons
like like the in a twin peaks right it's
not like a coincidence that it's like
red curtains and like a checkerboard
floor like that is a masonic symbolism
you know he's from like a deep dense
like old school like masonic area in
california and [Β __Β ] too if i recall
correctly
i i can see that too um
his stuff scares his his
his twin peaks the return
especially that one um
i has profoundly scared me the most out
of anything i've ever
consumed media wise because its
proximity to dreams has like been a part
of my own
uh struggle with psychosis
in a sense like there's something that i
just feel is true about where it's
coming from that this is all a dream and
you know there's something wrong with
our reality so to speak right and i
remember from firewalk with me when it's
like
when um
philip jeffries you know what i'm
talking about when he walks into the fbi
station and uh cooper's looking on
camera to see him
and he walks past him and then they have
this really weird moment and then all of
a sudden he's gone right
and uh
but him and lynch remember him it's like
i relate to that a lot for some reason
because it's like
it's just this weird sense of deja vu i
don't know
something something can happen
and then not happen at the same time
that makes sense
didn't happen
you know what like things just disappear
like uh to end uh and no one will
believe you if you're like where did
that there was a thing here and now it's
gone
yeah it's uh jack from uh the perfume
nationalist uh always like to compare uh
the american reality to like a soap
opera in that way or like specifically i
think he talks about uh this one season
of uh
maybe dallas or something but it turns
out like the whole season is just a
dream and like everything that happened
in it is like retconned and it just like
disappears uh that type of uh that type
of like television uh pacing like the
narrat like where um the narrative right
the narrative that's being told in this
story has to make these sort of
indescribable uh jumps and leaps through
like a kind of like just
like
you just have to jump with it or not
there's no explanation and it's always
from like economic concerns or from like
concerns that are in these like
boardroom deals and that's the same with
like the story we tell in like the news
cycle where it's like yeah so we that
was a thing and it was real and we're
all talking about it but uh now we're
not because you know it's been ordered
that we don't talk about it but we act
as if we've all decided to not talk
about it anymore but it's been
disappeared on us it was taken away from
us so i i know that you strike me as
more of like very much
uh metaphysically
uh frugal i should say like you don't
like to
be very speculative or like make this
venture into this [Β __Β ] like
supernatural stuff but
in twin peaks uh and from other lynch's
work i can't help but get the feeling if
he really is
knee-deep in occultism and symbolism
right
um
is there a certain point where it's like
do these people really do believe in
some kind of
i don't know if i call it a supernatural
power but just a fundamentally different
view of how time and space work
and are they right it's it's just well i
mean you could if you say they're like
saying they're right uh gets you a lot
in this world there's it's a good
bargain to make uh to to with the devil
right the gods of this world uh you
gotta look for it you'll get riches
you'll get everything you know like so
are they right like because following
following you know their their path it
might bring you riches you know
out of it there's a lot to gain uh
materially but what is lost like
spiritually well i just mean to say like
from a pragmatic perspective like is
what they're doing does it work like are
they actually
experiencing reality something real in a
way that's
different from the rest of us like do
they do they have insight into some
supernatural reality we don't have no
no no no not at all
not couldn't cultivate like not that
it's b it's nothing nothing is like
they're not gaining anything like this
this notion that people get this sort of
a mystical gnostical like revelation of
like an outer realm like on dmt and blah
blah blah or whatever this is all
[Β __Β ] like nothing that they've
gotten or ever gleaned was isn't just
like found in a book somewhere uh
already written down and like already a
cliche uh even so uh yeah i don't think
that they they're tapped into the higher
order of things i think david lynch is a
great artist i think he's a great
formalist i think he's tapped into a lot
of uh that sort of um that underside of
america which is obviously like included
with his uh interest in like secret
societies and things like that that's a
big part of american history um and uh
he he shows off a lot of his knowledge
of this history like in his work um a
lot of people like critics who are less
literate in these things right they just
go like wow look how wacky and random
like these things are but like there's
nothing wacky and random david lynch has
ever done he's like meticulously
purposeful
huh um
that's interesting you know um
i don't know at a certain point where do
you begin to um
kind of like
dip do you depart from any like
scientific realism do you think
modern science has it all
under control so to speak or i think no
i think that we have like part of the
problem like what do you think would be
the most like speculative and daring
view of reality you have
most speculative and daring thing is
always to be a christian
like authentically like to actually
mean it like because you can say these
things like and uh they've sort of
become cliches and people say them
without really knowing what they mean
but um i really like i really do believe
in uh
in uh like i believe and uh it's not
it's not even like an intellectual like
um yeah like axiom or like a
presupposition or something like it's an
undeniable reality that uh
in my life um that i perceive like every
moment so
i can't
it's not
there's no separation to me between like
a like speculative see and uh the
reality like i think that like
authentically if you really engage with
the christian tradition and like the
hermeneutics of um of of like biblical
irony and like dialectics and like these
sorts of things that emerge from reading
the bible like over and over and over
again by so many people over generations
uh applies to like history so many
different levels of things uh just yield
so many insights in a way that like you
could just say uh this could be like the
first baptism you could say right where
you go like wow this method uh this sort
of thing is uh interesting and uh it
could be pragmatic and useful right and
like you can still have a sort of gap
from it but then the event i don't know
for me there was just like a few moments
of like an actual just like
[Β __Β ] perception that there was no gap
that like
you know like the
it's already like it's real like it's
not a preceptor like even like just a
small mere metaphor like a guide or you
know a model or whatever but it's like
identical to reality
so but even beyond for example history
and the understanding of human history
do you think when you say you're a
christian do you also
accept all of the kind of
let's just say
metaphysical
depth of that like for example that
um
there is
this has a consequence not just for our
world of discourse and meaning and
rationality and so on but it refers to
something outside like of inherent to
being itself like there's something
about nature
itself that is
correctly
um
understood by christianity
absolutely yeah yeah no i think that it
like accurately describes the world
interesting
yeah it might be saying my view is
pretty much the same like if science is
in contradiction with this
fundamental wisdom you derive from the
hermeneutic then science this is the not
the energy the enlightened enlightenment
tried to eliminate the category of uh of
revelation that has existed in like all
systems of conceptions of psychology and
like humanity for eternity really like
almost no one to deny the possibility or
the reality of revelation is something
that is very modern and um i almost
would like want to equate it to like the
great apostasy like pr pre-told in like
revelations itself that that this is
sort of like a true
like the rejection
of revelation and a rejection of like
truth in that real sense into um a world
of like satanic like satanic wills and
just energies
um
so
i don't know like uh what about
this christian view of satan do you
think that there's any reality to this
beyond like subjective experience or
whatever do you think there is a real
force of evil
i do think there is like a real evil in
the world and i do think that um it's a
it's manifest it's like it's something
it's a it actually is created by uh like
faith it's created by like what you
could like what like psychic energy like
people talk about like eager goers or
whatever if you read these sort of like
chaos magic type guys that uh nick land
and what not get into um like you know
thought bodies or you know body
uh bodies in the noah sphere or whatever
uh these sort of um transcendental
entities that aren't like visible but um
you can sort of uh feel acting in the
world i think this is true like this is
what like a corporation is too right
where it's like where is coca-cola but
like where it like where is like the
body of coca-cola like you know this
entity that uh that takes up so much
space and has its like tendrils
everywhere um i think this is a way of
seeing the world i think it's uh you
have to see sort of like in four
dimensions i guess to to see like the
tendrils of such things but like you
know i i do see in this way like i can
uh this is sort of um
i think with some people with the term
psycho geography and stuff in uh the 90s
2000s like uh if you have like a
a better knowledge of this sort of like
history and like you know the
development of a place and time your
relation to it like when i when i walk
around
um a city uh i can see things that other
people can't see and uh those things are
there even though they can't see them if
that makes sense
so like the
of like uh of evil in that sense in like
a kind of transcendental sense is real
even if people don't see it
um
interesting um
yeah i mean
so kind of shifting gears a little bit
what what are you so we've been seeing
the rise of this so-called marxism
leninism with woke characteristics
very recently and i think i've actually
converted a lot of people into that
religion myself
a lot of people who were liberals or
calling themselves anarchists have
suddenly become begun to identify as
marxist-leninists just to contrast
themselves to me right
because i brought out this primary
contradiction
um
what
yes great
yeah so what what do you think um
what do you think is the source of this
big [Β __Β ] going on
because i i struggle to understand it i
mean
there there's a lot of
you know i go on twitter and i just see
like a bunch of hate against me a lot
and i just
uh and i i know i see some of the hate
against you but we're talking here like
thousands and thousands of people so i
i'm struggling to understand like um
i don't know i i just feel disappointed
because
i don't know how to
i don't know how to be the thing that
they're making me into that they hate so
much it's like
even i don't even i a person who hates
them don't really think it's that deep
you know what i mean i i i struggle to
really be worthy of the hatred
they're giving me
it's like if anything you should just
take that as like you're actually uh do
doing something meaningful because uh
you know uh that's like there would be
no reaction if there was no uh
if there was in a truth
like basically the internet is kind of a
it's like a machine that's trying to
eliminate truth if you think about this
like all these people are uh they're on
there to enforce their uh group
collective psychosis
that they have developed together um and
uh like they create this sort of a comic
book world that uh that they keep alive
through their collective role playing
and larping right um and if you
go in there
the board over and you tell them that
like what they're they're playing a game
that like isn't real
um then they freak out and they don't
like that and they want you out of the
club because everyone there's larping
and like you're supposed to be in there
larping because that's what you're
supposed to do online so if you stop
larping um they'll people can tell uh
for instance let's look like kyle rayton
house right this happened all of the
like uh the the based in red pill the
like white nationals type guys or
whatever they're like this is our guy
where you know sonoran kyle he's going
in and he's like taking down the lower
races and uh you know he's presaging the
race war or whatever when we uh
resurrect glorious hyperborea and become
more like sweden um
and uh then he goes untucker and he's
like uh yeah i'm not racist uh i support
blm this had nothing to do with race
like i like at the end of the day the
kids shot three [Β __Β ] white anarchists
you know it's kind of funny um
and uh they were all disappointed like
and they're like i prayed for this kid
like he's dead to me now etc why is that
cause he broke
their play thing like they like he
didn't he didn't he stopped larping with
them
yeah i mean um
i don't know i just say [Β __Β ] america
burn it all down like you weren't
larping like you were being realistic
you were being pragmatic you were saying
like you can't actually like how could
you be a socialist without saying you
like love the people like the country
that you're in or whatever you know what
i mean like how how's that even possible
that's a true thing and that's something
that actually makes sense if you're
trying to do something in the world if
you're just trying to larp like you're
ruining everyone's fun so basically you
think all these people are just larping
and then i'm ruining the the game for
them yeah yeah it's just a game it's not
real their life
has like revolutionaries and then they
go and do whatever they normally do
it doesn't mean anything
um
yeah that's it's interesting
i mean um it literally means nothing
this thing that's going on with the
communist party is uh actually taking
off like the
joe sims is flying around the country
meeting with chapters
trying to like give speeches about me
and caleb and
we have them in a panic
they're extremely unlocked
because their handlers are like yeah we
don't do that
yeah i i want to know like how far can i
take this without getting the negative
attention of
their handlers like if they are really
being controlled by the government like
have i done something very dangerous
something i kind of worry about now you
know like
uh but uh
yeah
that's that's what's gonna happen look
at fred hampton what happened to fred
hampton like the what it what happens if
people actually do [Β __Β ]
in this country
this is why christianity man like what
is what does it mean like you think some
of the twitter stuff is artificial i
don't know that's something i was
wondering too like because it only
started happening
after
the party came
with me absolutely there's forums
there's tons of like accounts that exist
to you it's so weird why didn't do that
yeah no i just i know people the reason
i find it weird is like i can understand
if it happened once that i go viral with
thousands of tweets hating on me but i
see multiple tweets about me screen
shots of me like they get like get up to
10 000 likes consistently
after i started to be openly hostile
with the leadership of the cpusa it's a
really weird coincidence you know i have
no idea where that's coming from i
didn't even know that there was that
many
like marxist leninis in the us
you know like
i it's like how many of these people are
there you know
to continue
yeah it's it's not real man these things
are these things are controlled like the
internet the these uh these like little
tribes memetic tribes these things are
designed to be the replacement for what
used to be our insane asylum system i'm
not even kidding like that's what the
point is you got these people you got
mentally ill people you got them locked
down you keep them in these like corrals
you got them like living in this fantasy
world you keep the larp going and uh
then you can move mobilize them to do
various things this is something that
was done and studied cr this is like you
know it's a means of population control
it's rolled out across the entire
country and uh at this point you know i
don't think um the real the thing that i
think uh is happening to america right
now is that the uh the pr the people who
created these programs are like you know
the confluence of all of the different
people trying to create these program
propaganda programs and population
control programs is that they've all
come together and now they can't undo it
and they don't know how to make it stop
anymore so because it's not even being
productive for their own ends so i i do
think there's a lot of like authentic
hostility and hatred to me don't get me
wrong i'm not trying to
sweep that under the rug but
i just wonder like
thousands
of you know what i mean like that
that is that all real is that all like
actual people or is it bots
because i don't know 10 like 10
consistently thousands just like
wow that's you know i think i i know the
government's smart how they do that [Β __Β ]
where it's like something goes viral and
it's a feedback loop and then people
actually do become invested because they
think that there's something here behind
this but in reality it
it's nothing i mean
i i i again i didn't even know that
there was this many marxist leninists in
america i didn't even know that there's
like literally
you know
thousands of these people that are have
their attention on me you know that are
marxist leninist
simple but
there's not
but uh yeah
that's just how it is so so so is this
really like so the so the government has
taken note of me then and that this is
their response pretty much
too much but i feel like the government
has to do a way better job because
although it was really annoying to me
and it was this usa is bad bro the cpu
usa has been very cut out for like how
many [Β __Β ] decades like it's not a
real place it's not a real party it's
another one of these containment chains
like but i i really just want are those
people doing anything
but i wanna see one yeah but i wanna see
um
i wanna see how far i can take it though
you know like i wanna see uh
if like i wanna basically test the
waters i wanna know the exact limits you
know what i mean
um
of like how far this can actually be
taken at what point sh do i have to give
up right
because
the way the way that i think of it is
that before you exhaust the limit you
don't know what the limit is you know
you have to get there first sad
but um
i don't know it
just
i struggle to understand
why they are so popular on twitter but
nowhere else
that makes sense like why is it
i feel like it has to be at least
partially artificial i feel like this is
how i think about it psychologically
when we see why does twitter exist why
does it exist
no idea
yes
you're mike's kind of cutting out
twitter exists i have no idea no idea
the twitter why do any of these
corporations exist like how does
facebook exist like how do any of these
i know i know the background on facebook
but i don't know anything about twitter
the whole point was to format
revolutions in north africa by giving
all these people these phones so that
you could track all of their uh all of
their like social media posting and
things like that and then you could
direct those people with with people on
the ground and out because you have the
whole network topology of it
it's a surveillance
and it's also one for gathering data
that's why twitter is free
because you're giving away
and it's
their people are mapping it and they're
using these maps and when they end up
that's that's the whole point
yeah um
that's
like you
you like they can just that [Β __Β ] host
of antibodies out if uh you know that's
how it works like there's people
monitoring these things
i i feel like sometimes the government
does succeed in psychologically
manipulating me but only temporarily
like only for a day or two and then i
return back
so i kind of feel like i really want to
see like what is the best they have in
terms of their their side weapons
because i'm not really impressed by what
they're doing so far
it's not even that there has to be like
a directed thing it's that uh everyone
is uh deputized to do this if that makes
sense like like replicating the the
system's logic
um
just like on their own it like that like
it it's it's emergent in a way so you
have like you know there's because a lot
of those things are probably like uh
just like people acting uh as enforcers
right like why doesn't
there's there is an element to this
where
you know i understand they heard that a
bunch of individuals former heard and
then they're heard in terms has a
specific impression on individuals but
that's where you can have artificial
manipulation because um
when you if you're let's say you're just
some random guy right you don't really
assume the full force of power of being
a mob
first you see what the herd is saying
like let's say you open up youtube what
would you see you say contra points and
vows and destiny you're like oh those
are the people that
concentrate a bunch of attention on them
that's the other those are like that's
where it's happening i'm just some
random individual right who am i i feel
like it's the same thing like let's say
they just boosted these tweets to like
10 000
artificially
and
then you're just some random dude who
sees the tweet he's like oh it's got 10
000 likes let me give it a like you know
what i mean like that's how these
feedback mechanisms work
yeah no they do that that's why also
like they like um there's not an open
policy on these metrics like that it's
actually very occulted um and more so
over time like for instance like them
getting rid of the the appearance of
like dislikes or whatever because uh
government videos are getting all mass
downvoted and things like that because
that's that's also what happened to the
cpusa's videos their last two videos
were so downvoted to oblivion like and
their comments were just all hostile
and then i went and saw that the
dislikes were removed and i was like wow
this is
convenient
no the thing is is that
like you're representing what our system
is designed to destroy right that's
effectively what you want to do right
because you're saying you're you're
saying right like chinese china chinese
communism like better than here
yeah or like you know it has to be there
needs to be like a revolution
effectively um that you're and
you're not an anti-stalinist leftist
you're not uh you're not totally
reconcilable to the imf in the world
bank blah blah blah blah
you're not going to play ball with like
the normal electoral politics you don't
want to go in with the democrats or
whatever at least these i think that's
probably standing for right i think
that's i think that's probably why they
find me if they are even paying
attention to me the biggest threat
is i am really going all in on third
parties or a third a third party and
specifically i think it's going to be
the people's party right
but that's what i hope
that's what i want
that's the number one thing it doesn't
really matter you can be you can be
hyper anarchist you can be a [Β __Β ] uh
like uh anything a minor minor attracted
person advocate uh a narco transhumanist
who wants to eliminate um 90 percent of
the size besides the the minor thing
that's where i draw the line we don't
want any of those people
that's this is no i'm saying this even
that is totally reconcilable with the
system you know i mean like that person
yeah that person
what i meant was like in the eyes of the
system like all of these things are
perfect like you know that person fits
in actually pretty perfectly well that's
not even like a decision yeah i agree
that's actually the total yeah if you if
you're repeating back like the sort of
thing yeah dude i was i was gonna say i
was gonna be like yo dude
we can't have pedals in the people's
party come on
no no
no of course of course [Β __Β ] yeah i
mean like look we we can have
libertarians we can have right wingers
we can have
we can even have you know liberals we
can have progressives we can have anyone
but that that's where we think the most
important thing no i think the most
important thing is is actually just uh
uh like like for instance virginia right
i'm like obsessed with ethiopia right
now but ethiopian americans totally
swung the election in virginia by not
voting i heard about that they swung it
uh red because of biden's
my whole thing is i think that the
uniting thing should just be like
religion like basically because like
like basically like the problem with the
democrat the democrats are [Β __Β ] the
party of atheism that's what it is it's
the party of of meaninglessness it's of
cafeteria pick whatever you want who
[Β __Β ] cares and ultimately the only
religion it does uphold is satanism it's
constantly defending satanism constantly
defending the church of satan constantly
saying that like any sort of like
occultism is actually really cool and
based etc and like this is hyper
alienating to uh religious people
obviously right like what the [Β __Β ] duh
like why wouldn't it be like like if
you're if you believe in like the
reality of like these sort of nefarious
forces the people who worship them like
i don't know you're not gonna think that
they're like on your side right um
i think that's like why that's like why
i was drawn to the republicans anyway
like way earlier it had much more to do
with me realizing that like uh
that i like uh it was more of like a
spiritual thing like i was like the
democrats are [Β __Β ] like
the republicans are satanic in another
way but like the the average republican
is uh
they're just like uh they they have a
more like evangelical worldview where
they take um something like the
antichrist very seriously for instance
right and that's sort of like been a
rallying thing right it's like people
being like no i won't like i don't like
the i hate the antichrist right like
this meme um that is a that's not a
leftist meme right but it's also not
like a right-wing meme say right like
what is it
well you know
what i've been thinking about is that
america's evangelical or protestant
whatever
culture is
it has a very specific millenarianism
and a apocalypticism where the
apocalypse is always around the corner
but
apocalypse is not paradise apocalypse is
just this complete
arbitrary and almost meaningless just
annihilation
think about our fascination revelation
what what does it actually say in the
book of revelation what is the
apocalypse no idea but
it's it's
foreign said it was the most
revolutionary book in the bible
for americans though it's it's nuclear
armageddon right it's just this
thing that happens and our whole society
collapses and everything's gone
which means nothing none of it was even
meaningful in the first place at least
what it is is the renovation of the
world and fire right so the world like
and you could say this is what blake
carries it what the fire is
these uh like the revolutions that
spread um across the world
that is uh that is the this is the
christian apocalypse like we live in uh
these times like the only reason is on
fire americans put up
with
strip malls and our boring society and
all the dumb [Β __Β ] that we have in this
country mcdonald's whatever we only put
up with it
because we think there's going to be an
apocalypse that's going to
wipe away everything and and set
everything right right but it's not it's
not going to happen now it's going to
happen
later right it's going to happen it's
always something that's going to happen
but this is
what allows us to
pass that's the futurist
so there's different ways of
interpreting um revelation in the bible
right so what you're talking about that
would be the futurist uh interpretation
right where the apocalypse is this thing
but uh it's in the future it's a not
gonna be something i see it's not
something i have to live with or deal
with but it always has this like in the
future it always has this
sense of not immanence with an a but
imminence like it's it's just about to
happen it's just around the corner
and we have this anxiety that it's it's
just going to happen
soon
yeah yeah well that's that's sort of the
thing like if you have a futurist
interpretation of it then you have this
anxiety and you're trying uh this is
like where uh some christian theology
comes up with the conception of like the
restrainer or whatever where it's like
it's like it could
but
more of like the radical reformationist
flavor and i think that the apocalypse
is a good thing and that it's always
happening and uh we're in the middle of
it um and uh that's and we also know
where it ultimately ends
because if we're in the middle of it and
we know what that is then like we know
what the end is too and the end is uh
basically uh the triumph of uh the good
um in eternity right is a like uh the
world's reformed in fire and we have we
bring about
you know the new life
yeah um
i always like to say it's already
happened
we're in a post-apocalyptic society i
don't think so
well i like the idea that it's already
happened it's very hegelian to me you
know like uh that that's a that is that
is uh the interpretation that marx and
angles take too because that's a that's
what's called the preterist
interpretation and uh the preterist
interpretation is that this hat that all
the events in the book of revelation
have already happened and they described
like the reign of nero but that isn't
what
the evangelical or like the uh more
radical like anabaptist
hussites and these types of people
through history interpreted it yeah
because this because that same
interpretation like if you say it
happened in the past then the pope camp
isn't the antichrist ah
interesting
jesuits came up with these two readings
the futurist and the preterist reading
during the reformation as part of the
counter-reformation because they
couldn't actually contest with
protestant interpretation of revelation
uh
if it was a
unfolding event that was happening in
our own times and not something to be
put off into the future or had already
happened but what what what what room is
there then for reconciliation
like if it's always happening all the
time when does it end so to speak
at the end man in the last judgment man
today no one knows the day or the hour
when that is but we do know uh what
happens and uh we can uh see uh it
happening
reality is one continuous apocalypse
then
so that's the whole point
the point is uh is that the reality is
the apocalypse i.e like the unveiling or
the revelation the unveiling of um of
to himself through creation like we are
the uh we are the word of god like this
is the and it's a coherent uh expression
in in uh you know the entirety of time
or what do you think that can be kind of
reconciled with the the preterist view
in a way that for example
reality is one continuous apocalypse but
we can only ever experience it after
uh
after it um
it is after it
after it has disclosed itself in this
way it it it does
this the apocalypse is disclosed anew
it's not only one revelation it's many
revelations
across history
yeah but that's part of revelation in
fact like the thing is you just got to
read the book man like i don't know it's
a book that's unlike
another book
it's a uniquely it's a very singular
type of book
um and uh in its specificity of every
single wine and word choice you know
what i mean like um oh it's hard to have
a conversation about because it's like
actually very dense there's like a lot
of stuff that happens it's like a very
very dense sort of parable
so the um
the viewers of the pope as the
antichrist
um
so
what is your view of
does orthodoxy take it this far or is it
only protestantism where
it says this is sort of what the this is
sort of what the split was over because
the the orthodox they have like
patriarchs and things like this but uh
they do not um they do not like they
like i mean it depends on who you ask
they've been they and it's like the
orthodox church is also kind of uh
liberalized a lot i mean like all
churches have kind of um their their
ostentation to being an unbroken
tradition is kind of farcical they're
always reforming themselves and uh then
the protestants take the blame for being
like the reformers or whatever as if the
orthodox church is the same as it was in
the early days of christ or whatever but
uh they're they're more
ecumenical these days but way back in
the day oh yeah they would they called
the pope the antichrist all the [Β __Β ]
time
wow
um
so i really this is this is an
interesting thing right martin luther
for instance um there was an emissary
from the ethiopian orthodox church who
came to visit luther and uh he should
they shared like you know their things
and um the ethiopian orthodox guy said
that it was a perfectly fine church it
was an accord with orthodoxy so he was
sort of saying like in a way the
protestant reformation was a return to
tradition in the
sort of national orthodox churches
i've heard i've actually heard that
before
um that view i view it yeah yeah um
that's interesting like um
look at it right now like what is the
actual reigning catholic power we have a
catholic president the pope and the
rockefeller foundation are
indistinguishable um like this isn't
christianity like the cat that's not
what christianity is
the roman antichrist like obviously it's
so patently blatantly true
i don't know so unless other people
disagree but he one of the things that i
have to ask is uh
with roman paganism
is that a corruption from some kind of
original
uh monotheism because
christianity is the merger of
semitic religion right with the
indo-european
pantheon through the form of the roman
empire
so
if kind of in some ways yeah yeah it's
more complicated than that man it's
really a lot more complicated than that
as i've been discovering because um
that uh
it's it's not that simple because where
did where what is roman paganism like
what at what time like what does that
mean
yeah i just see it as the
the polytheism of the wrong you know the
roman religion
i i'm not that educated on they have
like they had like different type like
uh
veron was a lot like really
imagine rome just imagine like what is
america's religion that rome's like like
we're very very very similar um like
we're actually i i keep thinking about
how similar our times are to like the
times of christ uh in the sense of uh
you know roman empire was going through
a lot of the same um
turmoils that uh we we are um and uh
like their their religion is like you
know this is like like rome has like
transgender like imperial like you know
conquests and things like this like if
you wanna
we're unmuted
trans ally i respect all trans people
and uh everything about them and their
dreams and their happiness and i wish
nothing but the best for them oh is this
my fire alarm
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damn
what a weird
it's okay
his fire alarm's going off guys so i
just muted it
his wife was cooking
all right
okay are we back yeah we're back we're
back all right cool yeah my bad dude i
don't mean to get you in trouble for no
no
yeah whatever i don't i don't even care
like i'm like i'm like
beyonce yeah let's let's let's let's
just like uh get back to what we're
saying
yeah i was just saying like um where
what uh rome's like a really uh
what i was getting really interested in
recently was um like the like roman um
uh like tribune of the plebes and things
like this i think we need a tribune of
the plebes um that would be great that's
like what that's effectively what people
were trying to do with occupy was
effectively a tribune of the plebes
which was like creating a senate to like
elect like the people's representatives
to uh like kind of circumvent congress
this is a um this is a really uh
this is a very like uh how should i put
it
non-christian thing to say but i have to
play the satanic devil's advocate so i i
saw this theory once
that
the story of christianity was a a kind
of um
yeah this is a caesar's crime yeah
there's some parts of that there's some
parts of that which are like kind of
true in some parts that are not it's
actually um i've been really invested
spent years looking at uh the create the
uh the early early christian apocrypha
and the changes to
specific passages and gospels and like
letters epistles and like which things
are left out etc because there is this
like early um
civil war in the church over uh
where like it was going to go
you know and a big part of that was um
what's their family
it's a whole fam you've you've read the
book right so it's what is it it's not
diocletian is it [Β __Β ] what's the name
there's like a family that one of the
roman patriarchal families that were
like early christians and um
yeah and like you know there's like
people who think that they're connected
to paul and things like that i've gone
down like all the rabbit holes it's kind
of hard to tell um new testament uh
scholarship and this sort of stuff is
constantly in a flux because um we keep
finding more stuff and then it's like
people and it's like super political
right to like do um a sort of
reinterpretation with in light of like
new evidence or to try to pause
sort of a continuity of um
like who what parties were involved here
and writing which parts because like the
documentary record is fragmented and we
don't even have access to all of it
because there's so much [Β __Β ] the vatican
has
yeah i mean um i just find it very
strange how the martyrdom of caesar has
been so like under emphasized like that
was crazy how he was
he was he he was martyred
uh for being a champion of the people
and then
there was an entire
cult of caesar that was created after
uh the t his last name became the title
of the emperors of rome afterwards and
it's like i feel like the the mythology
of that
look what happened to that you know
that's like a really big story right i
know that there was shakespeare's julius
caesar and that's what
most people know
the story for but
it's so weird how that mythology has
just never
well it's because of caesarism came on
to like take this sort of uh sense of
like the way that uh the enlightenment
would read caesar is as a uh and
a uh as a despot who's appealing to um
like basically like the lumpens
uh to you know seize like arbitrary
power and uh like take people's
properties and things like this yeah
that's how they would have interpreted
it i was really
i was so sad when i saw
when i when i found out that um
rosa luxembourg used to operate under
the pen name junius
after brutus
right and i was like no yeah well
there's also a kind of civic mythology
in a way uh connecting um and kind of
conflating together in a way uh brutus
of troy with brutus um
helps kill caesar in uh the founding of
uh britain like as in like putin like
britain uh like brutus is uh one of the
ancestral like mythological uh figures
of uh the british and uh like there's a
lot of uh people who took like uh like
uh the roman republic that's the model
to go by and um yeah that was the
foundation that was the the neoclassical
myth was the return to wrong because
it's also like the huge influence of
like cicero on medieval uh pedagogy like
cicero has taken like it's kind of funny
uh compared to like what cicero is
actually like but
like
yeah he was a i i said he's like a hedge
fund guy because he really was he was
invested in all these like early uh like
trade corporations
um yeah cicero was kind of funny a
shitload you know well this is what's
funny is that it's because um you could
say that uh we can see this more now
when we read it where it's like well
obviously we like julius caesar but it's
because we're actually closer to like
rome than the than they were right yeah
so like they were reading these things
and they were like not like they didn't
even this is at the time where uh they
still didn't really under they didn't
really understand what a mass sport
spectacle would look like like what the
purpose of the coliseums was there's a
whole kind of mythology they had where
they interpreted like that they were
just like you know people like uh being
killed like on stage and things like
this and that's like all that they did
at the costumes there's like these
theaters of cruelty but like it's
probably much more like that they were
like carnivals which is what they're
called and that they had uh it wasn't
necessarily that the gladiators were
even uh killing each other maybe they
were like more like wwf guys you know
they're like professional fighters and
uh things like this and uh that like
this sort of mass sporting uh fandom
didn't exist in the times when uh people
were romanticizing the roman republic so
they couldn't even understand like what
the roman empire was like because we we
were we're actually closer to the empire
and the levels of like uh civic
infrastructure and like the size of the
empire and like the way uh the
administration and things work than uh
than uh you know these british people
were
yeah i mean um it's so weird how michael
parenti was the first to make the
connection between
caesar and
uh
you know like
i guess left-wing populism whatever and
i think the context was hugo chavez
right chavez was the caesar of our of
our time you know
he was the ultimate example of that like
you want to know who was julius caesar
just look at hugo chavez both were
latin speaking
so that's a good addition
um
but
yeah this whole thing is really uh
what's caesar's caesar's about the
forgiveness of deaths that's how he
gained his uh his meat like that's what
it was all about you know he uh he uh
ran on forgive forgiveness of debts
basically in pretty much all ways like
even when like you know he beat someone
he would uh forgive them and you know
he'd show uh and they would join him
showed uh benevolence this is uh
it to go you know there's no like the
sort of um the problem with like
internet politics so the way people do
this is uh they think that they need to
find a particular position uh kind of
abstractly and they'll hold that
position and they'll pull everyone to
that position somehow
but that's not really how it should work
like in a more like pragmatic sense you
go out and just start uh
you replace the existing order by
creating one that's better within the
one that exists so i think that's like
the real project like a third party
right if you want to do like a caesarism
you're not gonna do this
uh
in the in the structures that are laid
out for you you actually have to make i
i don't know if we can have a caesarism
in the u.s i think trump was probably
maybe in 2016 at least he was very close
to this
i guess you could i have like i mean i'm
just speculating here like coming up
with things but i thought of like uh the
notion of like um
uh elections ostensibly but they don't
do very good so what if we ran our own
election to elect a candidate but what
it was was this sort of uh like
tournament structure of people um
actually like debating like debating on
issues or whatever and we kind of like
outsource this to the people themselves
like create a more democratic electoral
system that actually reflects instead of
people um you know picking i mean you
need to decide the leader of the
people's party
tribune of the plebes
oh interesting
that's actually really yeah a tribunal
because then you're actually you're
actually building the authority of the
party and you're because of people are
participating in this like right and uh
this and like it's building the
intelligence of it too because you're
seeing like what is like the most uh
soluble platform that could like attract
come to think of it i don't know why
people didn't make the connection to
caesarism more in the beginning because
if you think about it
the whole concept of the proletariat was
this kind of like
uh it was a kind of teasing
there's a kind of like
challenge to
the neoclassical roman citizen as like
this model of republican virtue who are
saying oh you're talking about the
citizen the french citizen of the
universal republic whatever
well just like in ancient rome the
citizen too becomes divided and that's
that's the primary contradiction we have
the universal citizen sure classes are
eliminated formally but now we have the
proletarians and and so on and so on
but
it's all about the land
of the roman proletariat precipitates
the end of the republic and i i think
you can reread that and say
the existence of the proletariat
precipitates the end of the bourgeois
uh formal state and its ablation
into some kind of empire right
but
not empire in this in the bad sense but
just in the sense of like
uh a return to like a rule that is
legitimated by
something more than just the form of the
state itself
yeah i mean like that i just
i don't think uh the way people are
playing the politics game or at least
the millennials i feel like as a
generation millennials have like almost
learned nothing about how to play the
politics game and um
i like
really it's like it's almost like i
can't even make the first step because i
don't even know what planet i'm on most
of the time i just like people are
tweeting at me oh you're a choppiness
it's like wait are we still doing this
like
i i left you guys in like 2015
and i went my own way and i came back
and they haven't changed it's like
really that's
we're still doing this
we still are um people are going to keep
doing it unless we're still doing
something better this like weird thing
where people are just like
oh you're a racist and you're it's like
dude
have you not matured this whole time
nothing happened nothing changed
i thought i thought we would we would
have gotten to a point by now where it's
like okay can we actually talk about
real the real world
we're still talking about
our little bubble and how pure you are
within the bubble and whatever like i
don't know it's
i just think no one grew up
since i left them you know
i i can't hear
you i don't know what's going on
nope uh sorry i can't hear you
can't hear anything
yes it's the input
the problem with the input settings
my electronics get [Β __Β ] all the time i
don't know what's going on but uh that's
why i am i'm scared to move beyond the
yeti mic the usb mic because it's like
yeah it just seems very complicated
but yeah i think my cat unplugged a
thing but whatever
anyway i i what i was saying is uh i
think uh if i recall correctly um is a
like i don't feel like millennials like
have learned the politics game this
isn't really that like real to them
um i feel like the like everyone and
it's like part of like the reason why it
can keep going is because people are
like basically addicted to pornography
in like mental pornography or like you
know video game um like feedback reward
systems like loot crate [Β __Β ] nfts uh
cryptocurrency like the notion that like
you know you're gonna speculate and like
uh make the you're gonna be the big
influencer and get famous and like then
you won't have to worry about any of
these things anymore
that all of that
is the problem it's like like it's a
we're like a smut adult civilization
like uh it's really like the opium
epidemic it's not even just opium it's
like just like a complete uh
uh
try to escape from uh
uh acknowledging the reality of the
world i always i'm a very i don't know
like say i'm an empathetic person but i
do always put myself in the head of my
enemies and just be like how could you
live like this i want to see how they
live with
how do they get by with this way of
thinking
and i always struggle to be like how
how could i imagine myself being one of
them like somebody who's
always you know virtue signaling and
talking about like
here is the bullet points of why ha ha
is a
misogynist racist uh
i don't know
reactionary firstly he is completely
against the movement it's like these i
feel like they get this pleasure from
using these words like they're like
participating in some kind of like
social
reality and they're addressing this
they're moving up they're moving up in
the sort of like occulted hierarchy of
like this like this little lodge um by
like repeating the dogmas or whatever
it's not a it's not real communication
it's not communicating um what you think
it's communicating if that makes sense
like it's a the content
is uh
entirely meaningless like the charges
but it's like it's like it it just every
time i try to put myself in their head i
just get this sick feeling in my stomach
how the [Β __Β ] could you live like this
you know what i mean they're miserable
they're all miserable they all hate
themselves they have to be really
miserable oh my god oh so goddammit
damn
this fire alarm because uh it's just
this weird apartment
god anytime you cook anything it goes
off
yeah i mean um
yeah i don't know it's
uh
i i i have empathy for them but uh they
uh they embrace their own misery like
they create their uh like this is why
like uh i think christian uh ethics and
uh hermeneutics are interesting because
um it's like uh swedenburg would say
this too
people choose to go to hell and some
people enjoy uh being in hell there's
some people who enjoy like inflicting
pain on themselves well here's the thing
i would understand if there's stakes
like let's say there's a real movement
and struggle that's made real
achievements
then i would get it because you're it's
a mat it's there's actually something at
stake like you you're they're being this
dogmatic
and disemotional because like they're
they don't want to lose
you know their position and they don't
want to lose
their their part it's there's some real
world reality to it where it's like yeah
we can't risk it but what i'm trying to
think is like
why are people so close-minded and
dogmatic about everything
they're trained to be that way but but
what is it for because it's not like
they're
part of some political movement that's
gotten anywhere in the real world so
it's like what do you really have to
lose by just being a little bit more
open-minded i don't know
um
what do they have to lose uh like
basically if you embed yourself in one
of these like societies of like mutual
scapegoating and whatnot what you have
to lose is uh now you're getting all
everything that you've doled out
all the time you've been in there it's
gonna come down to you
bro every time you went out and you like
canceled and you like rode up and you
went you were surveilling people and
like you know writing up all their lists
of sins before of bad sentiments and bad
ideology and you wrote them up and you
tried to get them crucified in the
public stage that'll happen to you as
soon as you realize what you've done and
you've tried to like change it'll all
come back to you and that's and they
know that they're all afraid of doing it
i've seen it like it's the same on the
right too ironically like all of these
people aren't actually as racist as they
pretend to be and all these other things
and uh
if you meet any of them in real life
they're they're uh not like that at all
it's uh they they're playing this game
and their status in this game is
determined by um
like finding like that right pose to fit
right so that like it like the based
pose or like in the left version would
be the uh the most ethically good one in
the right one it's almost the most uh
ethically uh
nihilistic in a way yeah like the
morning
and i've said this before the reason is
because the right
is is trying to define itself in america
as a form of total resistance against uh
the discursive tyranny of the left so
they'll do anything they can to prove
how much
they don't care a virtue signal to
anyone whatever but the issue that i
find with that is that there's a lot of
people
who just so happen to
at the same time be completely socially
ostracized and canceled they're also
scumbags like pedals think about pedals
right like at what point at what point
does being a pedal become based just
because you're
defying the discourse so you have to be
very careful right it's not everything
that the discourse
uh is against
is good it's just that
you can have other reasons for not
liking things you know what i mean like
you can still be against pedos without
being a virtue signal or for the
discourse that makes sense you know yeah
yeah yeah well it's also like the irony
there is like okay cool let's shut down
4chan and it's like yeah
okay start there like like just turn it
off make it go away
um yeah yeah we're going to do that
you're quiet it's just because you know
this is a thing is that the pedal [Β __Β ]
is becoming normalized on the left it's
becoming it was already
this is a part of like the last thing on
the 60s
yeah yeah that's true but for a long
time
uh
you know they the left pretended to be
against it or whatever but now they're
starting to be like oh let's have
empathy
and the first
so i don't know if they're they're
actually gonna start saying children are
awful are
are not protected anymore but they're
going to start by saying oh let's
let's treat them the
this genuine sexual orientation with
uh with like artificial pornography and
robots like vaush said or whatever and
that's completely fine because no
children are involved but you know
that's
you know what it all all it is all
they're saying like what vosh is saying
there is that uh in japan right now
basically they already have their
paradise for what they're looking for
right like you can get all that
pornography and um uh in a video game
form or you know peripheral like sex
toys or whatever the [Β __Β ]
they just don't give a [Β __Β ] there their
real problem is that there's just still
like the last residual remnants of like
a christian like blue law regarding like
this type of thing in the marketplace
not being allowed to be sold like all
they all they really care about is like
just maximal um
consumption of uh like you know like
that sort of [Β __Β ] that's it like that's
all it means
yeah that's
that's that's what i mean when it's like
when someone like vaush is saying that
like he is defending like hentai i think
that's going to be the source of the
conservative revolution on the left and
i think i might benefit from it a lot
which is that
as soon as so look right now the left
has this idea
in america which is like anything that
is part of the discourse and looks like
it's part of the progress of society is
good and then if you're opposed to that
you're a reactionary well
as soon as people start bringing up the
nuance of you know pedos and how that
that's just a sexual orientation it's
not their fault this is going to
increasingly become discursively
relevant and people are going to be
forced to draw red lines and drawing a
red line is the first step to being able
to confront the modern progress in
general
and i i just wonder how are you gonna
how are these
lefties opposed to me calling me a
reaction how are they gonna draw a red
line like what's what's the basis of
your red line because you know
how are you gonna maintain this idea
that you're a part of some kind of like
real
progress of going forward in history
and at the same time just be like you
know what this is my red line i don't
care how irrational i seem
uh [Β __Β ] that [Β __Β ] it's not happening
right that's gonna be their gateway drug
to like uh
taking my pill i i hope
you know yeah you would hope but maybe
uh
i don't know man i don't really know uh
that's a that's placing bets on uh
on a human nature that i might not
necessarily on uh or at least uh
one uh that is uh defined in opposition
to uh revelation you could say uh would
uh go towards because the norm in human
history is closer to like what they're
trying to create and the as uh like
camille do you see those uh things i
retweeted from uh about camille paglia
like all her uh defenses of nambala and
things like that over the years yeah i i
i know about that that's why i hate i
hate camila
whatever i the thing is is like she's
she's okay like when she's writing about
some some things like i've read a lot of
her stuff um but you know she was like
an acolyte of bloom who was like an
acolyte of fry and like fries really
much better than all of them so you know
that's how i see it but she was saying
you know in there right like you know
it's really just these abrahamic faiths
that have this quirk or whatever yeah
she's against uh man boy love
she's a big like uh nietzschean she
loves the nietzsche and dionysian
paganism they've already accepted it
though what what like was that movie
they had a whole movie uh what is it i
haven't seen it um but it's uh call me
by call me by your name i think that's
what it's called right isn't it about
like a man uh
with like an underage boy that's like a
relationship huh no i've never heard of
that
it's it was a it was a very popular
movie um this this was like before the
cuties debacle even and it's kind of
ironic because it didn't get as much as
the outro even though it's like kind of
more blatantly uh
uh pro uh pedophilic or pro uh
petterastic in this sense and the cuties
movie which was actually kind of trying
to be critical
jesus
what the hell
that's not that's not that that's not
new though this is aristocratic morality
this is british this is almost like the
height of britishness is uh like this
oscar wilde type stuff um this is a it's
kind of a part of the progressive
tradition in that sense because they
were going against like these
anti-sodomy laws or whatever in britain
and um
this was like kind of uh conflated in
there and in fact if you go all the way
back you can read bentham uh talking
about uh the uh legalization of
patarasti in um one of his uh one of his
rights here's the thing is that without
venturing too much in this territory
don't you think that the lefties are
gonna be forced with a lot of arguments
where it's like by trying to draw a red
line when it comes to that they're gonna
be like oh you're you seemed like just
like the reactionaries in the 80s and
90s when it came to other minorities
and whatever like you're you're just
right you sound just like a reactionary
with regards like how are they gonna
like deal with that you know like how
are they gonna
be like no this one's different
like what is their justification going
to be
well i don't that's what i think is that
my hypothesis is that they're going to
have a complete existential crisis
because
they don't have any red lines right now
but they're going to need to discover
one unless they're
unless the left wants to eventually
accept
like pedal [Β __Β ] and bestiality they're
gonna have to discover something i think
they do
i think that's what most leftists are
like though like quote unquote leftists
on the internet like the radical
leftists like the ultra leftists or
whatever they're like furries they're
like people who live on it
they're like deviant art people they're
like uh they're uh
a deep dark dank part of internet
pornography you know that is uh that's
where it all comes from like it's
concentric with those places yeah you
would not have and we don't want to be
discriminatory against anyone remember
twitch but
you would not believe how much uh i
don't know much about the furry movement
so you know whatever but
you would not know how much furries have
been on my back on twitter like i get
attacked by them like almost every day
they're the vanguard they're the
vanguard party man they're the vanguard
party because they're the ones who want
to upload themselves into and like have
an avid a digital avatar in the
metaverse actually this is like
something uh one of the guys um who's
like working on metaverse stuff or
whatever had to write like a post being
like uh like addressing like how many
furries were emailing him like excitedly
about uh some one of these like
neurolink technology sort of things
these are the people they they want to
live in uh in the internet
yeah where they can be anything and they
can have sex with anything or whatever
oh
man i
you know
i can't imagine people who have to just
spend are you a person who gets to spend
a lot of time alone or just maybe just
with your wife like not with crowds
pretty much like all the time that yeah
that's what i'm trying to say is like
i can't imagine what it'd be like to be
a person who never i feel like privacy
is our only salvation in this in this
age like our ability to just be alone
is the biggest grace and blessing we can
have because being forced to be
socialized with all these people or
whatever it's like i could not do it i i
don't have the i think i think uh
socializing that way is kind of
anti-social in uh this day and age if
that makes sense oh it is but like when
you're trapped in being forced to be
around these people uh these lefties or
whatever have fun man i have so much fun
when it happens to me i don't know but
imagine i don't i feel like you take
your privacy for granted because imagine
if that's your whole life you're just
always around them
always
that's what it was like when i went to
college i guess uh so i kind of i kind
of remember and what i did was i just
spent a lot of time on my own you know
reading but in some ways uh this is why
i've like been really interested in uh
uh
thomas the great saying uh no saint
anthony the great what am i saying uh
saint anthony the great the hermit the
great uh desert father um because i feel
like that's sort of um what uh it's like
that that's the salvation you find um
you know this day and age like he's the
one who's like constantly harangued by
demons if you look up like paintings of
him like they're like
and i always look like that's me on
twitter like that's what i feel like
there's all these things like attacking
me and like holding on to me and i just
have to uh
it's weird uh because it's it's kind of
seems like it'd be anti-social to like
embrace solitude in a way but i think
that it's um
paradoxically extremely pro-social in
the sense
positively well i can i can talk to
people as human beings very easily but
i always tell this to my chat is that i
cannot talk to cctv cameras
people who just never know how to turn
off their their discourse their stream
of discourse
and you just give them riddles man it's
fun
yeah i don't know it's it's just tough
for me to like yeah you uh i feel like
uh
yeah you have a you're more uh
investment in your uh
public image i feel
than um
and i have
yeah i kind of enjoy i don't really care
like i kind of enjoy when a bunch of
people are upset at me like i think it's
funny so like i don't like
so
so like in the same situations though
like if i'm surrounded by those sorts of
people i just have fun i have so much
fun asking them questions and like you
know just like like getting like just
like moving them around just it's fun
yeah i don't know it's like um
i i felt physically sick for like three
days after being on twitter i took a
break from twitter and then
i felt so much better just taking a
break and i was like what the hell was i
doing i felt like i blacked out
and it was just
i i got trapped on twitter
just cause i've done that like i i uh
because i feel like i got gaslighted i
gaslighted myself like what the [Β __Β ]
like
this has nothing to do with
where my train of thought was like a
week ago what the [Β __Β ] happened
yeah i mean uh
it happens man um i've i've had a i feel
like uh
sometimes it's like uh when that sort of
thing happens it's like uh you have to
it's like you it you kind of it's not
like you're asking for it or you deserve
it but uh there is something like um
that you have to learn from it because
uh nothing like that garner the only
thing that just still kind of has me a
little shook is like thousands where did
the thousands come from i get it if
there's like hundreds but like
10 000 people uh
on my back really important it because
no one had articulated to any sort of
audience at all um a position that
socialists should be patriotic
i.e
and uh not um kind of like
anti-patriotic or seeking to kind of um
uh erase the uh history of america as
like a kind of blight upon what would i
find hilarious is that the way they cope
when you respond they're like well the
only reason other countries are
marx atlantis countries are patriotic is
because
that's only in so far as they're victims
of imperialism but otherwise they
wouldn't be patriotic
and what i have to tell those people is
that
um
that's such a condescending like
stupid view because you realize these
people these people aren't part of your
university i know in your university
people leverage their identities to get
ahead for their careers and they're
making it seem like entire states are
leveraging
their poc identity to get ahead right or
to virtu that's not how it works when
they say that they're patriots
it's not because they're oppressed
they're genuinely people who love their
country and love
you know their history and their people
and like it's not just it's not as it's
not a way of saying oh i'm a i'm
oppressed and i want you know
i want you to it's it comes from like an
alienation with their own history though
too because like a lot of the times like
the people who are most vocally like
anti um or like like they're a kind of
lack of interest in the history of
america because it's more complicated
that's one of the things that bothers me
right where it's like do i get to be
offended when people make like uh you
know these like wide generalizations and
stereotypes of like
uh the type like what uh the early
american people were like and like what
they believed and you know like what
their goals were and like what they were
trying to do and like how they viewed
the world because people have a totally
skewed conception of like all of this
and it's like you don't have like a kind
of uh not a relativistic one but a kind
of a sense of the proportion of things
in history so it's like okay you're
saying america is like reactionary or
like bourgeois revolution blah blah blah
but it's like what was better at the
time like at the exact same time like
what society you're going to point to
like that's like the context required to
like appreciate any of these it's the
british empire
yeah
do you know you do you think you also
agree that they're probably going to
prepare meghan markle
oh dude i've been saying that for just
as long as you have man really no longer
oh yeah wow
yeah i feel like it's so obvious
but here's the thing is like how will we
claim credit when it happens like is
there a place i go to to be like yeah
pay up like how am i supposed to
claim the credit for that because i
really do
i have gotten to a point where i want to
start claiming credit for being right
about [Β __Β ] you know
well if you really want to do that and
you want to profit off of it monetarily
then you can just go to a betting market
and you can put on a thing like a date
with the time you can go down to vegas
and uh you can make tons of bets on
stupid [Β __Β ] like this anywhere man so if
you really want to put your money down
and like i don't want a monetary benefit
but like
i want all of these lefties who say like
all hazes whatever like i want them to
just be like yes hazel's right and then
i want i want i want the the good
my ego wants
to be socially
what happens is uh this is what i would
say is like this or at least this is why
i believe or what i've experienced is um
a lot of times these people were like
really like you know outrageously uh
like you know responding in this way or
whatever
um it's because this thing is going to
like nest in their mind um like it's
like like if it's uh like because they
have like a knee-jerk like pavlovian
reaction to like an overreact to it it's
because this thing is going to like
haunt their minds and in some cases it's
sort of like this like pain which is
sort of like you know sticking your uh
tongue and where your tooth just fell
out and you're like poking the nerve and
you can't stop yourself from doing it
for some reason um and uh they'll just
keep doing that and they'll keep they'll
come back they come back to to get full
correction
and um then eventually they'll uh get it
it's happened to me before there's
people who have like you know hated me
and there's like constantly trying to
tell me i'm wrong or whatever and then
they'll come back and they'd be like
okay you're like right about this one
thing but i think you're still wrong
about x y or z and then it's just like
over and over and over again and you
know sometimes they're incapable of
making the
you know the the recognition at the end
and uh sometimes they're just like uh
thanks
that's nice you get that when someone
says thanks
yeah but he with me is that i don't feel
like i'm going to forgive these people
when they say infrared rising thank you
i feel like i'm still a little bitter
and i'm going to be like you know what
[Β __Β ] you you should have said thanks you
have to yeah you have to
it's hard for me to forgive honestly
it's so hard i know dude it's like i'm
for real though this is like the message
of christ so you know
i'm like i'm very serious about this
though man like you know like
i see so many people like affect it and
like i hate how it's used as like a
political prop but i mean like
it's
it's uh
it's like the most important book ever
written and it's uh like very uh [Β __Β ]
i don't know it's life-changing to read
and uh reread and uh that's what people
have been saying for forever and it's
like unique in that way unlike uh other
things
you know my relation to religion a lot
of the time and this is a self-criticism
i'm gonna do is that i'm a hypocrite so
what i do is i say
there's a lot of salvation here and
wisdom or whatever but i'm gonna ignore
it intentionally so i can sin a lot
and then yes when i'm done sinning i'll
come back to it and learn my lesson but
first i wanna
that's how i know you're an american
actually in your heart because that's
that's the american relation that's the
pragmatic relation really yeah precisely
you go you get drunk on saturday night
and then you go over pen sunday morning
the irish way too you know that's my
whole that's my life
uh in some ways but um that's not really
what it's about like uh that's uh that's
the uh outward ceremony of it all
yeah no when you say that it's a hundred
percent true like uh despite my ethnic
whatever background i'm 100 american and
that's in my soul that something deep in
my soul is very american
and i just can't control that you know
it's whether i like america or not i
have the curse
of america inside of me
in some ways it's not well like that's
why it's like because everything comes
mixed and uh you know like because there
there's some aspects of like what what
was being like kind of covered up like
all of these things being like put into
one camp as like sinful things or like
things that uh you know um you know are
bad and like banned and uh that wasn't
good that wasn't a good relation because
there were good things in there too and
you don't want to ban good things so
then you have like every so like we've
kind of been more in this like sort of
like libertarian age where it's kind of
like everything out like you know
everything everything everything we're
going to try everything all like you
know this repression of the freudian
repression or whatever we're going to go
everything out in the open and i feel
like we've already like done that that's
what the internet is everything out in
the open we can like really confront
we can look at it and be like okay so
this is like what the psyche of of our
people is like like you know [Β __Β ] out
there so like let's decide if this is
like what what do we do about this
you know in in a way my streams most of
the time is a form of sin to me
the way i act on stream and the type of
[Β __Β ] i say on stream like 99 of the time
um i'm usually like this is not
something i would say to logo
this is not something i would say to
caleb this is
it it's well the thing is is like the
medium compels it right like because
that's uh that's content that's like and
it's kind of funny people say that all
the time on twitch and they're like yeah
it's like this content but like it
drives like i remember watching the the
saga of like ice beside it ice poseidon
i feel like oh no we we can't he's he's
been so oh i can't talk about him no no
yeah it's oh my god dude we live in we
live in the [Β __Β ] dumbest times holy
[Β __Β ] like it's so dumb
yeah
like i said it's like i'm
i want 1776 to commence again man like
this is what i believe in this is too
much for me look i'm i'm i'm i'm a
humble peasant who lives in fear of the
khan you know the khan's wrath
i have to cower in fear
but that's it's you're failing the
dialectical challenge then there man you
gotta fight to the death no against that
absolutely gonna fight to the death
against the bad policy against the the
master slave dialectic absolutely not
i i humbly evolve myself a slave i read
consciousness of twitch
yeah yeah
i guess you do have to have more of a
stoical self-conception to be a good
streamer because the whole goal is to be
like destiny right and it's like nothing
could faze destiny because he has no
shame
no my goal is uh
my goal is to use this as a launching
pad to start a media company
yeah
i i don't know you guys
your documentaries and things are
probably the highest quality stuff
there's something
that's that's what it's about that's
right honestly the debates are like
mostly a waste of time um i tried out
like the tried it out but it's really a
waste of time
my goal is so the the strategy is
accumulate concentrate and retain as
much attention as possible for as long
as possible up the ante and keep upping
the ante on the documentaries and create
a feedback cycle where
i constantly do stupid and ugly things
in order to produce
smart and beautiful things
better than before you know
yeah that's kind of that's it's a good
it's a good move it's like it's like
it's gonna be really hard for you it's
like what tamerlan did tamerlane
he went and he he did this horrible
barbaric [Β __Β ] and then he collected all
of the um
the artists and the artisans and the
painters and poets
philosophers and he
he brought them to summer con right and
um
the more ugly [Β __Β ] he did and the more
infamous he was the
more beautiful the
products of the renaissance could be
i mean that's like the uh that's the
sort of um
that's the sort of uh tragic mantle of
the uh comi the uh actual like communist
revolutionaries right is uh
like mao and uh
stalin is uh like we live in a time
where uh
i don't know i don't really know it's
like you have to you have to uh
like be you have to like
being
inducted into like the [Β __Β ] occult in
this country
like i feel like i'm like in a lot of
ways i feel like i'm like like the the
ex mason or something like the x 33rd
degree ascended same same i feel like
i'm an x
i don't know if i i ever got to that
position but i always see myself as an
ex
i see myself as mike from twin peaks i
used to be you know mike like the bob's
friend who repented or whatever i was
like that i was in some strange
dark
mystical whatever place where
i was tempted i didn't ever went there
but
i was being tempted by some dark
presence of some kind
and
i just climbed my way out i guess
yeah it's like you kind of like uh
theater don't but uh there there's like
key decision moments like i can remember
times like i know what you know
like like the devil whispering in your
ear and it's like when you make that
decision it's like you really are
choosing like a fork in the road i read
a beautiful blog once and it's from a
long time ago where it's like this you
know
old shitty blog simple blog
and it was just this guy describing how
why he left freemasonry he was saying he
got really high in the degrees of
freemasonry
and then
he he came to some kind of masonic
um ceremony was just him and another guy
where they were meeting with
the leader of the freemason whatever he
was getting anointed with the degree or
whatever and then he said randomly just
spontaneously
he looked around the masonic temple and
he was just overcome with this dark
feeling and he said i felt like i was in
a coffin
like i looked around and and i know the
masons talk about a god and a grand
architect but he said i just had this
very
huge feeling of death and just i was in
a coffin like the masonic building was
just this coffin right and then he said
yeah
and then he said uh so i turned around
spontaneously and i left
and ever since then i never looked back
and now i walk in the step of christ or
whatever so you know in the light of
christ so to me and you know what's so
profound what he said uh the coffin
thing because that is what masonry is
it's a way part of the uh that's
actually part of the skull and bone
ceremony yeah you lay in the coffin but
the the masons
try to reify the living essence of god
and it is in a sense like
a dead thing that they worship
worship uh disembodied reason yeah
precisely and what it is is what it is
is christianity without the revelation
because that no christ christ as a
historical figure as a person as a real
person in the world
um he's just he was just another
messenger for this
disembodied rationality precisely
precisely yes and
the revelation is another word for like
the living the source of the living
essence right that's something that's
just
it's be it's can't be domesticated it
can't be formally
uh
it can't be replicated with formal
precision it can't be artificially
created it's
not premised
it's holistic it's a monad
i'm getting into live nets but uh
yeah it's uh that's like where the whole
masonic cosmos comes from is it well
it's it's a little bit more complicated
but the one that we know like
enlightenment era masonry on through
like theosophy to now
is uh it's so influential that it's
literally everywhere
that makes sense like it's bled into
people are unconsciously this i've had
psychotic breaks where i was like what
the [Β __Β ] it is everywhere like holy [Β __Β ]
this is not a joke this is this is real
life this is not a gay like i went to
the masonic temple once for a party
an event
and i just had like a near psychotic
break
um i would say yeah thankfully but
because i was like what the [Β __Β ] this is
actually real life this isn't like
something i read on the computer like
this is actually real life like
they made a whole building dedicated to
this
you know what i mean you should see san
francisco it's literally like the
masonic design city i walk around and
i'm just like in a perpetual it's like
it's like one of the weirdest places in
the country but uh like the masons built
this place it's so paranoid because when
you live in this world you want to feel
like there's an element of spontaneity
and
authenticity oh that's the beauty of
hegel though right is that literally
everything you see
everything
literally everything to the smallest
tiny little thing is perfectly rational
you can and it has a perfectly
reasonable like history that would
unfold so much about the world like if
you were to trace it like because it
contains every piece of the world
contains the history of the whole entire
world
yeah
so
so is that both you and contract or you
independent because i know both
also we kind of we've been uh i mean man
we've been friends and talking about the
same stuff for so long i know you guys
are both really into the
liveness now
mode analogy
yeah monads
yeah
um it makes sense though this is like uh
uh dude it connects to like john d dude
it's i don't know what other people are
doing with their livestocks but like i
have such a great time just uncovering
all of this crazy [Β __Β ] about the world
and uh people get mad at me for like
just talking what is the connection to
john d
from well he wrote the monast
hieroglyphica right which is the
hieroglyphic monad and uh what it was is
um they used this sort of like mana it
was like called like um hieroglyphic
hermeneutics and it's this idea of
creating these like nested
layers of um of meaning that are meant
to mean different things to different
audiences so it's encrypting
uh in this package for public
consumption mess different messages to
different people
that's like where the rent their like
shakespearean theater
comes from is like this sort of
a type of storytelling
uh that like this was a
innovation
um
like uh in the book the hieroglyphic
monad itself it has like a geopolitical
level like there are parts of it that
are like meant for the queen to read and
like there's like encrypt you know what
i mean like but it was also like
available for public consumption
yes but you know what's creeping me out
is like i have
done this practice like independently
without knowing about john d or anything
like
a lot of my writings in the past
have been layered like this
it's because we've all read shakespeare
like i mean shakespeare basically is uh
you know he's he's like a world
historical figure
for this sort of reason and in fact the
this is like what's so [Β __Β ] nuts
about like the actual reality of who
wrote shakespeare and like what it
actually means
um it's because the shakespeare name and
like the title and like this figure is
also like a high it's a [Β __Β ] hologram
dude like it's not a real entity it's a
completely fictitious historical entity
and uh that it means different thing
like you know what i mean it so this is
like what the british invented was this
sort of
uh insane level you could call it like
black magic and stuff like that right
but what it is is like uh yeah like
it's like public relations marketing
theater theater stagecraft meredith
narrativeology like dramatizations um
acting
um you know intelligence networks
finance like manipulation of markets
piracy
i wonder if the monad is what i call the
sovereign object
anglo-saxon metaphysics because to me
this is all about the birth of um
this kind of substance or this kind of
object which is
fundamentally
uh the only absolute everything else
being like
transient and unreal or
not fundamental but
i my question what i never understood
about monets is
how are there different monets would it
like how how how are their differences
basically
you'd you'd be like honestly man like
when it comes down to like like you're
like a more classically trained and like
the philosophical like rigor rigmarole
and whatnot so you could you should talk
to combot about that because he would
love to go off on this especially and i
won't do as good of a job as he will
frankly because he's like
i learned so much from him about this
stuff because like that wasn't really my
forte but i've gotten more literate on
that stuff over the years
but like i'm more of like a theology guy
or whatever you know yeah yeah yeah and
also literature
yeah yeah that's like i'm more of like
into revelation i guess like have
the socialist realist book it was posted
in the 30s it's called
uh
the road to the ocean
you know that one
i know i haven't read that one have you
heard of it
um i don't know if that is that the like
exact english translation does it have a
different name or because i don't know
it's
uh
called the road to the ocean
leonid leonov
i don't know that one no
uh good have you read it yeah i really
like it
i really like it
it's probably one of i don't read a lot
of literature actually
um i'm kind of a fanatic i only read
theory and the subtlety of literature is
i don't have that i'm
the best theory is literature like it is
uh
that's but that's why i don't see look
i'll read philosophy i'll read hegel
i'll read anything
literature is so much work for me
because
i don't just it's so funny yeah everyone
everyone's like oh rick reading books
like blah blah it's actually like it's
uh people say everyone has this anxiety
because uh the technology you could say
the the mental like mappings like the
memory palaces and things like this that
required to
actually like enjoy a tight like a
renaissance and satire or something is
so far away from
what uh the contemporary like
pedagogical institutions treat yeah like
train your mental habits to be it's so
hard to appreciate
to appreciate literature you have to
commit so much you have to really pay a
lot of attention what's being uh the
thing is is that like the whole point of
literature is um it's better than
philosophy for this reason i agree
because because it trick and when you're
adapting your mind as a reader to like
read this book
changing your mind
is a change in your reality like you
will walk around after reading certain
books and you will never see things the
same way
if you if you look at philosophers all
they do is
borrow um sayings and mannerisms from
literature and you think it's just an
irony where like as they as shakespeare
said or as whatever said like hegel does
this all the time for example yeah and
well the reason for that is because
literature is where the fundamental
stuff is right philosophy is just a
secondhand
attempt you know
it's just like the theology of
revelation so you could say like that
like this philosophy is then like like
hegel's sort of like the phil the
theology of the radical reformationist
literature
yeah
yeah i would say so
that's how i it's made sense to me and
uh i would say like you know um like
that's even where like sort of marks and
angles are to me in a sense where i
think like uh
make uh they they they say a lot about
uh it shows a lot about like the reality
of oh this is this is also important
you know a lot of people don't realize
this
but a lot of people speculate oh why is
it that the revolution happened in
russia
well
i'll tell you one thing that made the
bolsheviks better than the european
marxists
they all came from the whole reason they
became bolsheviks
was because of literature it was all
literature it was all russian
revolutionary literature from
the 19th century that's where that was
their background and if you think about
in america you guys okay why are these
people calling themselves communists
it's also for aesthetic reasons and by
aesthetic reasons i don't mean cosmetic
i mean like it's grounded in this like
rev this aesthetic that of like this is
how i make sense of the world right
through this um literary the story that
i live in yeah exactly but when you look
at american leftists the literature
quote-unquote that they're coming from
it's the like literature of um disney
channel teen tween shows and the cw
shows
just book [Β __Β ] tumblr [Β __Β ] or
whatever and that's where their whole
literary aesthetic is coming from
it's coming from dumb movies and [Β __Β ]
whereas
but i i'm not don't get me wrong i know
movies are more stupid but i also kind
of play with movies a little bit too i
play with the dark knight rises
uh
bane and that condition we're just
telling you man like chris nolan is the
most obvious british intelligence he's
the biggest piece of [Β __Β ] ever the world
dude do you know what school he went to
like his whole life like what his friend
he's like a east india british east
india guy like you know i hate him right
i only like his batman movies in spite
like it's almost like the devil made
this movie and that's how you can see
the anxieties of the ruling class or
whatever and that's why the villains are
the ones i'm i'm with they're right no
that's like that that's like the irony
of it right is that everyone actually
like didn't no one gave a [Β __Β ] about
batman in uh those movies we like the
villains we like the things that nolan
fears and nolan but then they made like
the joker movie and uh like it's you
know it's okay it was pretty good it was
alright i liked it yeah
it's kind of forgettable though
yeah it's the same not it doesn't it
won't have the staying power as uh
they'll yeah
yeah i don't know he's glad ledger
tapped into some [Β __Β ] on that one though
he went like he was like sounded like
[Β __Β ] like
like tom waits and like [Β __Β ] like he
actually likes
me like
but the characters that he took for
inspiration were interesting because he
specifically was trying to be like a tom
waits joker like tom wait's like the
like the junkyard band like horse voice
like captain beefheart fan tom waits
i don't know who tom waits is who's tom
wakes oh dude you gotta listen to tom
waits man this is american culture
tom woods gotta
not joking this is like vital
oh i'll note i wrote it down
but um
and dogs and dogs you gotta listen to
rain dogs
yeah i mean um
you know but that's the thing is that
what if the first step to making
american communism is we just need
better literature we just need better
artists we can't read
yeah or or just a better aesthetic in
general right i wrote a really good book
i'm not gonna lie but uh people can't
read anymore or what what people want to
read is um is uh something that they've
already read before it's like pretty
much everything's very stimulating
any type of ambition in literature is
considered pretentious well if you're
trying to do anything
is uh people are gonna
that they don't want to try i'm honest
to god why do you think i stream like
the only next step would be porn but
why do you think i stream because
i've i believe you have to go to the
lowest and most base medium of conveying
information just in order i kind of
agree yeah that's why i'm on twitter but
twitter's like uh
no it's uh twitter is like i guess like
the closest we have to a literary medium
if if i if i if i like um
if i believed people can be convinced
like right like not rationally but like
through using their head
oh thank you so much jackson appreciate
you man appreciate you so much man
then i would have just continued writing
my books and wrote beautiful prose and
poetry and what i was working on with
that
but
you have to begin from
the lowest
in order to make an effect you know no i
do think we have to make art about
how we are where we are because
basically the counter narrative
is just the marvel cinematic universe
because the marvel cinematic universe
doesn't exist for no reason
but it has a purpose it's vital to our
society people don't even accept the
possibility of other aesthetics so
that's the terrifying thing is that you
know like any movie that defies the mcu
metanewme
like where you can't be like oh this is
just like the mc like any movie that is
considered fascist and evil and and
right wing and and problematic even
[Β __Β ] joker was considered
a very dangerous film because it wasn't
it's like it's unbelievable how we've
gotten to this point we're like the only
aesthetic that's it's not even that it's
the only one we're allowed to have it's
the it's the only one that people
recognize exists beyond which lies evil
meaninglessness chaos and death or
whatever right so it's very terrifying
how like people don't even wreck you
know i always i always say i feel so
much pity for the people that
that are hating on me on twitter
whatever because they will never have an
aesthetic experience
of
what i would consider authentic beauty
they will never be able to just
they're missing out on a lot that's what
i'm trying to say you know yeah
they are in hell
really like they're they
not happy people there you usually like
that's sometimes what's fun to do like
you know uh you gotta you get a critic
or whatever and you just
search their at for like depressed or
kill myself or suicide or
depress you know all of these things and
it's like oh yeah this is the type of
person
um
yeah i mean um
i don't know it's it's it's
yeah there's just
[Β __Β ] man
a lot of it it's just there's a void
it's like a nihilistic void and i think
that um yeah people should be making
better art but the thing is is that uh
the art mark like look at nfts like what
is the what is art now right like i
wrote this but like i wrote my book when
but the book's real point is about like
the what what the fate of the artist
like in our own time or whatever
effectively right and uh so many of the
things that i wrote in this novel are
now just not even metaphors they like
just exist they're like things that i
was like making up or like
as like a parody or like as an extension
of trends and uh now they're just real
and um
like what's you know
it's it's not what people want to read
people what people want to read is the
you know the mcu version of uh
the type of literature they already like
it's like uh
what do you get you get an ethno
narcissistic uh like family chronicles
in the sort of iowa writers workshop
style that the new york times all props
up all these books no one actually reads
but everyone reviews well they just
mutually say that they're all good but
no one's actually reading these books
um it's a totally like fake art market
uh it's a totally fake like market
pretty much always
and uh i've been trying to like you know
i've always wanted to breathe life into
the arts because it feels kind of
moribund
um but uh there's some good there's
always good stuff happening it's just
not happening uh for most people most
people don't get to see it
yeah i mean um
i don't know uh
uh
i don't need i still don't really know
what an nft is and i i don't know if i
want to commit to
it's uh it's literally just a money
laundering vehicle and and the the
reason why it has to be an art object or
quote unquote considered that way is
because art uh in this sense is treated
uniquely in our like financial system
and like people are using like paintings
and stuff to launder money and uh they
started to like close down those
loopholes so now we have nfts and uh all
the money laundering is just going into
nfts and people are pretending that
something else is happening but that's
all that is i i wonder if there's a way
to um
i don't know i'm always trying to find
ways of making money so
how can i such an american house you
really are you really you're i don't
know how can i get on getting in on this
scam you know like what can i do the
american way that is literally the most
tragic in the world it's like no like
think about like ed and eddie did you
watch edit yes i did
and like i kind of have a love for the
sort of husterishness of america where
it's like
people are just like [Β __Β ] crazy like
plying their [Β __Β ] you know like everyone
just like out there
whatever um but it it's ter it turns
this is like a theosophical thing though
right because like a lot of is like the
powers of persuasion the powers of
marketing the powers of selling yourself
the powers of uh you know like getting
people to give you money you know is
like that's the skills that are what's
funny is that you know we talk about uh
the liberal arts majors or whatever it's
like oh those people aren't studying
real sciences like you know you're
reading uh you're reading theory like
that's not a real science like i do hard
science and uh i went to business school
and i studied marketing like you know
it's like we have schools that are just
basically black magic schools where it's
like you learn how to do marketing and
like you know uh consumer uh consumer
research and that's how you know we
don't we don't have any markets anymore
if we had real markets we would be able
to go to a school for marketing a
market's a market you have to create
markets no you have to create markets we
create markets that's what we do we we
like that's that's how you make money
you don't make money by selling things
in a market you make a lot of money by
creating a new market yeah
true
that's what we do we create new markets
and everything
because that's how you you make money
right and everyone's looking for a good
scam so it's like hey well i'm going to
open a market for nfts i always saw that
business school is the quickest way to
waste your time because
real business you don't understand
business school you don't understand
what it's for
really
that's creating a spirit of core it's
about networking it's about going on
yeah true
i always you don't do [Β __Β ] anything
have you ever met anyone who's got it to
me real business
is very anti-social it's like
i'm more like a talib guy like
you can't be in an instant oh it's not a
business man no
tala was a day trader dollop was a he
was on the trading desk
he's a broker he's an anti-social he
represents like an anti-social hey but
the thing about what he actually is he
but taleb is like the stoic financial
individualist who's just speculating on
things and suspended in like liberal
anoraxia like i like talab but he is the
epitome of like the rowan roman stoic
like the pre like you know what i mean
he's just uh he's just placing his bets
in like you know with a view of the
inevitable black swan of death right
yeah but uh
uh there's no uh there's no resurrection
here
um there's no uh
it's uh that's taleb but talab is he's a
day trader this is the this is the
ideology of finance pros this is rise
and grind sigma grindset this is uh
but this is what uh marx and engels
called the uh lumpen proletariat uh
reorganized at the level of like the
aristocracy
yeah
like the financial anarchist the
financial piracy i always see it the
latter of mark i i don't know i always
see it as anti-social because
it's capitalism is fundamentally
anti-social like uh
if we're gonna have capitalism let's
just
i'll just be a real capitalist i'm not
gonna be part of their you know
socialism and
network with all these people well it's
like what does capitalism mean because
we don't have what is what is real
capitalism i don't think uh anyone who
self-describes as a capitalist wouldn't
call what we have now real capitalism is
what's funny right yeah like if
someone's like like oh i'm a real
capitalist like you know i've read the
theory i believe in capitalism and my
interpretation of it and we definitely
don't have capitalism here are the
reforms that i would recommend so that
we could have something closer to real
capitalism so like we don't have
capitalism right now because like
capitalism is this [Β __Β ] most nebulous
[Β __Β ] thing in the world it's a
complete ideological fiction
what that means to people like is so
vague and diffuse
yeah yeah i mean
but at the end of the day you know if i
always tell those people a party is a
corporation it's a business
that's the only reason parties exist
today that's the whole point of
communism is that it's like as supposed
to out-compete
what is around it it's not supposed to
be put in because the good guys did a
trick
like they did a trick and they said
we're liberals jk we're actually super
far leftist and now you have to deal
with it and we're gonna make utopia and
you're gonna begging you're gonna kick
and scream but it's good for your own
good which is the view of the fabians
and all of the leftists which is that
the people couldn't possibly accept this
you have to do it through subterfuge
yeah yeah
that's that's not how it actually works
you know
that's how uh that's how they view it is
uh this sort of uh subdivision
as opposed to building something this is
uh shifting gears but do you have any
info on the origins of the 1619 project
like who is is anyone behind this
specifically like what i remember it's
some [Β __Β ] uh it's definitely british
though
it all connects to well it all connects
to like the
talking about like the international
organization of like scientists and
academic professionals etc
in the english-speaking world the center
for that is like at the end of the day
it's like london dc manhattan
yeah
so and that's one place and uh their
whole thing right is like they want they
like the notion of the anglosphere and
in some ways like there's like the
rehabilitation of the british empire
thank you
sorry this thing isn't good
it's a weird form of rehabilitation
because it's one where it's like listen
like we accept like our own sins but
like you know we're still doing our best
the idea of the new british empire
well because the cpusa just endorsed it
in uh in their video they were saying
the 1619 project is the way forward okay
do you want me to tell you like let's
see who funds it it literally takes me
like two seconds to find out like what
the [Β __Β ] is going on with these things
oh it's new york times then it's london
yeah
the new york times is a hereditary
aristocracy you know yeah yeah like it's
uh it's a
it's like a a mold buggiest always like
to talk about how it's uh it's a
monarchy
in uh the state but uh yeah the new york
times just takes its orders from
basically uh like the guardian and like
this general like british uh
intelligence world think about it they
ran the russiagate [Β __Β ] right yeah
where'd that come from it came from
british intelligence
literally literally that's not even
that's not even a speculation that's
just like admitted history no i know i
know right absolutely
crazy no one gives a [Β __Β ] man no one can
see it no it once you have the eyes to
see though you can't unsee it but it's
like trying to like
sorry like you know why i stopped being
interested in that is because it's like
i s
i started to see all this [Β __Β ] and then
i was like but what difference does it
make like nobody cares you know so i
feel like i'm more of like in a david
lynch mentality where it's like
ah who cares you know just
it's kind of that's i've been there man
i know what that's like it's like uh i
wouldn't say it's a fun place to be but
uh this is sort of like a i would
recommend this a bologna thing where
he's talking about it's this essay he
wrote about the various patrons you can
have um
and uh
he says there's like this biggest gap
where it's like at the end like you
realize you're writing for the void and
it's like
again you accept that you're writing for
the void you know something like that
where it's really like
i actually want to be writing for an
audience or for
like this particular thing to see an
immediate like feedback or whatever like
yeah like i wanna
but like that's that's something you
wanna get over that's a sickness like
wanting to like get the response that
you desire from people for like telling
the truth what you should really want is
the recognition of uh like you to be
already like reconciled no no that
that's where i've been for years is that
it's the void right
yeah i mean that's like a lot that i
that's like all of us that's like a big
uh it's a big uh like we have a big
problem of nihilism like i know from
myself like you know i feel like it
hasn't been annihilus these days it's
like the way i've been though for years
is that i didn't even go on twitter i
was just like i don't care to have an
audience i just want to do this
for its own sake even just maybe for me
but
i don't have an audience you know i only
started having an audience when i went
live
but i completely disconnected like my
esoteric true
theory that i care about with this this
is just like an experiment
in popular
discourse whatever that
i am not a hundred thousand percent
invested in i'm i am invested in it to
an extent but
not like my books not like my writings
you know like that's where my real soul
is you know this is just that that's
something i like that with because like
i wanted to be a writer right like i
love literature i've been writing stuff
for a long time um poetry and things
like that so i was always like okay well
like how do you actually do that you
know like how do you actually like do
that today like how do you get anyone to
read your book and it's like okay well
you just like go to like uh a good
school
i
get connections to like publishing
industry type people right and then you
just get like a book deal but even worse
is
how could anyone under how can i get
people to understand it you know what i
mean like i have a specific sense
and how do i convey that to others and
because it's like it seems like
perfectly yeah like the thing is is that
you don't actually want to write for the
public because writing for the public
actually a book that speaks greatly to
the public means that that book is
doomed to die that book is totally
irrelevant that book is actually not
even necessary because all it's doing is
uh telling people things that they
already know right yeah because it's
like baseline readers can just totally
exhaust it and that's like most media
and things people encounter right where
it's just like on the first your first
pass through you're like yep this pretty
much exhausted that's about it that's
all it was there it is it's like a big
circle like a pops up disappears it
doesn't really make a splash because it
didn't reveal anything um the books that
are like immortal books like eternal
like books the books that stick around
uh where most of the time they're not
ones that are popular in their time or
even known or you know some of them they
like were weren't even published or just
found in fragments or you know um things
like this like those
like
moby dick for instance moby dick massive
flop no one read it wasn't read for so
long was like totally panned in the
press and then it was rediscovered by
the modernists as like
this is it like this is already a
modernist novel like this was so far
ahead of its time it reveals so much
because herman melville was so far ahead
of the readers of his time that he
couldn't even like he encrypted this
like understanding of his own time like
and like
like theological problems and uh and
like the development of philosophy and
like american history everything he
could possibly fit together he's putting
into like this encyclopedic type like
encrypted codex called moby dick
you know and
people at his own time couldn't
understand it yeah i mean it was
impossible for them to understand it it
was only possible for people in the
future to understand it
well the the thing is is that
i became aware of this how that works
like anything that means anything is
only going to be appreciated way later
it's not going to be like
but that's why when i started streaming
i started to every time i'm
like people when whenever that happens
i'm like okay
it's like it's like in terminator 2 when
they're too late
and they're they're you know how they're
like racing in that film against time
and you're too late well it doesn't
matter because it's gonna happen anyway
but still you lost that's how i think of
it too it's like
my goal is to find a way to just
um
make an impression now and if i can't do
that i don't care if it like in a year
or two people are like oh
oz was right it's like yeah but
i want it to be right now you know
you know what i mean like i messed up
i'm i failed that kind of that it's not
it's not enough to be right
for me the thing is though is that that
i feel like that's sort of the desire to
like you know you do a thing and then
there's like the action immediate like
reaction or like you know yeah that you
cannot push this over and it'll fall
this is sort of something that i think
is ingrained in a it's like part of the
problem with um our generation or like
being a growing up with like this uh
this uh hyper stimulating environment is
um with like so much immediate
gratification because that's not
actually like how anything works like
anything that's meaningful does not have
that sort of um
and actually give you like immediate
feedback or it that doesn't have this uh
this relation it's far more in like the
realm of ambiguity and uh you not
knowing like
dwelling in like unknowing and
essentially like requiring faith to
continue forward right because like if
you're writing this book if you're like
if you're like say you're like herman
melville and uh you're getting you're
like kind of uh your your your book
sales from like your earlier books the
ones that are popular before you start
to piss off the critics your money's
starting to go away yeah you have to go
back to work you can't just like [Β __Β ]
be a writer anymore because you're not
making enough money
and uh so you're back at like the
customs house and things like that
you're working this [Β __Β ] accounting
job and you're writing [Β __Β ] moby dick
hi
you're writing this like you're putting
all this effort into it like how did he
do it how did he everyday justify this
to himself put it out there gets totally
ravaged in the press no one reads it no
one cares everyone calls him a madman he
people thought he was dead when he was
still alive he's like completely
irrelevant to like the literary world to
like world literature he's a castaway
people are writing things like pitying
him and trying to send him money because
like you know he's kind of poor um
this guy wrote he where did he find the
power to do that you know like how do
you do that
what kind of mindset do you have to have
to even be able to do something like
that
the type of faith like hawthorne said
that melville was the most um like
religious person he'd ever met and the
real problem melville had was that he
was like so dedicated to the truth that
like he couldn't decide like
what what what like the historicity of
christ and things like this and like
what like what was true in christianity
like what wasn't in this like age of
enlightenment like that's why like one
of his most like unread but like
greatest works is uh claro which is this
uh it's like one of the longest epic
poems in english and it's about uh his
pilgrimage to uh jerusalem when he
actually did go
like his uh his uh spiritual struggle
there and it's like such a
such a marvelous [Β __Β ] work of
literature you know and it's a
[Β __Β ] i don't know man there's a
little
treasures hidden in the world by people
put in a lot of work like storing up
treasures in heaven you could say and uh
it's nice to see you can find them you
know and uh that's that's what life is
like you can't really expect uh
to uh you know being in control of the
powers of this world
you can in eternity if that makes sense
like doing something like melville does
it will pay off like that doesn't you
don't it doesn't just
manuscripts don't burn as it's as uh as
bulgakov said in a master and margarita
which wasn't was only published in uh
sami start in his time you know
these scripts don't burn
yeah um
no i get that it's just um
yeah i mean uh yeah i know what you're
saying i agree
i mean you're doing it you're doing good
stuff and like i i
i mostly agree with you on things like
or at least you see a lot of the same
things that i do and uh which i feel
like not a lot of people can see
because and like especially like the
more you uh
are involved uh the the kind of more
blind you become unless you kind of are
always kind of like uh almost
ritualistically destroying your own
social capital in a way which i could
say that's one way i could describe my
own like internet career is uh people
call me like a relentless contrarian but
it's also like uh i just don't wanna
like i've been an offer i've had many
opportunities to sell out in a larger
way than i've chosen to
how do you um if you don't mind me
asking like do you have a job right now
or what is
the way you're uh i just uh i make money
from my uh from uh my patreon right now
oh okay nice nice
i so i've just uh been making the
podcast and uh you know i think most of
the people who subscribe to me on
patreon like they're just like uh like
what i do in general
yeah or like just want me to like keep
doing what i'm doing because um i do
like different things you know like i'm
talking to you right now and like people
who follow me will want to well would
want me to talk to you right
yeah
so i just like i live on alms i guess
i'm kind of like a [Β __Β ] pilgrim um
how i choose to look at it i guess but
uh
i'm hoping uh to i have like other
artistic projects in the works and
things like that but i sometimes feel
like uh
almost more important i mean northrop
frye said this too that like in our age
it's almost more important to like get
people to like
teach people how to read again in the
first place
then to like write something new for
them to read because
uh
new things that are being made aren't
very new um they're not really like
that necessary if that makes sense like
there's much more to be gained from us
uh like
learning more about the past that there
is for us to like make another like
trendy piece of like what like another
kind of like black mirror dystopia
sci-fi thing or whatever that everyone
does like do we need another one of
these are they revealing anything not
particularly
yeah
it's like what are we really alienated
from is like [Β __Β ] real like the
bigger reality of like global history
and like you know these sorts of things
you don't have like historical epics as
movies anymore you know nothing's
grounded in reality or uh in any sort of
continuity it's all sci-fi worlds and uh
alternate realities
yeah i mean um
literature is harder to do than theory
literature is harder than philosophy
literature is harder than uh anything
before we have the courage of great
letter
like literature and art in this country
we're not gonna have i don't think
i think the reason people are on board
with the infrared thing is aesthetic
honestly it is it's that there's just
this fundamental sense
aesthetic doesn't mean just cosmetic
it's i don't mean superficial i just
mean like
it's a story that people like you know
and
that's why i've been able to make the
progress that i have but it's it's not
neces it's not entirely sufficient you
know because
yeah i still get i still managed to be
entangled in this discursive [Β __Β ]
where all these [Β __Β ] stupid people on
twitter are making is like oh are you an
american chauvinist and
you know like this dumb [Β __Β ] that
completely is besides the point you know
my whole aim in life right now is just i
want to get to a space
beyond the discourse
i don't want to have to talk to leftists
for the rest of my life i don't ever
want to have to even talk to these
people like i don't ever want to ever
have to like
even see these people
you know what i mean
you just have to like build your own
[Β __Β ] thing basically like yeah that's
that's uh that's sort of uh
that was sort of the tragedy at least
like me being like my involvement on
like internet uh politics or whatever is
that i my whole thing was always always
like i just want to like create like be
like like
make like art like like let's try to do
something like uh you know meaningful or
whatever that'll like uh
that's really was more of my inspiration
like i've just wanted to like make
something like artful or like considered
like kind of mind altering in a way
right like that's what art is really
supposed to do
um
and
that's like what a lot of the spirit of
like 2015 and things like that was to me
was like a sort of like uh
it was
like 2010's aesthetics had gotten so
old and like they're still around right
but there was like anybody's
brief attempt to do something else but
it's kind of um
the tragedy for me is that it's like
reconformed into this like very
reducible
um like you know like fast wave like
roman statue
blah blah this [Β __Β ] it's like so stale
and it's not real life
yeah um
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the leftist [Β __Β ] is all
like they don't make good art like
that's like do you remember like there's
all these like people go off and they're
like you know right wing or conservative
people never make great art or whatever
it's like only radical leftist
and it's like that's number one like
totally untrue but number two like what
what have you done for me lately like
what are you what are your great works
of art here pal if you're in charge and
this is your hegemony like what great
artworks you wait it's the same as
revolutions people are trying to claim
the continuity of the great
revolutionaries but it's a tautology
it's like how do you know lenin would be
on your side how do you know mal would
be on your side like why because you
feel like there's just this unbroken
chain of progress and constantly
succession discursively yeah i mean but
how do you know
that in lenin's time he wasn't
considered a shitlord grifter who was
like going against the discourse because
it when you read it that's really what
it sounds like you know it sounds like
lenin was a pariah for the international
socialist movement who was not liked by
the majority of socialists
internationally who was going against
the grain and who was being canceled by
social democracy the same is true for
mao in regards to the soviet bureaucracy
it's like how do you know that you know
the twitter mob would have been
with lenin at the time because i think
all evidence points to the contrary
right
yeah no these people like yeah they're
they're like they're like oh in uh the
time these people would be nazis in nazi
germany like they don't have the actual
courage of convictions because they
don't really have real convictions yeah
principles they have positions
can they have speculation they keep
voting they keep quoting marx and lenin
and mao and these all these
revolutionaries as if they're like
they're part of the continuity of that
and then oh lennon what you see guys our
discourse represents the true inheritor
and successor to to lenin and it's like
but back then your discourse was
international social democracy right you
think that when lenin broke with those
people he was just like
uh he was affirming the discourse no he
was going against everything you know
i mean i don't know how these people
what they have in mind but
um
he was they're actually pretty content
with the way things are actually i think
i just don't think they have this the
recognition that
um
there can be meaning beyond the
discourse
you know it's not not everything they
feel like if the discourse breaks down
nothing can be meaningful so all the
great revolutionaries in history were
always already part of the discourse
right they were always already part of
the twitter mob and they would have
gotten 20 000 likes on twitter and they
would have been ratioing these people
and that's how it would have been
yeah they they're like they they like
yeah that the they're when they uh when
they are doxing a uh uh a soccer mom
for
for protesting um against auntie far or
something yeah well would i tell that i
was like that's what mao would have done
here's all you have to do to prove these
people are not the successors of lenin
and mao and so it's like okay lenin and
mao built parties and led revolutions
how close are you to even getting
to a fraction of that you're nowhere
near that so like how do you know you
are the successor to these revolutions
well effectively effectively what
they'll say though they'll just do this
they'll go well you're not doing that so
effectively we're both now just
acknowledging that we're just larping so
stop pretending like we're doing
anything other than but i feel like the
difference with me at the least is that
i just started you know like a few
months ago so
with the consequences i have for
what people are going to be doing
politically we don't know yet but what
they've been doing
has not made any change for decades you
know well i'm open to failing if my part
yeah you have to be like uh abby right
now you have to uh lead from if this is
a time where martyrdom is called for
leadership
uh because
i feel like your job on twitch
is to destroy the discourse
and um
hey you so what what does that mean like
how do you do that like how are you
going to get to the point where like
um like what what is it i like i feel
like you've made a name for yourself
from being um
like uh like basically what you've the
this basic this this cancellation of
yours recently right the whole tropes of
it is from like the fact that you were
like
being uh like unabashedly like masculine
or like invoking masculinity as like um
in uh
aesthetically which is not normal for
the most part on twitch
um
so that they associate that with like
incels etc right
yeah
the one of the chairs of the the
communist party she was like
is that
sorry there
one of the chairs of the communist party
was like
i don't know what's going on with the
socialist patriots but it kind of
reminds me of the incel movement
it's like
yeah yeah yeah
yeah yeah yeah
yeah yeah well it's because uh like
like you you
they have to fit things into like a
category to like unperson you or
whatever but what so you're saying
you're saying in their view like
masculinity means in so
what it means is what you're supposed to
do is you're supposed to be like a
polite person like destiny or whatever
honestly this is the thing like if you
actually really wanted to deal right but
to be fair though but those i don't
aren't those people the incels like
destiny
destiny gets destroyed
he's famous i get that but like uh
when you take away the thing i don't
have i don't have a problem saying that
i think destiny is a respectable person
in a lot of ways no he is but i'm just
saying like um
aren't those
i don't know like uh it just seems a
little paradoxical to me i don't know
but everyone's an incel right now
because and actually women are but
there's more that we it's the year of
the femme cell right now did you see
that that uh there's more uh women now
than men who haven't had sex in the last
six months
but i feel like
i feel like that's everyone's an intel
but it isn't now yeah isn't that kind of
more choice though because i think women
can
pretty much choose
right like men are the ones who have to
it's not really
you see i mean they they kind of got you
a little bit here yeah i feel like you
understand the dynamics no
fem cells are real dude
cells are real yeah
yeah interesting it's actually more of
them than in cells right now it's
actually you know i i never wanted to be
like super into the sexuality stuff in
the first i don't know why people are
honestly it's just like evo it's like
[Β __Β ] and people just like basically
just reify the the the market of like
tinder and they make these uh these uh
these three metaphors become conflated
of like the sex sex the marketplace and
nature like are all three the same thing
so it's like uh so it's like cat cat
like social capital is like also [Β __Β ]
so it's like if you don't make money
then you then you're an insult because
you don't get [Β __Β ] if you see what i'm
saying like it's all three things yeah
and so if you don't seem like you're
gonna make a lot of money
i see it's it's just weird that there's
so much public investment in the
sexuality of
political figures
you know what i mean like it's not weird
because we live in like porn empire and
if you're just like oh everything's porn
then it's like yeah obviously people
beat off to like the president
true probably
yeah i mean um
yeah it
that is weird but
um
it's just funny seeing the like the
seven year old woman who's the chair of
the cpusa
it kind of reminds me of the ins
like why though you know
also like incels is like such an inside
the age of the intel is already over
like that it was white boy summer was
the a end of the age of the insult it's
the age of the femme cells now and
actually you're all gonna when you i
don't i feel like people are underrating
how bad that is going to make well okay
to to entertain that for a second
it is i do find it a little bit weird
that
i did not interact with these women i
had nothing against them i never said
anything bad against them i had nothing
to do with them
and yet i had scores of women
like imposing themselves on me in an
unwanted way with
pictures the inappropriate pictures and
no men can't be sexually harassed by
women like it's fine and uh saying that
like you you get no [Β __Β ] and like
you're dick small like trying to like
sexually humiliate you but it reminds me
of the behavior of a bitter man against
a random woman like why are these women
coming at me when
it reminds me of something an incel
would do to a woman i've met women
women
a lot of women show me that they're
stalkers and they're like harassers and
[Β __Β ]
and
for the first time in my whole life i
saw women doing that and it was against
me right which shocked me because i was
like but why i never
it's not like i get it if you defend
yourself and whatever go hard but
what did i ever do to you you know
what did i do to deserve this you know i
didn't deserve a picture of your
what i mean
well it's not for you it's nothing
actually those pictures are worth
nothing it's meaningless you probably
don't even remember what they look like
because there's pornography i thankfully
but it's like
it's not even like special it doesn't
mean anything it's like [Β __Β ] spam
like that's like the funny thing is that
like that sort of uh that would be like
you know in the 1940s that's like you
know that would be one of the most
intimate things you could possibly do
send someone maybe
someone said that it's because i'm from
a lebanese culture but i just feel like
when you send someone nude pictures of
yourself it's like
that's
seems like a personal thing to do you
know
um
it's not anymore i guess right we have
like that's the internet that's porn
stars etc so
not that special like that was actually
just self-promotion on their part they
were just using you as an advertising
vehicle
and basically you could say in a way
they were really advertising towards
like the other guys where uh they feel
like uh now they're closer to her
because uh they're not like you
so then they're does that make sense
like there's a lot of like parasocial uh
weird like fetish things in a
america this is the symbolism of the
[Β __Β ] of babylon in the bible actually
is that the way all of this works
yeah i mean um
so that's interesting i'm not you're way
more in tune with cultural trends than
me i i don't it's hard for me to keep up
with all this all this [Β __Β ] but i think
it's like
just like that's uh the the that's the
zeitgeist or whatever man or the
volksgeist it's uh you gotta stay in
touch with it
yeah um
yeah i i
that yeah it's just interesting i mean
um i do think people are very
unsatisfied in general people are very
unsatisfied with
their sexuality and their relationships
and their lives so lately but i just
hate
i always preferred privacy i wish i
didn't have to be involved in other
people's sexuality and
vice versa i wish i could just be
private but i can't anymore and i'm a
public figure so i always have to talk
about it
all the time now
yeah yeah it's uh
i'm like what's funny is that like i'm
like i was like i'm like generally a
pretty private person but now i'm like a
very public person i guess
yeah um
and that was like hard for
me but it was like kind of like uh i
grew a lot through uh it was kind of
more like uh i realized how little uh i
actually like you know um
[Β __Β ] you know like you like you have
like like everyone has like these
insecurities about things and whatever
and uh clearly like that's what
everyone's going to like target or like
attempt to target and uh yeah like
manipulating you in various ways but
like you know uh it doesn't really mat
like you know you like it's uh you can
kind of like accept things about
yourself and not really uh
really matter um but uh it's uh
that's like the problem that's yeah it
sucks being a public person in that
sense like i do wish um
i would have done it like fully
anonymously but it's not really possible
i tried really hard i was like
didn't get talks for a long time but you
can't it's inevitable
yeah i mean um
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it's kind of weird
i don't know
my my internal reaction all the time is
just
uh
puzzlement i'm always just puzzled like
how am i supposed to react then i mean
like
like i react for
public reasons but internally i'm always
just like
i i i force myself to care more than i
do authentically
yeah
you know i force what you mean but
that's why i'm taking breaks from
twitter and [Β __Β ] because it's like
it's so tiring really bad for you it's
like yeah because my fear is that
if i go with my instinct and just ignore
everything
they'll see that as like weakness and
i'll look bad so i have to do something
the thing is like my solution basically
is that like i i i don't care to have a
large audience um at all i actually try
sometimes to like uh get rid of parts of
my audience
so
then my solution because it's like
people are being like annoying i just
get rid of them now and uh it's great
if people like if someone's just being
pestering or you know getting uh
getting a quote tweeted by annoying
people i just i just block them i just
get rid of them
and uh it's a it's a wonderful it's
great
i highly recommend doing it there's
actually because as you say like you're
saying you want to be above the
discourse the moment you're above the
discourses
the psychological projection that a lot
of people do like
i don't maybe i don't i can't pick up on
social cues or something but every time
something happens like people quote to
me they're like hahaha you just got
shattered how do you feel and i'm like
um
not any nothing and then they're like oh
that's a cope you're actually
your soul
your soul has been shattered and you're
broken and destroyed and it's like
did something happen that i'm not aware
of barely it's literally like black
magic because what it is yeah
if you have a group of people right and
they all start saying this and they all
start like no no no you're broken from
this like and you're really actually
like it makes me paranoid and it makes
me think like did something happen
that i should care about well the thing
exactly exactly so that like and then if
you get enough people doing this then uh
if you you would like start to believe
it yourself right and then you kind of
make it actually happen right if like if
enough people if every day everyone you
met was just like looking at you and
they're like they're like
really yourself like how long would it
take how long would it take to start
thinking about it actually a lot of
people did say that to me a lot of
people
but do you see what i'm saying like
that's it's actually like like that is
like uh like
uh
black magic means is that sort of uh
this sort of like the use of these sort
of like
like repeated symbol exposures you know
to
mold your mind so like these people like
effectively like you can say it's like
very larpy and stuff and it's like and
it's like you know cyber bullying's not
real you can turn it off all this
stuff's true but like um a lot like
i especially like i try to like see the
best in people or like be charitable
even people who are being mean to me
um i like sometimes will be try to like
be uh pretty even-handed or whatever but
um
i
thought
[Β __Β ] i lost my train of thought there
uh [Β __Β ]
it's it's that's how it is man i don't
know i don't know man [Β __Β ] internet
internet dynamics it's like i can't
explain [Β __Β ] to you it's good i can talk
to you because you have to like go
through it but like i never talk about
it like being uh subject to this sort of
[Β __Β ]
like to other people because it would
sound like i'm insane even though i'm
describing things that are like
perfectly real you know to like like
imagine like uh you go you're like
sitting like hanging out with like your
friend who's who like uh is like an
electrician or something
like so how's life going and it's like
it's like you know uh you know just uh
people uh trying to like hack into all
my accounts and uh post my information
on like a website that's uh solely
inhabited by like uh neo-nazis and uh
like uh
like hyper anarchists like leftists for
some reason both of them uh
here's the thing is like i just
i never thought of myself as such a good
person but compared to these people i
think i am because
what i struggle to do is i always try to
put myself in their head and be like why
are you doing this why do this like i
wouldn't even do this to someone i hate
like what is the re is this just like a
way of defying god
and just like testing
testing the limits of because to me
these are just things that are not
possible i couldn't spend my time on
twitter constantly [Β __Β ]
you know
i try to put myself in their head and be
like where do you where are you getting
this evil from where do you get that
from you know
where does that even come from where
does this hatred come from you know
well the funny thing is is that like it
is like uh like uh just from like a
bitterness and it actually is like it's
like a it's like a self-hatred
which uh manifests as like a desire like
for like the parts of the self that
would want to be like amputated or
whatever is uh like projected out into
the world so it's like you have to like
go out and like kill these things that
sort of represent like unacknowledged
parts what do you think i represent for
all i have you know my haters go
hardcore i have a lot of really hardcore
they just genuinely hate my guts
like what what is it that i represent to
them
do you think
uh the same thing that uh [Β __Β ] stalin
represented to all the [Β __Β ]
trotskyists in uh new york city
really
so it's like you think it's like a it's
like an edible thing like i'm like a
fatherly figure to them or something or
i like authority they don't want like
they like consensus they like democrat
quote-unquote democratic meaning
oligarchic consensus they don't like
authority they don't like seeing like
anyone speaking as if they have
authority or that authority like they
could that the authority comes from
their own understanding and not from the
consensus
okay i see i see
that this is what uh like um blake has
this in like the everlasting gospel
right where it says like he spoke with
authority not like a scribe you know
like he's not pointing being like like
they're they're like scribes right like
they'll go and they'll be like no the
consensus right it says in this part you
have to go point at the document and
then like you know you turn it into like
this like flow chart right we're gonna
make the consensus flow chart we'll all
agree to it but like what the what what
jesus jesus doesn't have a flow chart
he's just saying like i am the truth
that's so interesting that's so
interesting
um
i just don't know why you go out there
and you're like i'm telling you the
truth like you think people feel like it
is the truth you think people feel like
they either have to destroy me or like
um
just irrationally submit to me and they
just want to preserve their rational
faculties and that's how they're doing
it is by attacking me because i can
understand that it's like they're just
trying to survive basically they feel
like if they don't the thing is is that
your criticisms are criticisms of the
consensus so to diverts from the
consensus would mean that authority no
longer resides in the consensus if like
an individual can be right and the
consensus wrong
that throws
the
organizational principle of this like
what like a narco-syndicalist ideology
of
like loop like because that's they
believe effectively that uh like dem
democratic like selection or whatever
leads to perfect consensuses and that
there will never be like a situation
where the consensus is wrong and like an
individual on their own
correct
yeah um
their their dependency on the consensus
personally is
maybe that's just what they've attached
their entire sense of self to or
well the thing is is that you attach
your sense of self to this consensus
because the closer you approximate the
consensus that's like considered a proxy
for like your intelligence and also your
your moral good yeah you know i'll tell
you why it's it's i'm struggling because
i've been a leftist for 10 years so i've
been there done that for every single
thing you know pretty much almost like
i've been through all the tendencies and
i've i've been there i've been the ultra
leftism and the enthusiasm and the
edginess and the right i've been
everywhere right as a leftist
but i can never
search back into my past
um
and find the energy find like
any point of being able to be relate
relatable to the
haters i was never a hater if that makes
sense right
like someone who spends their time
harassing people and like
i i debate people and yell at them and
[Β __Β ] but then it's done and i move on
i don't
well there's also a difference between
like a type of like troll where you're
trying to elicit like a dialectical
response or whatever like if you like uh
you know what i mean versus one where
it's just like
[Β __Β ] you die like there's there's a
difference like there's a way to be like
to be like combative without being like
uh like trying to be like an
eliminationist or like a liquidationist
or something like one where you're
trying to invite like a repost so that
you can like read what's the meaning of
like this the screeching hatred of the
guy who tears his face off i never have
that feeling i've never had that feeling
in my life
you know what i'm talking about i mean
it's kind of it's kind of like an
autistic thing though like it's kind of
like uh like
wait on
cloak wheel i meant colloquial sense
like the way people use it on the
internet or whatever like like
meaning like the dominance no no you
mean like
you mean like uh like an automated
response like um
not not in the sense of like just people
with disabilities or anything like that
no no no no no no just yeah all right i
mean yeah i mean in the sense of like uh
like uh
a kind of attachment to a specific like
organizational principle or a specific
like world picture you know what i mean
where it's like yeah
like basically just like the the the
dislike of like change
really
yeah um like the dis the or the the fear
of change uh like a kind of pathological
fear of change actually i think drives a
lot of leftists which is kind of funny
um yeah
as they they actually don't want
anything to change
actually yeah
i want anything to really change
kind of want things to be as they are
except more so
yeah yeah yeah i i understand like um
that's very miserable to me that's very
sad but
conservatives
a real sense yeah it was that's what
they actually are designing the system
we have if you think about what
reactionary means aren't they the
reactionaries
objectively yeah yeah but
in a carnival upside down like mirror
universe where pretty much everything
means this exact opposite and this is
what you'd expect in like somewhere
that's like dominated by the antichrist
effectively is that it's like a
perpetual carnival where everything's
upside down all the time and then as
soon as you have like the camera obscura
like the view of like uh the like the
christian hermeneutic right you know
what is he used last year shall be first
there you know and then you can look at
america and flip everything upside down
and it's like putting on those they live
glasses you know so it's like who are
the fascists it's antifa you know
perfect like everything you can do with
everything yeah
people call me a contrarian but what i
think is that i'm just like looking at i
look at everything the latest upside
down the latest thing on twitter that i
saw was that
the patriotic socialists are going to be
the embryo of fascism in america and
that
we need to study the history of fascism
in italy and germany to stop paz and the
patriotic socialists because
they're mirroring the history of fascism
ironically like we were on like what we
tried to debate [Β __Β ] keith woods and
uh joel or whatever and they're the ones
actually trying to do that they're not
calling it communism they're calling it
like [Β __Β ] like labor nationalism or
syndicalism or some [Β __Β ] stupid
fusionism or what syndarchism or archaeo
future like they'll come up with some
[Β __Β ] name for it so
it's not even the same thing it's weird
it's weird to me because it's like
uh it's it's coming from the vows school
of um
of marxism according to which everything
that's not liberal is fascist
so if you if you defy the liberal
consensus that means you're a fascist
fascist
right but and also it's interesting to
me that there's they think there's only
one anti-fascist consensus the liberal
one
but the soviet union bore
by far most of the brunt of that war
so this soviet anti-fascism is
completely different than the western
kind
and for example lukashenko is in it
already talking this no one knows any of
this dude yeah where did that happen in
marvel i don't know what you're talking
about what marvel movie was that but but
here's the thing is that both putin and
lukashenko are anti-fascists right but
they're outside of western liberalism oh
no no no no they're they're fascists
according to these people
it's it's like why is there only one
anti-fascist consensus why what about
the soviet anti-fascists oh well is it
is joe biden a fascist i go yeah
it's like so did you vote for a fascist
like who isn't a fascist like you you're
just you
guys they're basically saying that
this is the straw man that's being
created the patriotic socialists
are
super enthusiastic and jingoistic about
american american imperialism yeah we
want we're super
what the f
it's like this is that's why i believe
in satan because
who else but part of life can can create
such a deception like anyone who like
i've spent my whole time on twitch
yelling at people
for being anglo imperialist
like
yeah
i'm just again i'm i'm puzzled i'm
stunned i don't even know how to respond
to it it's like
what the [Β __Β ] is going on it's like
imagine being framed in a crime and you
just
how are you supposed to respond you're
not guilty
dude this is uh
if you read dostoyevsky
i know but i'm familiar with like his
themes
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that's a big part of the brothers k is
that exact thing of uh that feeling
tfw that feel one but yeah i know what
you mean man i don't know it's something
it's kind of funny it's comical in some
senses like the uh the uh
the the hyperbole that exists on the
internet you know
like
yeah that tens of thousands of people
are like devouring the
communist patriotism or whatever it's uh
funny
if that has any bearing on like the
actual reality we live in
um
i'm so sick of being like an edible
father that has to be
primordially repressed in order to
create communities because that's
happened so many times my life where
like
i end
up
the i like people create communities
around hating me
i feel like that you know there is a
psychoanalytic for my federal um
uh agents that are after me whatever let
me give you a pro tip this was true in
like elementary school too this is like
a deep trauma i have it's like
friend groups
formed based on excluding me hating me
you know what i mean just feel like
that's still true entire communities
prop up just because
they
they just repress they're just
repressing the fact they hate me
but they can't justify it it's like the
one singular irrational point of
consensus that they just subconsciously
agree
two holes
uh thank you general
yeah um
uh
was it i would i don't think i i was not
i've never been like uh
i'm hated on the internet i guess but uh
that was kind of a novelty for me
yeah
generally well liked like
my whole life like it's funny like you
know with me it's like people people
genuinely either love me or hate me i
don't have anyone who's just like
indifferent you know like yeah yeah
yeah but i wish i did i wish i had
people that were just indifferent
it's kind of funny to me because that's
something that like people uh on the
internet try to like suggest is that
like uh you know i was like uh i was
like the nerd getting stuffed into a
locker or whatever and i was like
i was just i was pretty fine like it was
pretty you know
i was i kind of i miss at least uh
seeing like that many people that i was
friends with actually that's probably
the only part of no i swear it's scary
because
my internet presence has just become how
i was in elementary school
and part of middle school which was
i was neither the nerd
nor the popular kid i was in i was
always the controversial
guy who was like people i divided people
everyone was always divided over me like
you either love me or hated me
but i was just a source of conflict
that's what i was i always just started
conflict
i did that too too yeah yeah i feel you
i was i was never learning i was always
the one who like disrupted
the
like i would disrupt a friend group i
would disrupt
a social dynamic and people would just
be divided on me as haas or a complete
piece of [Β __Β ] [Β __Β ] him whatever or are
we loyal to him we like it's always it's
always i've always been a source of
division my whole life
yeah
i feel man um yeah i used to do that a
lot too
but i always like i thought it was fun
mine was mine was more like uh
man i was i don't know i just like uh
like a kind of uh
more of a troll i guess online back it
like years ago um but it was fun
i've always been a troll on the is for
as long as i've ever been on the
internet i was a troll all i did was
troll that's all i did when i you know
what you know um i never was a gamer
when i i had the video game consoles and
i had multiplayer exclusively to troll
when i even when i was playing was the
most fun yeah all i did was troll in
video games that's all i ever did and
kind of do you know what that sort of
represents it's something that i think
about a lot because it's like what i
like to do to do with video games was i
never liked to play the game that the
video game was but i like to like make
up a game yes absolutely absolutely and
that's exactly how it was absolutely
that's what i feel like is like yeah
that's the key yeah that's that's i know
i never played games dude i never
actually i never played games like based
on what the game was meant for i always
invented my own even halo like
one of the reasons i like yeah that's
why halo was beautiful the custom game
settings yeah that's i didn't even play
the matchmaking the halo was for me
theater mode forge and custom games and
all i would do is make my own games in
those things i would make my own things
right
and
um
yeah but no i was always a troll online
you know like when facebook first
started out in middle school
i made like 35 facebook accounts just to
troll my classmates like i would make
like every day i'd make a new facebook
account
and i would add
i would add everyone in my school and
just like
you know what i mean yeah and this was
facebook first launched this is when
facebook first launched right
and
um
yeah i mean like
uh in high school in freshman year like
um i had like a cousin that went to
school with me and i made a fake account
of like this like scary white guy
who was like bald that i put as the
profile picture so i'd made him look
like a skinhead or whatever
and i added them he was like my cousin
so he's arab or whatever and
i added him and i said that i was
i was transferring into the school and
that i have an issue with muslims or
whatever like just some [Β __Β ] like that
like just to scare him or whatever
that's the radicalization pipeline to
being uh a deus volt neo-nazi
state we just proved
to prove your in-cell origins of uh
doing
of creating sock puppet white
nationalists to to scare yeah i don't
know why i just confessed i don't know
why i just couldn't
but
god has um but you're on for that's
unforgivable no i mean i i told him like
a day later that it was me so i didn't
make i didn't have it go on too long but
that was a good bit started freaking out
but
yeah i mean
all i ever did was troll that's all i
ever did but i mean um
well trolling still like effectively
like that's that was uh why you got such
a big response you know because it was a
good troll it's not even a the best
trolls are telling the truth that's what
i always say that's like just telling
the truth is the greatest troll i feel
like twitter to me
i was trolling almost the whole time on
twitter but i was also invested in it
does that make sense
like everything i was doing was to
provoke people but also because
uh i felt like i was at war and i have
to win the troll war you know what i
mean
that makes sense
yeah no that was kind of a mindset that
was uh
that big part of like the 2000s to like
late to 2010's internet was this idea of
like
you know like cyber activism as being
like you know we're like freelance
intelligence agents like for the people
yeah
every day
was prank call every business every
hotel every st
i i would
yeah sometimes even when i was alone
just with no one there just for my own
sake i just
rank all this [Β __Β ] out of like everyone
all the time
i would prank all relatives i would
prank call like distant relatives
everyone i would prank call everything
um
growing up
and i feel you i was a bit of a
a bit of a troll myself i didn't do any
i don't think it
get up to that much stuff but
no i was like it was scary with me
because i was like fanatical about it it
wasn't even a
it's like uh
i i liked uh it was almost like i was i
was a demon or something you know
like the video of your video about a
dragon war
yeah you saw that that was
that was that was i liked that a lot
that was uh it reminded me of like
myself
i
was like a kid and stuff like that like
dragon war and like that's like so much
like a great metaphor for what the
internet's like i thought that whole
story
because it's like the the unintended
consequences you know
i'm getting a little tired here man but
i'm gonna eat some food and stuff but
this is really nice yeah yeah i gotta
use the bathroom too but
yeah good talk man
peace out man have a good one you too
see you later